Embrace it

me in the morning: no.

I think as of right now I'm being too selfish. All I want was for someone to chase after me when things go wrong but not this case. I'm soo fed up on always worrying & trying to make things work but that kind of back fired. I'm done being the nice person or the person who cares soo much that it hurts. I hate sleeping night that it hurts for me to think about you all night long. Keeping myself busy is the only way to not think about you. It just feels like I'm single again even thought we're on a "break". If you claim that we're taking baby steps then how come we haven't talked in 3 weeks? I'm always the one that has the urge to text you or to even hang out with you. It's soo hard to realize that we're slowing caving in & you obviously don't care. I'm just waiting for that day to come where you text me "hey. We need to talk...". Just save me the trouble & pain & just dump me already. I'm tired of thinking & questioning myself "what are we?" because you claim we don't have a "title". If this doesn't get better then I'm gna end it for you just to save the pain & misery. For once I'm thinking about myself & what I need to do to get by. I have goals that you won't understand & I don't need another distraction. After this I'm not going to date anyone for a while, not because of you it's because I think I'm happier being alone instead of being happy with someone. Getting married or having kids is one of my least worries. Yes I would want to get settled down but I need to focus on myself....