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उन्हें हिसाब रखने की आदत सी लग जाती है।

जैसे हिसाब नही रखा और अगली दोपहर का खाना कैसे आएगा...

पता नहीं।

यही हिसाब रखने की आदत आपके दिलो-दिमाग के साथ ऐसे घुल मिल जाती है कि...

जैसे कुदरती रूप से ये आपका स्वभाव बन गया हो।

अब जब आपकी अपने घर गृहस्थी संभालने की बारी आती...

आपको यही लगता है की हिसाब रखना एक ज़िम्मेदार व्यक्ति की निशानी है।

पर आपकी आंखें खुलने का एक समय आता है...

वो समय जिस दिन 'हिसाब रखने की पट्टी' आपकी आंखों से

झट से उतार ली जाती हैं।

जब आपकी ग्रहणी कहती है कि...

"हमारे बीच 'हिसाब' नहीं, साझेदारी होनी चाहिए।"

कि तेरा मेरा कुछ नहीं होता।

एक-एक पाई गिनना ज़रूरी नहीं होता।

आधा तू करे फिर आधा मैं करू...

ऐसे नहीं निभता।

बल्कि मैं अपनी तरफ़ से पूरा करूं और तू अपनी तरफ़ से पूरा करे...

The only way to lift the weight of Abandonment off the weighing scale is by putting off the weighing scale.

Are those gifts resonating to the things you Like or the things you Love?

Living alone is God.

It's like you're the second-hand of a clock defining where to go and they're the minute-hand following the lead.

1. So weird. Why they be doing that?

2. Oh...they must have reasons.

If you just observe, even the environment & tools they used didn't allow them to make mistakes in the first place.

For instance, you couldn't make mistakes while writing with a typewriter or while writing something with a fountain ink pen. But you can make mistakes and then correct them when writing something on a digital keyboard or with a digital pencil.

Or in another instance, they couldn't afford to click a bad picture on their cameras, but we can. Because we can correct it, delete it, or even keep it without being guilty for it.

It was in their mundane roots that they couldn't afford to make mistakes. And for us, it is easier to make mistakes, accept them and move on with them.

Such a kind that compels you to ask the right questions, have a balanced perspective of things, and that tells you: there's more to this world than just fulfilling basic needs.

Then you're already having surplus years in your life to experience it, and get the most of it. Never say you have less time to experience life.

आपने कमबख्त रात कौनसी है पूछ ली...

A day they are jiggling around my arms,

And the other they bang heads on my fingers.

But, you know when do they have the most cathartic experience?

When I am taking a leap in life,

And they want to have a party of their life at my toe's pinky finger.

Wounds dance all across my body.

I wondered why do I have markings of bruises, stretches, burnt skins, or cut stitches all over, all my life.

Then I met a wound in my heart, the biggest and the deepest.

And there it was.

The absolute reason of all...the one that imparts the greatest of wounds,

The truth is as harsh as it can be, but the absence of Father in your 20s makes you clueless sometimes.

- Some of us can only remember them or feel them with us, while they're not with us.

- And some of us swivel down to uneasiness of not being able to contact them, for what they did or for what our families did that they're alive but not with us.

- And for some of us it is even more. The ones we used look up to as Father figures, are gone as well.

And then you're just left to become the Father figure of your own family, your own self—while still not having a person to go to when you're engulfed with shit tons of problems that just need one advice to solve, a Father's advice.

Here's to the 'Father Figures' of our life—may it be them not with us, or just not with us. 

There is always one particular area in your life which you cannot resist to call it one.

For some it may be a home, for some it maybe a person.

Or perhaps for some it's a city, or maybe a job. And for some it might be in moving with things always.

But you need at least one area of life where you can put your guards down, lay off your shields, and just come out of the 'flight or fight' mode.

You need that comfort, that safety net—the one that brings you out of your comfort zone in other areas of life. The one that becomes the 'Chicago' of your life.