cw: angst/comfort, hanahaki disease, lumine x reader, kaeya x reader, cheating, very very very ooc kaeya
IMAGINE you’re Kaeya’s lover, he’s a genuine man and apart from what people say about him- he’s actually a very good lover, but lately he’s been paying less attention to you, it didn’t bother you much at first.
It soon got worse, he would come home late and leave the house early, he cancels on dates more frequently, and you would be called by Diluc to pick him up from the tavern because he’s been drinking all night and passed out, even though he told you a while ago he couldn’t take you on a date because he’s busy.
You knew he was dealing with a lot right now because of the Stormterror incident so you tried to understand, but you just couldn’t keep on going like this.
But one kiss, one sorry, and one ‘I missed you’ and you were all putty in his hands once again and soon he had started to be more attentive to you to pay you back from neglecting you.
You wished it had stayed that way, but it didn’t. Not until she came along. Lumine. A mysterious, beautiful, otherworldly woman, a strong one as well. She helped the knights deal with the stormterror issue, and she was all Kaeya could talk about, talking about how beautiful she was her golden short hair that shone brightly amidst the morning sun and glowed gently when hit by the moon, her amber eyes that would almost look green when under bright light and would almost look red when it was dark. Heck you haven’t even seen her once but you immediately recognized her when you did see her thanks to Kaeya describing her as if she was the most beautiful being he had laid his eyes upon. You loved Kaeya's voice and his rants, but whenever he talks about her you feel your chest heave and your throat tighten up. You can't stop yourself from selfishly thinking that he'd feel the same every time he even thinks about her.
You hated how right he was. She was beautiful, strong, and above all, she was kind. Even when you openly glared at her and snapped at her randomly for reasons you know were no fault of hers, she just smiled and nodded. It was infuriating how perfect she was, it was infuriating how hard it was to dislike her. It was infuriating to understand why Kaeya couldn't shut up about her.
The petals appeared. You were confused at first but after a quick trip to the library you found nothing. That is until you stumbled upon a children's fairytale book.
A princess from a small kingdom has never known the love of her parents nor her people. She's experienced admiration but never love. She was introduced to a beautiful prince, her future husband; truly kind, dependable, and loveable. The princess wasn't an exception to his charm. The princess bore her heart to the prince, but the prince held another in his heart. The princess cried and amidst her tears, petals came up her mouth. She cried to her parents, the prince, and her closest servant. The prince---ever so kind---swore to find the cure. They wade through countless kingdoms, the prince takes care of the fragile princess throughout their travels and the princess feels lighter and lighter each day. Atop a barren hill, they found a lone cabin owned by a graceful woman. "Ones love must be reciprocated by ones loved person and only then may one be cured of the flowers" she stated. The princess wept, for her love could never be reciprocated by the prince. The prince dared not watch her weep. The princess and the prince travelled back a long way to return to their kingdom. As the prince takes care of the princess each day, he finds himself endeared to her, but not enough to take away the flowers stemming from her lungs. The princess, nauseated by flowers, only wished to be buried in a barren land. The prince dared not swear to fulfill her wish. The prince watched the princess each day, watching day by day as her hair turns gray. The princess took her last breath at fall. The prince, could only curse that his love was not enough for her to live. The prince searched far and wide for a barren land where not even the most resilient of flowers could grow to bury the princess. He found himself at a familiar hilltop. The graceful woman readily welcomed him. There, the woman's lover, and the princess' gravestones stood beside each other.
Well that was too depressing of a story to be told to children. At least now you found the cause of your conundrum. The story called it "Hanahaki" - caused by unrequited love. Ridiculous. How could a fantastical disease even be real? On what metric is love measured and how can they say it's not reciprocated? Not wanting to admit that your love for Kaeya was unrequited, you confronted him.
You expected him to assure you that he loved you but instead you got berated and yelled at, he called you an attention seeker, even making up a fake disease because you were so insecure about Lumine.
You were appalled, but just as easy as he could leave you speechless, is just as easy as you could forgive him. All he had to do was say sorry and that he didn’t mean it, hugging you tightly, and of course you hugged him back.
You could handle it if it was for him.
Until you came home early after a long expedition to an unfamiliar scent surrounding your shared home. You wished it wasn’t what you thought, but no matter how much you prayed the archons didn’t heed your call.
