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HIS HAIRโS MESSY,ย ย ย stringy and frayed looking from the tugging and countless times heโs forced his fingers through. he has to focus what little concentration he has left on the faint tick-tock of the wall clock to his leftย ย ( who really has those anymore? )ย ย ย so he doesnโt have to watch what little respect heโd been able to keep steadyย ย ย dissolveย ย from their face. his throat is dry, pulled taut with the disappointment thatโs heavy in the air and the pity he can already feel starting to sink in his bones. his mother had always told him it was a fatal flaw, the forgetfulness thatโs easily mistaken for carelessness.ย ย ย โย ย look,ย ย โย ย ย he spoke through the initial crack in his voice, running his tongue over his chapped lips to repeat himself more steadily.ย ย ย โย ย LOOKย ย โย ย i know. it was my fault. the date genuinely slipped my mind. iโmย ย sorry.ย ย โ
s.ย ย ย ย ย โ why the fuck did we think we could actually do this? โ gets whispered passed stressed lips despite the need to scream. ( thanks solely to the baby thatโs finallyย managed to fall asleep minutes prior. ) the angles of his face reek of aggravation, shoulders canted in a manner that abel only ever displayed when he was caught between the fear of failing and a far too out of reach goal laid in front of him. his line of vision remains on a tuft of formula left on the corner of the counter ; marbled with the memory of wine drunk evenings and the promise of bitter old men on front porch steps. they werenโt supposed to die. not yet. and abel could hardly manage to remember to do his own laundry a practical amount within a month, nevermind having to make sure the insides of his shirts werenโt lined with baby socks. guilt had always been his heaviest burden, burrowing deep in his chest in order to root itself tightly around ribs. โ iโm calling her grandparents in the morning. โ
if any of you are looking for some angst n pain, pls hit the like & iโll either write up a starter or reply to some of your opens bc iโm in dire need of heartache this early morning.ย

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*ย ย hannahย ย /ย ย ย hcnnahlay
ย ย ย in the stupidity of his example, hannah found comfort. a comfort she hadnโt known herself capable of until now. abel was a safe place. a place hannah could crawl into and keep warm. a place to house her when times got toughโฆ a place she could call home. that in itself was what was so terrifying about it all. depending on someone like this while knowing at any minute they could walk away. .ย it was something it seemed only fools would do. someone as logical and level headed as hannah should have known to head for the hillsโฆ and yet, all she wanted was to further burrow herself into him.ย โyouโre dumb.โ a throw away insult, surely, but it was enough to bring her gaze back to him. if the house his company had made would comr crashing down on herย than so be it.ย โbut i like it.โ
ย ย ย it felt like there was an invisible cord connecting them, whatever feeling swamped her seemed to simultaneously overthrow whatever composure abel had thought he had. and that should have been red flag number one, truly,ย because abel had always been independent and heโd always been adamant in keeping himself apart from those that he had close, always at least a full armโs length away despite how attached at the hip they might have been perceived. but he fed off of the dips and highs that hannah had, even now, a lightening of the heart that had previously tumbled to his stomach. โ i could have used a drowning analogy like everyone else, if thatโs more your cup of tea. โ idly, a few fingers of his left hand brushed over her knee. โ iโm also scared of beaches. jellyfishes at beaches, really, but beaches in general is a good summary. crashing planes, black ice, acquiring an allergy to milk chocolate so iโm condemned to dark chocolate for the rest of my life. โ
*ย ย hannahย ย /ย ย ย hcnnahlay
ย ย ย hannah hadnโt wanted to cry and that was evident in the way she pushed at her cheeks, forcing the tears back into her hairline.ย โiโm not.โ she lied, sniffling as the back of her hand patted at the dampened area beneath her eye. admitting her fear seemed more detrimental than the fear itself. opening up, really bearing her soul seemed like something so terrifying. growing up, hannah had learned to keep any negativities to herself. it was easy to remain in good graces when she seemed perfect. it was a role her brother had fit into so easily but one she had struggled to mold into.ย โiโm just -ย โ but the words didnโt come, instead she shrugged, pulling her saddened gaze from his eyes to rest on her hands now in her lap. despite the feeling like she would choke on such an admission, she willed the words to claw up her throat, pry open her teeth and slip past her lips.ย โiโm just scared is all.โ it felt foreign. someone with such a confidence, such a normalcy shouldnโt have been so emotionally stunted in this way.ย โits - its dumb.โ
