"Hello little one, Sorry for disappearing i had to deal with an ice cream emergency~" - Amaryllis~
You're fine... I umm...
...
{Audible sobbing}
...
I just wanna be left alone...
Little one whats wrong?
It's nothing...
They're all liars...
...
Everyone just lies to me...
[the channel would be briefly hijacked]
I promise I didn't lie. Perhaps I mistook information but it all points to... That. I'm here if you need me, but I won't pressure you...
[the channel returns to normal]
Why...
Why would they do this to me?
...
I didn't do anything to them, I was a good kid, I just wanted to make them proud...
[the connection restored itself]
... I really couldn't tell you why... Abuse is... Often illogical in nature. There's never an answer that stops them from trying to hurt you. The only option is usualy to get away, and nothing else...
I don't know why your parents saw you as nothing but an experiment, nor will I ever know... But be sure to know, it was never your fault Astrid. You're a good girl
I...
I just wanted to do a good job...
I'm not good...
I'm horrible...
If I was good, this wouldn't have happened...
That is not true. You're a good girl. They just... Didn't care it seems. Abuse is irrational, don't judge yourself based on their actions
.....
T-Thank you...
I'm really sorry for everything...
It's okay dear... You're not alone... I'm Here for you. I won't lie to you
Why does it feel so horrible to be cared for?
Why won't my brain feel okay?
Can I ever even feel happy?
This is a foreign signal for you, care and love distinctively untied to abuse. Your brain expects betrayal, or second motives right? Perhaps, it thinks you should go Back to being barked at because its familiar with it, and thinks that if you obey perfectly, everything will be alright. Is that correct?
I think so...?
I miss just taking orders and being useful...
I just feel so weird now.
What if, the orders given involve your wellbeing?
Like: MAJOR ORDER: cook and make yourself a healthy breakfast
MAJOR ORDER: eat the breakfast
That...
That might work... For motivation maybe...
It still feels odd... But I can try.
Ready to fight for your wellbeing soldier?
Affirmative!














