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"we call it 'gorno'" - final destination producer describing actors getting splattered in the face w blood & guts
me: *fanning self*
re: tags on my op ... (don't @ me abt burton/d*pp i am on the frontlines of ppl who got tired of their white chauvinism well before the 2020s ... im just remembering how this interview gagged me as a young horror fan in middle school)
adding to this bc i been listening to a bunch of adam savage/mythbusters reflection vids l8ly and savage used the phrase 'bubblegum gore' to refer to this kind of shit and im v obsessed
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ok i need to make myself get dinner cuz these meds make my appetite weird asf and i haven't eaten since that salad i had l8 morning
edit: ate ayyy
He believed that there was some enchantment in the light. Went mad, he did.
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I feel like there’s also a racialized element haunting the conversation around shaving that I haven’t yet seen anyone really address (at least on my dash, I’m sure people ARE talking about it in general because I cannot possibly be the first person this thought has occurred to). there’s like the very basic point that if you are someone who grows thicker, courser body hair then you will be more prone to painful ingrowns and shaving regularly will absolutely exacerbate this, it was a thing I dealt with for years when I was still shaving my body hair and having stopped doing that has been tremendously helpful for my bodily wellbeing. but also overall I do think racialized people (obviously especially racialized women) can be more heavily targeted by the pressure to shave. not even necessarily because of the claim that we are “naturally hairier” or whatever because that’s really not universally true and I don’t think it’s super helpful to parrot that. but in my experience our body hair, largely regardless of its appearance or quantity, is frequently treated as more unsightly and less acceptable than that of our white peers for any number of reasons. and I do think that should be part of the conversation around abolishing a culture of shaving. it was something that impacted my life from a very young age in a way that was markedly different from and often actively enforced by my white friends and classmates.
"why is there so much research on cargiver fatigue and not the anguish of being cared for?" because fatigued caregivers kill people (accidentally and deliberately) while fatigued disabled people largely don't. therefore the former policy issue is orders of magnitude more urgent. next question.
disability advocacy orgs push for caregiver relief because disabled people aren't stupid and don't want the person taking care of them to go postal. "not having fatigued caregivers" is a salient, immediate issue for disabled people's quality of life.
Jesus fucking Christ. In the US they’re separating the MMR vaccine into three different shots?? Let me tell you fucking something: YOU CANNOT GET THESE AS SEPARATE SHOTS IN THE US! It is physically impossible to get these three shots separate.
So I guess kids are just going to get measles, mumps, and rubella now! Even though we have a perfectly good MMR vaccine for all three-in-one! Fuck Trump. Fuck Kennedy. Fuck Bill Cassidy and any of these republican dickheads who aided and abetted this grievous wrong to the future of America & all the children who WILL be affected by this. Goddamn monsters in charge.
So this is missing a lot of context
Please read up on these issues before posting. Trump issued an executive order about separating the MMR vaccine into three shots and about lessening schools' ability to require vaccinations.
But there are a few things to note before you panic and declare "they're definitely doing this!" "it's happening" because it's actually not.
1 - Zero states have implemented this policy, and Trump has no power to require them to do so. (It's actually not even a policy, more of a directive to put federal funding into this instead of something actually useful.) Executive orders are not laws
2 - The MMR vaccine is currently and widely available in the US. Parents can absolutely vaccinate their kids with the current, safe MMR vaccine
3 - Many of Trump's executive orders have been overturned and/or delayed for years in courts, and this one will be no exception
More from NPR:
1. Are the same shots still available?
"Yes — as of right now, yes," Shu says. All of the shots in the childhood vaccine schedule backed by pediatricians are still available.
The Trump administration has tried — first through a panel of hand-picked advisors and then unilaterally — to change the list and timing of these vaccines, but has not been successful so far. The new executive order calls for certain things to be researched and reports to be written, but it makes no immediate changes.
All of that highlights the limits of the federal government in this area, says Jen Kates, senior vice president and director of the Global and Public Health Policy Program at the nonpartisan health research organization KFF.
"It's up to states and individual parents," she says. "States are going to make these decisions about school entry and then parents can make their own decisions about timing." In fact, she explains, "in all states but five, parents can opt out of vaccines or they can get a nonmedical exemption.
