¡toodles mis amores!

Lots of love,

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck i don't want to go to school i dON'T WANT THIS I DON'T WANT THIS I DON'T WANT THIS I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY AND AT PEACE AND JUST

UGH

UGH

UGH

i understand why people give up on the world i mean seriously? they're draining the SHIT out of me

and it's only been the first day of school

"it's impossible for you to study more than four hours!"

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU I SPEND EIGHT HOURS AT SCHOOL FUCKING HELL I HATE THIS SYSTEM IT'S OPPRESSIVE MIND-NUMBING AND  REALLY FUCKING STUPID

i wish i could reboot humanity with the proper settings and then just sit back and enjoy the show.

and like what's the point of physics? IT'S LITERALLY NONE BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO STUDY PHYSICS jfc it'S NOT THAT DIFFICULT TO COMPREHEND

IF PEOPLE WHO WANT TO STUDY PHYSICS WANT TO STUDY PHYSICS THEY SHOULD HAVE THE OPTION TO DO SO BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BECAUSE IT'S ONLY FAIR THAT ART IS AN "OPTIONAL"

do i need certain subjects to achieve my goals? YES. BUT I'M MORE THAN HAPPY TO TAKE THOSE SUBJECTS.

do i have certain subjects that i am truly invested in? YES. BUT GUESS WHAT? I'M NOT DOING ART BECAUSE FUCKING SYSTEM. AND JUST FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKUFKCUFUKCUFKFICIDU.

FUCK.

could i change schools? yes bUT SINCE IT WOULDN'T BE IN MY BEST INTEREST I'M STUCK HERE. FOREVER FUCKED. UNTIL I'M DONE WITH THIS CRAP.

this system is literally draining the life out of me and I DON'T WANT IT TO LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.

But Sandra, what about your ~future~?

1.) My future is probably already ruined by you dumb-fucks.

2.) And I would have already started studying nursing school BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE KNOW WHAT THEY WANT TO DO AND FORCING THEM TO EXTRA YEARS OF "EDUCATION" IS GOING TO FUCK THEM UP. AND IF PEOPLE AREN'T SURE YOU CAN'T REALLY FORCE THEM EITHER I SWEAR TO THE FUCKING GODS.

3.) I'd go live in the Netherlands or Norway in the middle of the forest, smoking some good ol' weed from time to time and being the best nurse I can be, sitting around a campfire with my friends and loved ones during the short summer nights while my boyfriend plays the guitar. AND THEN WE WOULD MAKE LOVE EVERY MOTHERFUCKING DAY. And it would be beautiful.

Dean: So you're Chosen too, huh?

Buffy: Yep. A bunch of old men played God a zillion years ago, and here I am.

Dean: I know that feel.

Buffy: Oh well. It could be worse. I kind of enjoy killing things.

Dean: It's really good stress relief. If only we could just stick with killing monsters, right?

Buffy: I know. One day it's "kill vampires", the next you're sacrificing yourself for your younger sibling.

Dean: And then they bring you back from the dead!

Buffy: You too, huh?

Dean: Crawled my way out of a grave.

Buffy: Sucks, doesn't it?

Dean: And then I got back to find out that the person closest to me was doing sketchy, addicting things to become more powerful, all in the name of the greater good.

Buffy: Let me guess, he tried to start an apocalypse?

Dean: Not TRIED to start so much as-- wait, how'd you know?

Buffy: Been there, done that. Man, next thing you'll tell me someone close to you lost their soul and tried to kill people you loved.

Dean: Dude. This is eerie. Next thing you'll be telling me you have a red-headed computer-hacking lesbian unofficial sister.

Buffy: ...um....

Dean: .....Are you my alternate universe parallel?

Buffy: No, the only alternate universe I've been in, they told me my life was all fiction. And not even good fiction.

Dean: ...We should hang out.

Buffy: Definitely.

Dean: Decapitate some vampires.

Buffy: Sounds good.

Dean: Are you seeing anyone?

Buffy: No, but I'm not over this guy in a big coat who I hated for a while and was an enemy but then came over to our side because he fell in love with me, and then later he betrayed me and it was awful, but then he really did feel bad about it and tried and make up for it and he died saving the world but then came back only he never calls me.

Dean: .....