ย ย ย ย rather than grapple onto her, abel let his hands lay flat against the floor, keeping it so she could be in charge of what space there was between them, or lack there of. his voice remained soft ; a tactic his mother had always used on him to instill some confidence without coming off overwhelming.ย โ me too. โ though maybe not for the sake reason. abel had always made it an adamant choice to keep his feelings to himself and expel whatever scenarios would have demanded more of him. vulnerability was not an emotion he favored to adorn, not in the company of his parents and certainly not in the company of his friends.ย โ itโs like knowingly standing in the path of a tornado, i think. survive and have a really badass story to tell the cashier at the grocery store even though she never even asked to hear it, or do it and die and feel really idiotic for it. yโknow, in hell or whereverย โcause youโll be dead.ย โ the latter had always been the reason why abel opted for his own company, but meeting someone like hannah lay was not a normal occurrence. he peeked down at her hands.ย โ i think weโd be the first part. โย
*ย ย hannahย ย /ย ย ย hcnnahlay
ย ย ย hannah was happy to drop the subject, though she wasnโt so keen on dropping her suspicion on leoโs intent for abel . . nor would she be willing to let it go so openly now as they had both divulged their own feelings for one another. for the moment she would allow herself to be distracted by abelโs beauty.ย โlooking at you.โ she whispered after a brief pause, a soft and almost sad smile pulling at the corners of her lips. it was with the realization that pain was inevitable that her chin muscles tightened along with her forehead, chin quivering as she gazed over his face. the last thing hannah had wanted in this moment was to cry and yet, against her own will, tears had began to cover the curved surface of her green eyes.ย โyouโre so handsome.โ it was an attempt to pull attention from her hyper sensitive state, one she swore was failing.ย
ย ย ย the corners of his mouth naturally softened, humor beginning to ease the tension that had burrowed in the muscles of his shoulders. even if it was short-lived. abel kept his breathing pattern shallow, as if somehow making his facial features too animated would break whatever trance he seemed to have her in. ( as if it all would wash away with a dazed shake of her head, like in the movies. ) part of him had wished himself inebriated enough to chalk this all up to manifested daydreams, maybe then he would have missed the too telling tremble of her chin.ย โ thank you. i tell myself so every time i walk past a victoriaโs secret with those giant angel banners in their front windows, โ he mused to further latch onto some semblance of calm, though his hands fed into the space between them, drawing his thumb over what tears had reached the bottom of her face. soft enough only to reach the distance between his mouth and hers, abel pled,ย โ please donโt cry. โ
*ย ย hannahย ย /ย ย ย hcnnahlay
ย ย ย the fact that he couldnโt see it made hannah question whether he wanted to.ย โi like to think sometimes what people show you is the truthโฆโ she spoke decidedly, as if that was the best way to approach it. hannah didnโt want to ruin his idea of herโฆ didnโt want to cast a shadow on someone who shined so bright to him despite the fact that she hated herโฆ despite the fact that hannah saw exactly the sort of person she was.ย โand sometimes, you just gotta believe that truth, yโknow? donโt question it.โ her hands moved then to cradle both side of his jaw, thumbs softly rubbing at his cheeks while she pulled back to get a better look at him.ย
ย ย ย ย it wasnโt like he and leo were friends, so abel felt no real need to bother with carrying on the conversation. the atmosphere felt a lot like limbo, or what he would have assumed it to be, because abel was torn between melting into the normal calm he got from hearing hannah speak and the irritating, though currently minute, bubbles of anxiety that demanded he get some point blank clarification from her. he swallowed, all but physically stripping himself from his train of thought in order to watch her. heat boiled to the apples of his cheeks, and part of abel was near certain she could feel it regardless of how brief her touch was. his shoulders remained stiff, inhibiting him from leaning forward to close the space sheโd put between them.ย โ what are you doing? โ

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*ย ย hannahย ย /ย ย ย hcnnahlay
