Little Requin

I'm trying my best to stay positive during my job hunt 💝. Today I learnt of the existence of timed digital intelligence tests using number/letter/shape combinations and, going into it completely unprepared, scored such a low score that they likely won't even consider me. Though, it was strange considering that I still did the interview. The accompanying personality test felt so illegal to me. It repeatedly asked whether I felt confident about myself, liked myself, stood up for myself... Many such questions. I'm sure that you could use its results to diagnose anhedonia, depression, autism. I'm not saying thay I have any of that. I guess that my one saving grace is that the invitation for these tests landed in my spam box, and I was reminded of them in the morning before the interview, so I completed them just minutes before the interviewing, leaving the interviewers also no time to reflect on the results. At least, that's what I joke about to myself.

Do you talk to plusies when you're in littlespace?

How many layers do you usually feel happiest with, on top of your diaper (onesie, jammies, etc)?

Do you combine littlespace with other self-care habits?

Have a good day

Thank you for the Ask

I talk to my plushies in and out of littleapce ^^, or maybe I always am in littlespace when I'm in my bed. They're sitting on my desk, in my chairs, on my bed... They are sitting everywhere! I love my plushies, and I hope that they don't mind living with me ❤️

As for the layers.. In Summer I'd like to have just a onesie, though in Winter it gets a little chilly so I need to wear pajama bottoms as well, and socks, cus I don't heat my bedroom much. I think that it's not healthy to sleep in a heated bedroom, and instead it should be around 16-18°C throughout the night for a good rest.

I use Littlespace to relax, and so I try to combine it with rest, drinking lots, eating my fruities, pretending that there's no worry in the world

Take care of yourself 💕

I don't have any recent pictures of myself, sorry.. Here is one from the coucherequin archives ^^

Hello, thank you for the ask <3

How are you doing? Health? Life changes? Share what's comfortable...of course.

(I've also been absent for awhile...recovering from a mishap...long healing)

Thank you for the Ask and for caring about me through sending your messages and comments ❤️. I try to answer all of them as soon as I can. Though, sometimes it takes me a week or more to gather the mental energy to properly commit to tumblr ^^

I was holding this Ask back, cus I had wanted to write about a personal thing, though I decided to put those words into a separate post, right before this one.

I hope that you're doing okay, you said "recoering from a mishap, long healing"; that does not sound good!!!

Hm, well, there's many things that I could write again; but I'm tired right now and I wanna stay positive. My work contract is gonna expire soon, and I still don't have a new contract yet. I'm soliciting a lot and I've had a few interviews but it kinda sucks being told I'm not experienced enough, especially considering I'm 35 years old and have 11 years work experience... Though, such arguments can be said without logical basis, if the real argument is too ugly (or illegal) to mention. On the one hand I don't really mind being unemployed for a few months, it'd really make me able to relax a bit (I think), catch up on so much of life, though on the other hand I also kinda worry that I'd just need to continue my current research work unpaid which I don't really want to do. My boss was already mentioning that I can take my work laptop home with me after my contract ends. Well, of course I wanna see my work projects finished, and preferably with me as first-author on the publications, though I don't really wanna put hundreds of hours of my free time into it. Hm, well, let's see about that. If you're wondering what I'm talking about; I work as a postdoc right now, which is sort-of a research position that you do after you've completed a PhD; you're not yet an assistant professor, but you already have a doctorate. It's like a no-man's land where everything is possible but at the same time nothing is possible cus you don't have project grants. I learned a lot during this period, but I also learned about all my physical and mental limits, even more so than what I did during my doctorate. Hm, but I'm also not the 25-year old kiddo anymore who'd work 7 days per week until 10 pm xD, I just don't have the stamina any more. At least, if I continue too long, I just crash the next day. I still do love what I do; doing lab work, analysing data, writing manuscripts; I've always loved doing these things and I'd continue doing it forever if my finances allowed for it. As for whether I actually wanted to move into a professorship position; well I doubt it. But, we can only write our own destiny so far.

Talking about writing; I realize that my casual writing here on tumblr isn't of very high quality, but I am finally allocating a bit of my time to writing a novel ^^. I'm not sure yet whether I'd wanna share that here, but I can still mention that I'm working on it. It's been such a breath of fresh energy into my life to devote my time into such a passion project.

It isn't a nsfw novel, though. My favorite writing style is multi-POV where each chapter is written from a strict first-person POV, i.e. the reader sees the world through the eyes of that character. What it enforces is a distinct thinking/speaking style, but also a very strict set of rules governing how characters only know about facts and events if they have heard about it, even though the reader knows much more than that. I think that creates an unusual tension that is unique to this writing style. This first novel is sort-of an exploration phase, as it's my first long-format work that isn't purely scientific. I was aiming for around 150.000 words, and I'd say that I'm roughly halfway with the work right now. If you want to, you could tell me whether I should publish it somewhere, or just keep it to myself for now ^^.

As for other stuff... I'm planning to go to Dokomi soon ^^. I always forget to post to tumblr during anime conventions, though maybe it's also for the best that I don't.. And then a little while after that, I'm gonna go to Japan Expo Paris !!! So much fun things upcoming