NIHILISM.

❛ some people are so good at disappearing that you start to doubt your memories that they were ever there. ❜ 

❛ how do you say goodbye to someone who was never there? ❜

❛ i don’t want a world without pain, or loss. i just want them to mean something. ❜

❛ there are some people who believe a photo captures their soul. ❜

❛ if you love something let it go. ❜

❛ you were not the first, you will not be the last. ❜

❛ there are some secrets i will take to my grave, but i don’t want loving you to be one of them. ❜

❛ you can still back out before anyone gets hurt. ❜

❛ i said i’d love you forever, and really meant it at the time. i guess that’s my problem. ❜

❛ kindness won’t save anyone. ❜

❛ for a long time i thought i deserved better. but the truth is we both deserve better than this. ❜

❛ i wish there was a word that meant “goodbye” for someone who was already gone. ❜

❛ i never meant to hurt you. you have to believe me. ❜

❛ we’ll always have yesterday. ❜

❛ hope softens the rough edge of every promise. ❜

❛ love is stupid. happiness is admitting we aren’t better than stupid. ❜

❛ you can’t always want what you get. ❜

❛ i wish i had a dollar for every dollar’s worth of work i did. ❜

❛ we are empty inside and hollow. hoping something sweet will make its nest in us. ❜

❛ we’re too far from help. ❜

❛ monsters are even more scary when you see them afraid. ❜

❛ we carry our own loneliness with us. ❜ 

❛ fake happiness beats genuine misery. ❜

❛ they always trust me to be someone who i don’t even want to be. ❜

❛ i cannot see where i want to go, only that i want the going.❜

❛ you are never here. you are always almost there. ❜

( Note: this is someone with said personality disorder, Im using countless research along with my experiences to present a more than proper diagnosis of cyrus’s disorders. )

Paranoid personality disorder is a disorder contained with continuous & extreme distrust in others, and along with Antisocial personality disorder, complete a subtype of aspd known as Malevolence, which includes extreme observation in personal and formal relationships & signs of weakness, attention seeking as well as exploitation in others abilities as minor and a silent comparison to their own. The main criteria for aspd is the recipient to have harbored a conduct disorder in childhood or very early adolescence, and has shown signs of severed antisocial traits ( which are oftentimes overlooked by other disorders such as adhd, anxiety disorders, etc etc. ) Not to be mistaken for asocial traits, which willingly is a lack of social interaction or a intentional distaste for others. Otherwise known as Sociopathy, Antisocial personality disorder affects only a small amount of the population, 3%, ( while 50% remain incarcerated, ergo, a major chunk of aspd also affects men more than women  socially and culturally ) Psychopathy is also under the label of antisocial personality disorder, but the main difference between sociopathy and psychopathy is many sociopaths  have a higher irregularity of emotions, anger & hostility make up a major part of an antisocials emotion and personality, paranoia & anger for the malevolent antisocial. People who are diagnosed with sociopathy are able to feel guilt for their actions and have some form of moral code. Antisocials can be very charming, they must be in order to protect themselves from the cracks of irregular emotions they sport, Many of us have “masks” that shift from person to person, pinpointing their likes and dislikes easily with just a sentence and keeping them for later. Cyrus oft has a tendency to observe and not speak, communicate through visual expressions than words, using just the right energies in order to get the desired outcome & emotional arousal from his subjects. When the antisocial speaks however, Everything must be planned beforehand, the paranoia of the unknown reaction the subject gives makes every word important, every emotion, every signal, extremely important, as if the subject ( may it be an acquaintance ) was an important figure in history/of worth to the subject.