memoirs of a silly tranny

it's literally almost 12 LMAO but today was good!! this guy i'm seeing is so cute and sweet we planned a lil pool date on monday :3 a little nervous for him to see me in a swimsuit but i did a tarot reading and it basically told me that i have nothing to be afraid of and that this connection is going to break a cycle so i'm just going to be open to whatever happens i'm not forcing anything!! overall still feel very euphoric and mentally calm i'm about to take my second dose once i eat <3

yay first week of hrt just took my morning dose!!! i still feel really great like everything has just made more sense and been more clear since starting e like it has really saved my life my whole perspective on life has changed :) i know there will be bad moments coming but i no longer feel crippled or scared by them like i used to just like a week ago??? it's just crazy how quickly this medication has turned my mental state around like i really feel unstoppable i thought it might have been mania but my manic episodes usually don't last this long and i really don't feel manic i just feel very content, in control, and happy! i'm so grateful :)

okay so experienced my first “negative” emotion on estrogen yesterday after journaling it was so intense and not fun. especially because the things that triggered it weren’t even that bad lmfaooo it was mildly irritating at the worst. my laser appointment had to be rescheduled and i wanted snacks to make up for it and that k-street truck i wanted was closed so i cried :( it felt good to release that shit though even as stupid as it felt haha i took my first dose this morning and i take my second in a couple hours so we’ll see how tomorrow goes so far still so good i have been euphoric as hell!! my date and i had to reschedule our date today though but all is well he’s a sweet baby angel

i'm about to take my first dose of the day and my nipples have started to become more sensitive and it honestly feels really good at the moment. my sex drive has lowered drastically but i like it that way i feel like when i'm turned on now it's a lot more intense than it used to be. still feeling very emotionally regulated and euphoric!!!

i love u too sweet pea