damned if i do damned if i dont

oh no yeah im fucking fine thanks for asking

its so nerve wracking but i dont wanna unfollow i kinda just want to??? mute them idk idk idk idk

when people still follow you youre pretty sure really dislike you and you dont know whether to feel confused happy or upset by any combination of those things

i had to heavily medicate myself just so i could bathe myself and by bathe myself i mean huddled in the corner of the shower while my hand was held and i was hosed off with the detachable shower head as hot as it could go like a small anxiety-riddled dog while i shook and whimpered i think i gave up halfway through cause i started choking on nothing and kinda blacked out

why cant you just be 100% better when you leave the hospital like what is even the point of bein miserable in your own home

wher e are yiu...

m i evn safe her e

ugh

my eyes itch so bad its keepin me awake im going crazy jesus christ

i didnt get any of those things but then again im not really surprised

i didnt sleep sat on the balcony watched the sunset and the sunrise then laid in bed for nine hours