"So parents actually have quite a bit of choice already, and nothing about this will diminish or expand their choice," she adds.
I agree that the anti-vax movement is super dangerous and something we should absolutely be concerned about since it has reached the highest levels of government. Let's just make sure we're sharing information with context.

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jason arday found dead at his home; suspected suicide. i'm sure all the major news publications will learn something from this!
ok im not gon think abt mr arday bc the whole thing is so damn tragic. may he rest, man
wait im sorry what do you mean the cambridge prof is deceased .
speaking of. i hope that check hits tomorrow so i can have my dad do the blessing after work
my dad is also a chief back in naija and yes that does have some spiritual obligations too but it doesn't make him any less of an analytical thinker. a lot of his western work over the last 30-40 years deals w food science. he is also a nigerian chief who accepts my queerness and has even talked abt the concept of God As a Woman like idk ppl contain multitudes

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last rb making me think abt how there are so many reasons why i go by nikki in much of public life and some of them are tied to like. it feeling like an honorific ... i don't want my given name in ur mouth if you look down on religious indigenous ppl for instance bc my given name has religious connotations .
but something cool abt both jobs ive started is how the staff have all been v respectful of both my given name and prof name in a way i haven't experienced in a long ahh time ... basically both workplaces are like 'we will call you whatever you want to be called, don't feel like you need to shrink urself' and it just hit different idk! still want y'all to call me nikki but it feels good bc y'all aren't like. abusing the privilege
"the majority of religions oppress women" and so do the majority of societies! perhaps these things are related somewhat
the vast majority (although not all!) critiques of "religion" as a concept when you boil them down are really just "humans seeking to oppress others will use social constructs to do so."
& most people do not critically engage with the western construct of "religion" itself! people just take for granted this post-euro-enlightenment model of what religion means. which is where you get, at the worst, people criticizing "religion" who clearly genuinely do not know anything about any religion other than christianity (whatever kind they were raised with) & some vague half-facts about judaism and islam.
its also like. at the same time as (people living as) women have historically experienced religion as a tool of patriarchal control, it has equally been a feminized sphere of life. just in the western eurasian world, from the ancient mediterranean societies to medieval saints and nuns, people living as women have found personal existential autonomy and direction from their spiritual traditions, and cis men have viewed them negatively because of it. plato complained about how all the shrines in Athens were set up by women, but this was also a means for women to exist in the public sphere, to find meaning in their personal concerns and feelings and perception of the world, to connect with not just other women but also men and others who were similarly touched by these traditions. in late 19th-century southern Italy, facing the imperialist violence of the Risorgimento and brigandage wars, peasant women organized their communities in explicitly socialist and explicitly Catholic ways (from here):
A wave of popular unrest washed over Sicily at the close of the nineteenth century. In town after town, peasants mobilized labor strikes, occupied fields and piazzas, and looted government offices. While the island had a long history of revolt, this marked a new era of social protest. For the first time, women led the social movement and infused the struggle with their own mixture of socialism and spiritualism. The activity began in the autumn of 1892, in the towns surrounding Palermo, in the northwestern part of the island. In Monreale, women and children filled the central piazza shouting “Down with the municipal government! Long live the union!” After attacking and looting the offices of the city council, they marched toward Palermo crying “We are hungry!” waving banners with slogans connecting socialism to scripture. In Villafrati, Caterina Costanzo led a group of women wielding clubs to the fields where they threatened workers who had not joined the community in a general strike against the repressive local government. In Balestrate, thousands of women dressed in traditional clothes and also armed with clubs marched through the streets, demanding an end to government corruption. [...] In Piana dei Greci, thirty-six women were arrested after they occupied and then destroyed the municipal offices, throwing the furniture into the streets. [...] They celebrated the founding of the group as they would a religious festival, with music and food, and wove their political and spiritual ideologies together in their speeches. In the words of one woman, “We want everybody to work as we work. There should no longer be either rich or poor. All should have bread for themselves and their children. We should all be equal. . . . Jesus was a true socialist and he wanted precisely what we ask for, but the priests don’t discuss this.” [...]
