reliving trauma

whats the hardest thing you ever had to admit to yourself?

sometimes what u want isn’t for u

> the existential equivalent of radiohead’s How To Disappear Completely > me @ me: new phone who dis

-zoning out, still hearing everything but 10x louder -realising this is happening and not being able to tune back in

-becomes the living embodiment of whatever song is stuck in my head

-people talking to you and all of a sudden they start deforming and sounding like fgaksgalsgd agdjfhksjs agkdjgks elalfhelevan

*banging pots and pans together* mutual abuse is a falsehood created to make survivors of abuse feel bad for fighting back against their abusers and genuinely hating their abusers and enjoying them suffering *banging pots and pans louder* MUTUAL ABUSE AS A CONCEPT DOES NOTHING BUT TRIGGER A SURVIVORS CONSTANT FEAR OF INVALIDATION AND VALIDATES THEIR ABUSERS ACTIONS

A reminder that the “Borderline” in Borderline Personality Disorder does not mean someone barely has a personality disorder or that they’re almost neurotypical. The name “Borderline Personality Disorder” comes from the fact that the initial doctor to study it said suffers live on the border between psychosis (disconnection from reality) and neurosis (having anxiety, depression, or obsessive tendencies, etc that don’t quite cause disconnection from reality).