You saw Kaeya in your shared bed with a blonde woman, naked. They were sleeping soundly and you almost felt like you were the mistress because of how tightly he was holding her, and instead of screaming at them to leave you silently packed your belongings, looking back at Kaeya one last time before running out as quietly as you can, trying to hold back the petals creeping up your throat.
You stayed with Diluc at Dawn Winery for the meantime, telling him about what happened and occasionally pausing to cough, Diluc had noticed the petals but didn’t mention anything about it.
A few days later Lumine came in the tavern, looking at you she felt relieved, your eyes twitched. How could she be that happy when she was sleeping with Kaeya behind your back?
As she approached you about to touch you, you slapped her and yelled at her to get away.
“How could you smile at me after sleeping with Kaeya! Both of you are nothing but trash!“ you yelled, your voice sore from the petals scratching at your throat. You waited for Lumine to snap at you, but it never happened.
After you had somewhat calmed down Lumine explained to you that she’d long rejected Kaeya’s advances because she knew you were with him, but with Diluc and Paimon’s testimonies you came to believe her, apologizing about slapping her cheek.
“If it’d make you feel better, you can slap me too“ you proposed, showing her your right cheek.
Lumine refused profusely and told you that she could never.
“I have been looking for you after you had disappeared without a trace, I’ve been praying that you weren’t hurt, my prayers would be in vain if I brought to you harm“ she said and your guilt about your words to her and slapping her doubled, mumbling multiple ‘I’m sorry‘s, but Lumine only pulled you into her arms and held you tight telling you that it’s alright. Once again you felt your eyes swell with tears.
Your hanahaki has gotten even worse than before, you were now throwing up full calla lily’s, and you could barely breath, Lumine (along with paimon) and Diluc has been by your side at all times.
Diluc had decided that it was enough and that you needed a doctor to help you, thus buying you a ticket to Liyue to get you treated
“Can’t I just stay here and drink medicine they send?“ you ask
“That would take too long, it’s better if you’re there physically, it would speed things up, don’t fret if anything happens Dawn Winery will always welcome you“ Diluc replied, you were going to protest yet again but Lumine had cut you off
“Don’t worry about the prize or anything else, I’ve prepared everything you need on our trip, I was headed to Liyue to find the geo archon anyway“ she told you, you were still hesitant but after a few reassurances from the two you gave in.
The trip to Liyue was quite smooth, you had went to the doctor with Lumine and had recieved prescriptions to ease the pain the doctor had told you that getting surgery would be the only way to get rid of the flowers, but it would also take your feelings away, you refused.
And so you decided to spend your time in Liyue with Lumine to the fullest, living your life until you exhaust yourself.
And then the night came when you couldn’t stop coughing and was rushed to the doctor by Lumine, upon examination it was discovered that there’s a flower growing inside of you, the doctor saw it clearly down your throat, she asked you to stay so that she could further examine your situation.
Lumine was horrified, just a few days ago you were celebrating the lantern rite festival and now you were suffering with your disease, how unfair could the archons be to punish you? They should punish the cheating bastard Kaeya!
Lumine was pulled out of her thoughts when you held her hand, casually chatting with her as if you weren’t fighting for your life right now and Lumine wanted to cry but knew you wouldn’t want that, so she conversed with you.
Lumine visits you every day and tells you about what she did, she describes everything in great detail so that you would be able to imagine it well.
It was like any other day, Lumine was here to visit you sitting beside your bed and telling you about her day until you interrupted her
“Lumine, I’ll probably die soon so“ you paused
“could I make a request?“
'‘of course anything for you you could ask me to hand you the world and I would’' was what Lumine wanted to say but instead she nodded and replied
“could you not put flowers on my grave?” although it was a peculiar request, Lumine didn’t need to ask why to understand, she nodded and smiled to tell you that she got it
“thank you Lumine, you’re always so good to me I wish“ you paused yet again feeling your eyelids get heavy
“I wish I would have fallen in love with you instead“ you chuckle at your silly statement, but Lumine stayed silent, you looked up at her to see what was wrong, but she only had a melancholic look on her face
“Lumine?“ you called to her and she was brought back to reality, you asked her what was wrong and she shook her head telling you everything was alright
“Do you have any other request before you, you know“ she asked, seeming to be uncomfortable to mention your inevitable death.
You thought for a moment before nodding, she listened attentively
“I want to go home“ you said and smiled at her Lumine smiled back at you
You had said your goodbyes to the doctor and friends you made
“Friend even though the time will come that you are not here, you will continue to shine like gold in my memories“ you chuckled at the tall man.
