iโm staying in tonight. i wonโt stop you from leaving.
i know that iโm not what you wanted, am i?
itโs not worth the effort to lie.
you donโt have to remind me so much how i disappoint you.
i think if i ruin this that i know i can live with it.
maybe the emptiness is just a lesson in canvases.
maybe itโs all gonna turn out alright. i know that itโs not, but i have to believe that it is.
i canโt tell the difference when iโm all alone.
is it real or a dream? which is worse?
when i turn out the lights, thereโs no one left between myself and me.
i know you donโt understand, because you donโt believe what you canโt see.
when you watch me throwing punches at the devil, it just looks like iโm fighting with me.
thereโs a comfort in failure.
i know you were trying to help but youโre only making it worse.
you canโt even imagine how badly it hurts.
even you couldnโt manage to pull the fuse from the back of my head.
when you tell me you loved me, i wanted so bad to believe it.
tell me you love me. tell me you loved me.
nobodyโs worried about me.
i shouldnโt have built a house in the middle of your chest.
youโre everything i want and iโm all you dread.
the harder i swim, the faster i sink.
my heart is gonna eat itself.
itโs just me, the vacant and nobody else.
i know whatโs in my cannibal chest.
do i turn into light if i burn alive?
whatโs it like to be empty, full of only echoes?
i could have sworn the sirens were the holy ghost just speaking in morse code.
if i scream a little louder i know you would have heard it.
if i could do what i want, i would become an electrician. iโd climb inside my ears and rearrange the wires in my brain.
a different me would be inhabiting this body.
i was just wondering if thereโs any way that you made a mistake.
if it makes me feel better, how bad could it be?
iโm not fooled when you tell me youโre glad i came.
am i honest or just a hypocrite?
there is nowhere i can hide from your humiliating grace.
i didnโt see the point in trying to save myself.
damn it, we are gonna figure something out if it takes me all night.
as long as youโre not tired yet of talking, it helps to make it hurt less.
when is it too many times to tell you that i think of you every night?
i could be cruel. i could make you hate me.
itโs not that i think iโm good. i know that iโm evil.
i swear to god, i think iโm gonna die.
iโm conducting an experiment on how it feels to die.
try to stay calm, because nobody knows the violent partner you carry around.
i take it all back. i changed my mind.