system go brrrrrrrrrrrr

our name is spacebar. the keyboard spacebar (⌨️ anon). because we like space and we like typing. we are bodily adult 22↑, they/them pronouns. self-discovered in 2021.

this blog is just random thoughts and comics occasionally.

our stance is you don't get to police other people. we are systems and we all experience plurality. there is no Right way to experience plurality.

what do i call this.. a pre-trigger trigger? factually knowing some event will happen in the future that is related to someone but not connecting the dots as to why they're being in front until the event actually happens. we knew we were gonna pick [family] up that night, just forgot that gray gets triggered to front because of [family]. but somehow the brain knew before we knew. it does this so much, the brain just knows more than WE realize like.. okay how does it do that. "the body remembers" or something.

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ok .. sure .

i have so much work to do shit fuck augh

some system made a comic about "stop caring about system origins" or something like that where is it

i need to reread it

i feel pissy about our system origins and i need to reread it to be like SEE!!!!!! IT DOESNT FUCKING MATTER WHERE WE CAME FROM WE'RE STILL A SYSTEM!!!!

"it was unconventional" "it wasn't necessarily trauma" "we formed 7 guys at once within 2 days when we first learned about the existence of tulpamancy. i don't know if that's normal or if that's because we were already extremely mentally dissociated and tulpamancy gave us an outlet to reconnect with the world in a different way. what origin does that make us?"

who cares oh my godddddd

i don't care if we're traumagenic endogenic mixed-origins or fucking stressgenic it doesn't fucking matter

me: i feel nothing!

red guy i'm paired with: i help the body feel joy!

the body: man im feeling joyful and i dont feel guilty about feeling joyful!

thats how we work yuh

one that has exomemories and they feel like they were plucked from somewhere else and plopped into the system

one that is just the Concept of the source and may be source connected may not be source connected, but doesn't have exomemories; they are the Concept not the actual source

and the maybe 3rd one is the inbetween of maybe source connected and kind of the concept of the source but also has a few exomemories but nothing concrete

people who have multiple sources maybe are a sub or separate category bc they just are multiple concepts of something blended together..

perpetual smile that won't go away

the branded grin upon my face

it's how i curb the fear in place