yo mr. white

i feel sick

i tried to save jerry from having to chose but. kohais doing the same thing fuck 

im angry and sick of savalsk treating my friends like shit but i cant do anythnig because of complicated circumstances and it makes me fucking angry

my deepest sympathies to jerry in this time of trouble

ggod im glad i blocked savalsk a long time ago

i dont know what to say and i dont know how to help aaron i really really care about you you know that and i just hope you end up okay over anything else

unless you like. Want to and or are trying to stop drinking or smoking or drugs or something i cannot respect you and i dont know why and i feel so guilty about it

i still have friends who associate with people that hold really shitty beliefs and some who are just fucking asshole lords of shit mountain and its like. why are you friends with them i??? what

my emotions are too dependent upon the wellbeing of the people around me. way too fucking dependent

pukes

nobody is talking to me and ive sent messages to evrryone

massive pile of useless shit coming through

things i learned happen when i take a hiatus: nothing nothing changes nobody cares

f or the love of god dont smoke

worry

ill still be usin this blog