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his mind might be carefully blank, but even so, every action Milo does, it’s stored somewhere in the back of his mind- probably all the things he’d like to remember when he’s alone with just his hand for comfort. they’ve barely even started anything, but hey . . . Bucky’s only a man at the end of the day. this man just happens to be depraved and craving as much physical connection as possible. he’s been alone far too long and even though he’s carefully removed sexual contact from any emotional ties, there is something so very human about it, and even if all his wires are entangled with one another, somewhere they still manage to connect.

he sighs in content at the pressure of Milo’s fingers against his skin. it’s grounding, keeps him present, and maybe that’s all this is about anyways. finding something to anchor him, keeping him from drifting out into the uncertainties of the sea.

Bucky almost forgot about the chain around his neck; it’s not like he ever takes it off, so maybe that’s not completely surprising. they’ve just become a part of him at this point. however, he’s forced to remember their importance when Milo fishes them out from underneath his shirt. he’s ready to protest, but the words die on his tongue as Milo uses them as leverage to pull him forward and- well, isn’t that just something? he wets his lips as he looks between Milo’s eyes and down to his lips, barely hearing him as all the blood in his body seems to go downwards really fast. which would probably be embarrassing if he wasn’t already evidently turned on. whatever. maybe it wasn’t that important anyways, because suddenly Milo is kissing him again, and that’s the only thing Bucky can seemingly focus on as his eyes close again, just enjoying the feeling of Milo’s lips against his own as he kisses him back. honestly, Bucky would probably be content just kissing Milo without any sort of physicality to it, but the slow rolling of his hips tease him, earning another delighted sound from him.

Milo was right though- Bucky does like his hands on his chest. they leave goosebumps in their wake and a short gasp that follows. he responds by carefully moving his legs to wrap around Milo’s. he’s just about to lean in and kiss him again, only to open his eyes, startled, when Milo’s hands find the point where flesh ends and metal begins. the scar tissue is sensitive to touch and he involuntarily flinches. Bucky should have known that was going to happen eventually; he was too driven by his desire to even consider that a possibility, but now that he has, and he’s forced to watch Milo retreating away from him, he panics in a way that remains invisible to the naked eye. then, he’s slowly moving his hands upwards to wrap loosely around Milo’s neck, pulling him back down towards him.

Even though Milo didn’t really have a high libido —he could pretty much be without sex for a while, mind you— when he was in the mood he went all in. Obviously, when James invited him over, the idea of being practically about to have sex with him didn’t cross his mind, even when people sometimes used watching movies as an excuse for other activities. Yes, Milo had been attracted to James for quite some time but all he had thought about was kissing him —or better said, imagining and planning how their first kiss would be. A bit corny, but that was his style. Little did he know they would end up doing more than just kissing that night. 

Maybe that’s why the moment hit him so hard —because he had been completely open, letting his walls down for once, too focused on James’ warmth to think of anything else. The shock hit hard, shattering the moment’s heat.

Milo couldn’t react properly, he was still somehow shocked by the realization. His mind full of questions he wanted to ask James, but he couldn’t find the right words. And when the other spoke, Milo realized his reaction might have come off as strange to him. At first touch, Milo figured as much that it was a prosthetic —different to what he was used to seeing, but he imagined that was the case. The thing was, that he didn’t mind James having a prosthetic arm, but getting to this point and not knowing about it threw him off. Of course, James didn’t have any obligations to tell him; these kinds of things were private and Milo understood the other wouldn’t disclose it, considering how recently they had met. But the way Milo saw intimacy, there should be some sort of trust, and it stung thinking James didn’t trust him enough to tell him about it beforehand that he had to figure out when they were already in too deep. None of this should have happened in the first place —Milo hated himself because he should have listened to his voice of reason and stopped this before getting this far. In his mind, despite both of them clearly wanting it, they weren’t ready for this step just yet. 

When James pulled him back into the kiss, Milo tried to get back into it, he really did. Unfortunately, his mind was already elsewhere and completely disconnected from his body that he couldn’t quite respond the way he wanted. Which, all things considered, was the most awful timing ever. His brain decided to crash out at the least convenient moment for them both. 

The corners of his mouth curved into a grin as he watched Milo fumble through his answer. There was something endearing about it—like he was trying to dissect flavors the way he might talk about soil pH or sunlight exposure. “You know, plants might be easier, but this is much more entertaining. I could get used to watching you squirm over dessert.”