“there you are again with your cheesy lines Zhongli” he chuckled as well and bid you a proper goodbye, Lumine came to assist you after saying goodbye to her friends as well, and as you board the ship you couldn’t wait to get home again after so long.
It’s been days and finally you were near Mondstadt, you were riding a carriage back home right now, and as you were looking out the window you recognized a large tree not far away from where you were
“Windrise“ you whispered, entranced by the beauty of the scenery and just then the carriage stopped, you were confused, Lumine got down from the carriage and held out her hand
“shall we?“ she smiled cheekily at you while bowing like a knight to a princess, you chuckled at her silliness and took her hand as you go down the carriage
“yes we shall“ you replied to her and she led you to Windrise, as you approach closer and closer to the statue of your archon you felt more and more at ease
Lumine led you to Windrise and you both rested at the bottom of the big tree, you chatted for a bit and you eventually stayed silent just enjoying each others company, you rest your head on her shoulder and hold her hand while looking up at the sky, Lumine doing the same
"If you fall asleep here, I'll leave you so your eyes better stay open, okay?" Lumine teased you, you scoffed playfully but nodded your head to let her know that you got the memo.
"Going to Windrise again? Are you not getting tired of that place?" Diluc asked, whispering 'you visit that place more than you visit me' underneath his breath, though you still heard
"Lumine's waiting, I'll be back soon" you reply with a chuckle heading off to Windrise.
"Not bringing a picnic basket today?" Diluc asked
"Lumine's got it covered" you reply, turning to Lumine who was beside you, she nodded and held up the basket, Diluc sighed.
"I'll bring them back soon" Lumine said before taking your hand in hers and leading you to Windrise.
"It's noon already why are you still here?" Diluc asked.
"You sound like you don't want us here" Lumine chuckled at your response, Diluc wasn't amused.
"There's been a lot of hilichurl camps and such that's been sighted near Windrise so we decided to stay indoors instead" Lumine answered.
Lumine had been going back to Windrise after her travels and her commissions, meeting you there and talking to you about interesting things she has seen or the hilichurls she fought. She thought it made you happy to hear her talk to you, and she was more than happy to talk to you as well.
Lumine would build a house at Windrise if she could so that you won't have to be so out of breath from walking, when you body is frail enough. She trains hard everyday and exceeds every single challenge so that she would be strong enough to carry you to Teyvat. But even if she did build a house there, the hilichurls and slimes lurking about would either destroy it or inhabit it, she didn't want to take the risk of you getting hurt, just the thought of you being attacked by hilichurls and the such while you're peacefully resting inside terrified her.
You assured Lumine that you were fine with walking even though you had to stop every time so that you could cough out the petals in your throat, you'd bring at least a gallon of water to dump in your mouth just to spit it out again so that your mouth would be washed off blood.
Lumine was worried but just a smile and a kind pat and a single sentence made her give in to you
"What is a house when you're not there? I am most at home with you" and though it's clique and oh so overused, Lumine didn't mind, she chuckled and teased you telling you that you should lessen talking with Xingqiu because you were starting to sound like a cheesy male lead, you playfully slapped her arm and scoffed. But no matter what Lumine says, she too feels most at home with you.
Lumine had grown to love you with each passing day, you were wonderful, beautiful, kind, intelligent, everything. But as they say, the more you love something the more painful it is when you lose them and that day came sooner than she thought.
You had collapsed after coughing out a full grown lily, Lumine ran to Dawn Winery as fast as she could, calling out to Diluc and crying for help, Diluc came to your aid.
"A full flower, not a very great sign of recovery" Your voice was as light as a feather, rasped, low. Lumine was certain she did not catch your disease, it was a rare case after all, so why did she feel her chest tighten at the sight of your empty eyes?
"D-don't say that! Maybe you just need to get the flower out of your system then it'll never come back!" Paimon immediately blurted out.
You could only chuckle as your eyelids feel heavier and heavier.
"I'm getting sleepy" you muttered.
"Okay, you rest well, when you wake up tomorrow, let's go to Windrise" Lumine replied.
You nodded and closed your eyes.
Lumine took the flowers and threw them away. Kaeya didn't have it in him to flinch, his blurred eyes could barely see the carved name on the stone.
"They don't like flowers" she simply said as she placed fruits in front of your gravestone.
Wrote this a while back and I'm only now posting it. Hope you guys enjoyed!
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