what do you want from me

maybe we were meant for each other after all. maybe in the next life, or the one after that. maybe you'll be ready.

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you recover or you die. you recover or you die. you recover or you die. you recover or you die. cobwebs.

you will get better. it hurts and you will hurt but it has to be done. it has to be done so your hurt can end. it has to be done. it’s cruel and painful. it has to be done. it is long and terrible. and it has to be done. the only other option is death.

stabs myself in the gut 2000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 times

i love my trans body. i hate my trans experiences.

that’s cruel.

i feel like every day at some point my brain shoots the "hey lets almost od on ritalin again" thought straight thru my head