There was a slight tint of red spreading through his cheeks when Alex spoke again. He was not surprised the other would enjoy seeing him squirm, it seemed people had a knack for it. Not that it was hard making Milo blush anyways. “That’s —that’s pure evil. Thought you’d be nicer to the guy helping you with Atera’s aesthetic," he said in a teasing tone, shaking his head slightly. Okay, maybe it was an exaggeration placing his bouquet arragement as part of the place aesthetic, because clearly the restaurant already had one. His flowers were simple decorations.

he has no idea how he used to do this. then again, Bucky didn’t spend a whole lot of time flirting with men to begin with – while he’s always been attracted to men, he’d grown up in a time when that attraction was incredibly dangerous, and he’d learned to keep it to himself for the most part. but he’s not there anymore and this century is much more welcoming and understanding. he’s still trying to get used to it. unfortunately, that also means Bucky doesn’t have a whole lot of experience in the flirting department when it comes to men. he’s struggling a bit to get a grip on it, but men are people too- he figured they can’t be that different.

and well, watching the way Milo reacts to him is enough for Bucky to think that maybe he’s (somehow) doing something right.

“i would still wash it,” he says with an amused smile on his face.

The logical thing to do when you lend someone your clothes should be washing it afterwards, and James had a point mentioning it. But what if, as stupid as it may sound, you wanted to keep the memory of the person using it? He was just being ridiculous considering he had met the man just a few minutes ago —he wasn’t a long time partner going to live abroad or a loved one passing away. Get your shit together, Milo. 

Milo laughed softly when James commented he could tell him why he got distracted. It was most out of embarrassment really, he wasn’t going to be able to live this one down, huh? He scrunched his nose slightly and began to walk ahead so the other wouldn’t see his face trying to come up with a story that would make him look cool instead of admitting he was just clumsy. “What if I say I wanted to do abstract art on your shirt? Do I get a pass?” Milo cast a quick glance at the other, lips curling up slightly. He slowed his pace a little, matching James’ to walk side by side. It was silly and definitely not cool at all, but whatever. “It was a one time thing, so don’t worry. I won’t throw this new one over you, I promise.” 

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"i stopped being me such a long time ago, 

        i can’t even remember who that was."

he’s quiet as he looks at Milo, shuffling awkwardly on his feet. maybe showing up unannounced was a little intrusive and . . . well, probably stalker-ish. but it’s not like Milo gave him much choice anyways. he wouldn’t pick up the phone and while that is probably enough to deter anyone else, Bucky is persistent. he’s not going to give up that easily, even though maybe he should. usually Bucky has no problem backing off where he’s not wanted. he’s understanding- he wouldn’t want to be around himself, either. but he doesn’t want to just give up here, though maybe it’s not even necessarily about Milo as much as it is about himself. he’s always letting people leave; never does anything to stop them. why would he? he understands their reasoning enough. but he’s tired of watching people walk away- he’s tired of being the one left behind, collecting dust as he waits, like a once favored book shoved in the corner of a shelf. he might be a little worn around the edges, and there’s nothing new to discover, but if someone just turned the page, maybe they would remember why he was loved in the first place.

he knows that not telling Milo the truth about himself was wrong. he’s not stupid; he had known that his façade would eventually blow up in his face. he hadn’t even been surprised when it did. but Bucky had hoped that Milo would just let him try to fix it. instead, he slammed the door in his face. it’s not that Bucky blamed him for that. hell, it’s very likely he would have done the same thing if he were in Milo’s shoes.

so while Bucky knows that maybe showing up five minutes before Milo closes for the day was inappropriate, that didn’t stop him from showing up anyways. he wouldn’t be mad at Milo if he slams the door again, but he’d like to think that the man would at least take pity on him. it’s raining outside and he’s soaked to the bone. if he were smart, he would have brought an umbrella, but Bucky doesn’t think he even owns one, so that’s futile at best. at least the pathetic puppy dog eyes match the pathetic human standing at the door, half inside, half out. obviously, he’d be a lot warmer if he actually walked through the door, but Bucky doesn’t want to leave a trail of water for Milo to clean up after he pushes him back out in the street.

if that’s not enough for the overdramatic scene, Bucky procures a bouquet of rather unique flowers he doesn’t know the names of. while Milo is accustomed to flowers (obviously), Bucky doesn’t think he has any of these so if nothing else, at least he’d probably be curious enough to take them. “these are for you.” then, because he’s already perfected the most dramatic scene straight out of some really cliché rom-com, he buries his face in the flowers, though his eyes remain on Milo; an attempt to hide the hopeful smile on his face. he hasn’t kicked him out . . . yet. “they were really hard to get, so i’d appreciate it if you took them.”  

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