We're so back // It's so over

been in a pain flare the past 2 days and i think today is worse than those days RIP

i hate constantly playing mindgames with myself in regards to health issues bc i feel like i should just stop trying to find further answers and just survive w my current dxs. but i would also Love an answer that actually fits the scope of my symptoms and for someone to actually sit with me and go through what it means for me n my body n what i can do specifically. but its too much to ask for with our medical hellscape and im so god damn tired of having to go to specialists

system wise, there has been such positive progress w HABIT in recent years it's crazy. i feel like it's due to a combo of things but i am not mad about it at all

hate being schizoaffective sometimes