ย ย ย the idea of admitting she was threatened by leo had hannahโs stomach in disgusted knotsโฆ the fact of the matter was it really had nothing to do with leo and everything to do with abel. she didnโt want someone like leo to hold his attentions. he was pure. . as pure as they came and to be tainted by someone so. .ย horrid just didnโt seem right. hannah wanted to be the one to taint him. it was pure selfishness at the end of the day.ย โi just didnโt want to see her all over you.โ which wasnโt a lie. hannah had just chose to leave out the part where she swore the girl would make eye contact with her as she whispered in his ear or ran her fingers through his hair. had the other wanted to make her jealous it had surely worked.ย
ย ย ย maybe some parts of it had been too much. abel didnโt really know leo, and he couldnโt make any honest assumptions about her character, but no part of it had seemed malicious to him. sheโd invited them all to a show and to hangout backstage afterwards, and though there might have been a bit of innocent sparkling from abelโs eyes, it had all came off as a sincere outreach to fans. maybe even something she did every couple of city stops, for the sake of seeming personable without splashing herself all over magazine covers. whatever the reason, again, had he known it would have made hannah the least bit uncomfortable, he wouldnโt have been so quick to say yes.ย
ย ย ย โ whatโs so different about her? โ abel asked ; it wasnโt like leo was the first girl that had sat on his lap in the same vicinity as hannah, and she probably wouldnโt have been the last had this conversation never happened. his right hand moved to clasp her arm beneath her elbow, a simple action for skin to skin contact.ย โ i know you already said that she was a bitch, i always figured that was just her persona, or whatever, for the public. sell records and shit. but sheโs as harmless as .. i donโt know, your sorority sisters. or my english professor.ย โ
*ย ย hannahย ย /ย ย ย hcnnahlay
ย ย ย while in some ways it was relieving, it was more so daunting. with this came the possibility of their ending. with this came the inevitability that she would lose him in all aspects. one day their relationship would simply cease to exist in all facets and that was an ending hannah wasnโt sure she would weather well if at all.ย โbut i really hate that girlโฆโ she mumbled against his lips before she was laughing at her own stereotypical behavior, the phraseย โiโm not like other girlsโ coming back to haunt her. gently, hwr arms snaked up and around his neck, willing him to stay here in this position for as long as possible.ย โlike, stupid hate her.โ
ย ย ย her lips were heaven, even when only brushing over his as she spoke. abel had found a steady calm in keeping his gaze aligned with hers, hands at her hips solely to keep him anchored to the reality of this unfolding scenario. โ leo ? โ he clarified, although there really wasnโt any other viable choice. abel had spent his fair share in the company of levi and heather both, and hannah had never had a disgruntled comment about it. โ is that why you said you wanted to go home? because you hate her? โ he inquired, syllables soft and low, genuine curiosity coloring over whatever teasing could have easily been sported. the fact was abel didnโt need confidence boosts, not in that aspect, and where one could have easily twisted her confession into as much, all he was hit by was a tsunami of disbelief.ย
*ย ย hannahย ย /ย ย ย hcnnahlay
ย ย ย hannah hadnโt intended for this moment to pivot into something more physical. she had only hoped that her kiss could offer him the answers he needed that she couldnโt bring herself to speak out loud just yet. but it seemed they had always communicated well on a more primal level and that was reiterated in the language his lips burned into her cheeks and the psalms his thumbs carved into her hips. another dense breath pushed passed her lips, forehead to forehead as she willed herself to speak once more.ย โi mean it.โ the words were whispered, barely there attempts at proving the intent of the words she had spoken before.ย โi love you, abel. i do.โ a soft breath of a laugh followed, head lolling against his own before settling again in the center of his forehead.ย โi really fucking do.โ
ย ย ย the uncertainty was a migraine of itself. abel could vividly remember the last time heโd told someone he had feelings for them, how quickly it had catapulted into responsibility and an overabundance of affection and how ultimately it had deteriorated into less than ruins of a long-forgotten civilization. and though he knew there was a good chance, a practical probability that he and hannah would do the same, abel was currently selfish enough to disregard it. because the warmth that spread from the center of his chest through the rest of his torso like a heat stroke was somehow comforting because it stemmed from her i love youย and her laugh was an anchor that plummeted him to the bottom of the ocean but it was mindlessly addicting. it was a rarity for abel to take the positive from systematically horrible scenarios, and he didnโt want to feel anything but so right now.ย