the extreme patriarchy of the Catholic church still existed, and was still immensely harmful to many people. but existing alongside it was the lived Catholicism of peasant women whose fire for socialism was lit by their belief in God and Jesus and Mary. in all cases these people living as women could be depicted by as superstitious and irrational and driven by emotion and bodily sensation, not the proper logical rule-driven faith of the patriarchal state. which is another example of hyperobjectivity!
i'm ranting here but my point is that as in all things Its More Complicated Than That & it frustrates me to see people act like religion being used oppressively is 1) something unique to religion rather than a natural consequence of oppression and spiritual/existential traditions both existing in human cultures, or 2) brought up in a way that ignores the long history of oppressed people finding personal relief and collective vision and motivation for radical social change in religion. be nuanced about religion damn you
#yes thank u.#people be like we have to abolish religion because it gives people an excuse to abuse other people well do you wanna abolish society as well#also#another result of understanding subjectivity as valuable is understanding that#misogyny as a religious belief and misogyny as a secular belief sum up to the same#it's not more justified when your misogyny is grounded in your religious belief. things you believe to be objective can also be misogyny#it's not like “well their misogyny is objective in their religion#so there's no other way to solve this and we have to abolish the religion“#no!!#(disregarding the fact that misogyny grounded in secular belief in the objectivity of something is also a thing)#the misogyny has to be resolved even if it is based in something objective#because misogyny based in subjective and objective belief is the same#misogyny bad.#sorry this isn't explained well but i just had to pump this out before going back to reading#but like tldr you can't just call misogynistic religious belief subjective and abolish religion to discredit it
YES!!
take eugenics. while obviously one can find religious influences in eugenics, ultimately it is a sinister and harmful ideology that is also emerging from positivist science. there have been, and are, plenty of atheist eugenicists. plenty of people justify misogyny and patriarchy through appeals to biology.
& they are of course still wrong (because misogyny is both objectively and subjectively deeply flawed) and eugenicists arguments also heavily involve subjective interpretation, they just heavily downplay if not deny that their subjectivity is subjective. religious misogyny also denies its subjectivity is subjective but relies more on subjective knowledge than objective knowledge. & as described above - religious misogyny does this to women's and queer spirituality!!!! this is hyperobjectivity in a different format than typical positivist hyperobjectivity. in a hierarchical, dominance-based system there always has to be a loser, and in hyperobjectivity, the subjectivity that we cannot ever fully deny gets projected onto whoever has the least power.
by focusing so much on "religion" as the root cause of social problems, it actually obscures how people's and communities' worldviews can be shaped in ways that support oppressive social systems and even relationship dynamics. the reason hyperobjectivity is used by such systems is because this mode of meaning-making allows you to have final say over what is and isn't possible in other people's minds, and that restricts their ability to resist harm and injustice. historically the attempts to mandate atheist in a leftist context have involved massive systemic injustices and the perpetuation of these dynamics, just in a different context. meanwhile, in leftist contexts more dedicated to challenging patriarchy and the state, actively producing socialist theology is often massively helpful with getting working-class and rural people more class-conscious and invested in revolution.
like just on a pragmatic level, you can go on about how any example of religion/spirituality being used for socialist ends is just people "eking out a place for themselves" and its an exception that proves the rule etc. but practically you are going to be alienating many working class people by acting that way, and making them feel dismissed and condescended to and disrespected by leftists. its the same with approaches to female separatist, anti-sex work approaches feminism: you alienate a lot of the women and queer people who need to be radicalized against patriarchy the most. that spirituality has been involved in a number of mass protests and uprising throughout history (see also: the Civil Rights Movement in the US & Thomas Müntzer's role in the German Peasants' War) should suggest its role in revolution is a lot more than "sometimes the poor delusional religious proletariat manages to do something slightly radical with religion, but that doesn't change anything!"
if you think all religion is inherently unjust, you really should take your issues up with human culture as a whole. we're a messy ass species and there is no magic solution to our propensity to use culture to control each other. we just have to dedicate ourselves to doing better and believe that it is possible.