okay. last post getting a bit long again, so making a new one.
the tl;dr version:
I’m an autistic, trans, queer dude. my paypal has my deadname on it, and my amazon has my chosen name on it. you’re welcome to message me if you have questions about these.
me and my mother in law are physically and mentally disabled, to the point where we can’t work. even with reasonable accommodation. we can barely stand long enough to cook a box of macaroni and cheese from start to finish more often than not.
my soon-to-be-ex husband is verbally, emotionally, and non-violently physically abusive. he yells, belittles, withholds necessary things, and otherwise terrorizes us into barely leaving our rooms.
we got basically nothing in the way of food money this month, and I’ve mostly been staying fed using food boxes and donations from y’all, which I super appreciate, but we’re nearing out of food again and I got nil in the way of funds.
I’m waiting on SSDI to pull through so we can move out of here. my mother in law and I want to move to northeastern Oregon, to be nearer to my family, and out near the countryside. cleaner air and all that.
I was going to be getting a restraining order on my soon-to-be-ex today, but we got a notice for an inspection, and neither my mother in law nor I can do what’s physically required in order for us to pass. I’ve been forced to put off getting the restraining order until next month, probably after my birthday on the 17th.
if you’d like to help, which I would appreciate very much, I have two links here for you. first is an Amazon wishlist, for folks who don’t feel comfortable sending funds for whatever reason. there’s more of them attached if you’re interested in browsing stuff there either way. second is my paypal.me link.
https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/2CV1MX9Y7POQD
https://www.paypal.me/seththemuse
thank you so much for reading to this point if you have, and I would appreciate if y’all would reblog this if you’re able to. I’ve been so stressed out the last few weeks that I’ve barely been functioning some days, and I owe it to y’all for me managing so far this month.
an update, as I haven’t posted one in a while…
we’re almost to the date of the inspection, the 15th. I’m burnt out and exhausted and nonfunctional, my mother in law is burnt out and exhausted and venting to me often which isn’t helping, and my soon-to-be-ex is barely doing anything. he’s refused to allow outside help, and I am more than a little terrified.
I don’t have a lot to eat that I can manage without cooking, which sucks because I can barely stand to walk to the bathroom lately. I really appreciate people who have shared and sent things, but we’re out of funds again and I feel ridiculously sick. limbs are heavy, it’s in the 60s outside but it feels like 90s to me, I’m nauseous, headachey and easily overstimulated. I don’t know what to do.
I’m not getting help over here, and I don’t know what else I’m supposed to do. I feel trapped on top of being sick, and I just want this to all be over with. I can’t force anything else at this point, and we’re going to fail the inspection if we can’t do more than we have.
trying to not feel hopeless and useless, but it’s hard. please help us if you can, either by reblogging this, sending something our way, or just sending some kind of encouragement. it literally took hours to write this all down because my head is a jumbled blurry mess.