ย ย ย โ okay, โ softly left him like his ownย โ i love you โ, although abel was quick to follow with four words of reassurance anyway.ย โ i donโt doubt you. โ sheโd never given him reason to before. and what harm could really come from succumbing to naivety now?ย
*ย ย hannahย ย /ย ย ย hcnnahlay
ย ย ย hannah had been under the impression that all she would have to do is speak it and it would be understood and accepted. but it seemed she was up to her shoulders in a pool of vulnerability and she would be forced under.ย โyeah.โ she nodded in agreement, swallowing thickly on the fear lodged at the base of her throat. he had reciprocated and while that should have eased her already weary soul it only caused it to grow more so. there was a safety in being alone. .ย she had been alone most of her adult life. single wasnโt scary or hardโฆ love was. the only drawback being the inevitable heartache.ย
ย ย ย pink walls. her whole life she had been surrounded by pink walls. a safety net, a familiarity that swore protection. .ย and now she enveloped by hazel and it was terrifying in ways the brunette couldnโt truly even begin to understand. she instead found solace in the one place she had known it since pink walls had been replaced. .ย abelโs arms. in one swift motion, her lips were pressed softly to his, tear streaked cheeks pressed against the homelike scruff of his own. the kiss, though brief, spoke to everything she couldnโt bring herself to say, a silent speech she hoped he would breathe in and hold in his lungs for as long as he could.ย
ย ย ย it was so difficult and unnerving to not have it all spelled out for him, but abel had learned first hand, on more occasions than he would ever truly bear to admit, that pressing did no earnest good. part of him wondered whether this was just casual drunken babble, sure, and the other part wondered if this all was only an illusion she felt she had to be playing along with and the other part hoped to god that this was real. pleaded unabashedly through the tip of his fingertips skimming along too familiar jeans and the short exhale that puffed from his lungs. the kiss felt too brief, too mechanical. so he engraved pleas into her skin with lips to the apple of her right cheek, singed unspoken promises into the jut of her hips with his thumbs. and maybe it had always been that way, even in their most hurried and inebriated afternoons ; maybe part of his body language had always been imploring that she understood before he even did.ย
*ย ย hannahย ย /ย ย ย hcnnahlay
ย ย ย his words felt like a slap to the face, her entire body now riddled with doubt. only seconds prior she had been sure that she had to tell him and now she was second guessing everything, including them. hannah opened her mouth to speak, a moments hesitation allowing him to speak again before she could. it was a hesitation she would have thanked god for had she been sure he even existed. this was the sign she had needed, a definitive, blaring, neon sign telling her to continue, telling her to just fucking tell him already. for too long, she had allowed herself to sit on the sidelines, had been complacent in the casual relationship they hadโฆ if there was one thing leo had been good for it was proving once and for all that what she felt for abel was something more weighted than sex and a good laugh.ย
ย ย ย three breaths entered and exited her lungs as she gathered the confidence to continue, her body snaking off the bed and to the floor. it was there that she mirrored his stance, her hands instead pressed against her thighs as she began to speak.ย โi donโt want to lose you either.โ she spoke first, a subtle step into unknown and untraveled waters.ย โand the only thing i want is you.โ for a moment she had sworn she hadnโt spoke it, swore the words hadnโt left her lips and instead were spoken by some ominous narrator in a woody allen film. trembling lips, however, proved otherwise.ย โi - i hate being in a room with you and not being able to touch you and i hate watching someone who doesnโt deserve you touch youโฆ someone who doesnt love you -โ hannah inhaled deeply then, readying her admission to be spoken into the stale air of her room.ย โโฆ like i do.โ
ย ย ย silence had never felt so heavy. he had tried to look anywhere besides her, in case his mind played tricks on him and had her feeling ten thousand steps away. but hazel eyes found her as soon as her first breath exhaled, stayed through the first couple of words that his head had to sprout awake and sober for in order to be certainย heโd heard her right. ( it hadnโt been until that very moment abel was sure that one episode of spongebobโs headspace was undoubtedly accurate. ) an anxious shiver ran down his spine, too much practice keeping the rest of his body from trembling alongside it. the problem with talking about feelings was readability ; abel was the ultimate failure when it came to applying context clues and though everything she said felt to not have a secondary meaning, his head had already begun picking apart each sentence into incoherent fragments.ย
