Will not stop dancing

I'm pretty sure the cause of Ollie's first ever and ONLY vet meltdown was cause the vet dude kinda just burst in and immediately walked up to grab his face and stick his fingers in his mouth without so much as a how-do-you-do so on the tech's post-checkup email I asked if they could make a note on his file that he needs to be approached SLOWLY to avoid violence 😭 God I sound insane but like he usually LOVES the vet, he's only ever been calm and affectionate there but this time he was furious and kept trying to take chunks out of hands, how do I politely and calmly communicate "yes he IS just a cat but he's also a perfectly reasonable animal who I love very dearly and if you walk right up and grab him like that again without giving him time to adjust then *I* am going to bite you" and how did I *become* the neurotic crazy pet owner at the clinic

The emotional venn diagram of "Neurodivergent human struggling with respect and communication who has trauma about being grabbed by strange large men" and "ordinary animal that does not receive respect because people don't see animals as feeling, conscious beings who deserve respect and are capable of communication" became a circle at the vet's office for what I suspect is niether the first or last time

Wait, listening to the same song on repeat is stimming?

I do not mean a normal amount of listening to the same song on repeat I mean that in October and November 2022 the only thing I listened to was Type O Negative's "Black No. 1" and I listened to it for 18 hours a day. This is, apparently, a kind of stimming.

*quietly hides the four playlists that I have that are just copies of one song from different recordings or releases*

To be clear I do not know what the normal amount is. When Large Bastard and I started dating I had a tape in my car with Tom Petty's "Dancing at the Zombie Zoo" on it that I knew exactly when to flip the other side (halfway through "Yer so Bad") so that I could flip it again and listen to Zombie Zoo again and I did that enough that Large Bastard still can't listen to Tom Petty and also it wore through the tape. So whatever normal is it is probably less than that.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN MOST KIDS DON'T HAVE TO BE TRAINED OUT OF WALKING ON TIP TOES

When not wearing shoes, will you be wearing socks? "Always" and "never" are both very diagnostic here.

Well, you see, the answer to this is nuanced because I Have A System (said while groaning and putting my face in my hands).

When you're wearing headphones, nobody knows that you're listening to Knowledge Fight #685: Formulaic Objections Part 7 for the 40th time.

I mean to be fair this does coincide with working from home and it wouldn't be out of bounds to listen to the radio for 8 hours a day in an office environment. Technology just lets me reallllly fine tune what I'm listening to so that i don't have to listen to broadcast news (derogatory).

My favorite thing about tumblr is how we parade our mental illnesses around like prized showdogs, and everyone looks on, making excited noises.

My therapist has told me that I'm not good at recognizing "normal" and that I have a lot of incorrect assumptions about what is required to perform "normal" so I like using posts like this to collect data and also take notes about other people's show dogs so I can better train mine.

Long story short: she wants me to become less productive immediately.

Getting this info from tumblr may skew the data but the only other people I hang out with regularly are a bunch of hackers who are *also* getting their midlife autism diagnosis and Explosions Georg, who is an outlier adn should be controlled for.

Whenever Americans use Cryillic like. That. I just. Instantly shrivel up an cry

Like idk how to tell you this but н isnt h and и isnt n

It’s true and you should say it.

If you want to explain, what does it mean then? 0.0

н makes n sound,и makes ee sound, я makes ya sound, р makes r sound, в makes v sound

you mean, like, ня?

oh no. It can be made with Cyrillic now

ня

WHAT HAVE YOU DONE, YOU SHOULDN’T HAVE EXPLAINED

НЯ

НЯ

OH. GOD.

THATS SO FUNNY

going on HRT is a serious decision you should make with the utmost gravity. people might think you're cool, badass even. You might find yourself happy with your life, approaching the world with newfound wisdom one way or another. It might be what you want. It might get you off. It might just be a cool story to tell people. I, myself, found the initial experience was like I had sleepwalked through a nightmare for a quarter century - and for the first time, not just the first time I could remember but actually the first time, I was awake, and the sun was shining, and the world was beautiful. So obviously all of those are risks

look at this shit. look. at. this. shit. it has fifteen thousand notes. what does it mean? why does a picture of the pin k panther with a to do lis that makes NO SENSE have fiFTEEN FUCKING NOTES. WHY. my mom could make better posts that this shit. what even. fuck tumblr.

looks like someone doesnt know what to do. to do. to do, to do, to do, to do, to dooooooooooooo, dodododododo

i miss my deactivated mutuals

@fanotastic more worms

Aw fuck. Nothing makes you assholes happy.

Citations could be so awesome without copyright. Imagine just being able to click on a footnote and it takes you to the exact section of another book being quoted. Imagine how much that would do for stemming misinformation.

One of the most fucked up parts of America’s for-profit medical system and insurance often being tied to your work is that you cannot work if you are sick and if you are not working, you have no insurance. People are fired in the middle of cancer treatment or a severe mental health episode and suddenly there is no way to pay the hospital and buy the medicine you need. Republicans will outright say “You don’t deserve free healthcare if you’re lazy and unemployed.” anytime someone mentions this, actively ignoring the fact that you often cannot work when you are sick and shouldn’t be forced to work when you’re sick to be able to afford to get better.

I think Joan of Arc's fursona would be a dog called Joan of Bark, but my partner thinks it would be a phoenix, which seems insensitive to me, but neither of us are furries, so I guess we don't really get a say either way.

*taking notes* What else do you know about this beautiful world?

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