and then it feels like freedom.

Jamie ( @islandbrzejamie ) and I want to start a new hashtag for Twitter swifties in here (or just any of you who also have twitter stan account), so their accounts and posts wouldn’t be excluded from tumblr and we could follow and hype up each other from that hashtag. We’re trying to get everyone to be seen by @taylorswift !

this speaks so loud to me about how i am constantly trying to self sabotage relationships that are going well to avoid the inevitable fact that they will leave and i will be broken... the anxiety of being left controls you into thinking you need to “test” this person into seeing if they will stay, and all it does is hurt both sides. pushing until they finally leave you, even though all you want is for them to stay.