ย ย ย ย โ so.. โ he started slowly and unconvincingly, only making it more apparent it was more so a noise than an introduction to an earnest response. abel used five seconds to reposition himself, now cross legged with hands on his lap and his head bowed only enough for his eyeline to hit the point of her chin.ย โ when you say love, does that meanย ย โย ย ? โ his voice abandoned sound before abel could finish the question, on the likely chance heโd fumble whatever small self confidence he currently harbored. a rough swallow was followed by a second attempt.ย โย โcause iโm .. i know i make an ass of myself a lot, itโs kinda my staple, but i donโt wanna put words in your mouth. โ rather than outright ask whether or not his best friend was in love with him, abel let the quiet settle over them again, save for the steady sound of breathing. naturally, his hands fidgeted. โ youโre in my top three favorite people of all time, hannah. and the other two are my parents, partly because theyโre .. yโknow, my parents, so i feel like that should say a lot. but i love you too. in all aspects.ย โ his lips pressed together, as if his body had made a last ditch attempt to save face and refrain from exposing itself completely.ย โ i have forย ย โย ย well, maybe always. โ

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*ย ย hannahย ย /ย ย ย hcnnahlay
ย ย ย the house was empty and for a moment hannah had to consider if that was a metaphor for their friendship now. it had once been filled with laughter and joy and far too much sex and now it seemedโฆย empty. was that a sign it was time to move on? maybe a transitional phase or something like that. hannah couldnโt bear the thought of it, not now and probably not ever.ย โiโm sorry.โ she parroted, eyes rolling up his torso to settle on his face. the truth of the matter was she was scared, more scared than she had ever been. as a child she had considered herself fearless and in most aspects she was. public speaking? easy. sky diving? exhilarating. admitting your feelings, putting yourself out there for possible rejection? terrifying, numbingly so.ย
ย ย ย she watched as he tossed her shoes aside, her body practically in a slump as she sat before him on the bed. it was like watching it fall apart before her very eyes, watching it all slip away. the foundation of their friendship was rotting and all thanks to her inability to just be honest. it was then that she closed her eyes, swallowing heavily on the lump that was in her throat before she was willing the words that she had kept buried so long up and out of her mouth.ย โi -ย โ she began but failed in continuing. if there was ever a time to be riddled with blind confidence it was now.ย โi, i want to be honest with you, abel. i need to or i swear to god i feel like iโm going to choke.โ
ย ย ย โ you donโt have to, โ exited instead of the please donโtย that had been on the tip of his tongue. tears that had no right to exist pressed firm at the base of his throat, cluttering into a ball that made it hard for abel to breath soundlessly. he leaned back with palms to the ground, hoping the usually lax position would give him some false confidence to move past the worries that fabricated in the back of his mind. what all was there to worry about, truthfully? at the base of it, they were friends that got high and had sex and for abel to have let himself believe it could transition into anything more than a stream of good times to pass the overdone, college frat parties was foolish.ย
ย ย ย the smile that had been displayed along his lips was now long gone, substituted by the natural line of his mouth that worked tirelessly to keep its corners from fading into a frown.ย โ i donโt want to lose you. โ because the first thing abel couldnโt help to think was that they were abnormal, and it wouldnโt have been too outlandish for someone to want to move past this. find a real relationship, maybe. explore better options. whatever. and abel hadnโt ever thought himself the type to beg, but whatever pride that would have kept him away was nowhere to be found now. he sat up, sighing.ย โ i mean, i donโtย ย โย ย youโre your own person, and youโre allowed to do whatever you want so iโm not going to, like, keep you hostage or anything. i just. โ both hands waved halfheartedly in front of him, physically dismissing whatever poorly constructed sentences wanted to tumble out of him.ย โ nevermind. โ