Rassell :D

So much has happened in 2016 and it’s now the beginning of a new year. Time flies so much faster as you get older it’s crazy! Reminds me that I have to use my time wisely. It’s that time of the year where it feels like you have a fresh start, a reset button. It’s that time to look back from your pass mistakes and experiences and to learn from them. 

It’s still crazy for me to believe that the career I’ve been dreaming of as a kid finally came in the mail yesterday. I’m still pretty mind blown seeing my name on that card with those initials. LVN. All that hard work paid off. Looking at it just feels like a start for me and makes me want to push more to eventually get my dream initials RN. Now that I can finally do the thing I’ve been wanting to do all my life, idk why I’m so scared to start it. I filled my first application and had my first interview that I totally botch. I’m already at a halt stop. Scared to try again and being rejected. Trying to change that this year. 

I’m trying to not fear rejection so much and just see it as a learning experience. I need to learn and push myself to grow this year. I’m not getting any younger and I need to start taking care of myself. I also need to stop holding back with the things I want to say and accept the fact that there will be a lot of people that will come and go in my life. Those that were meant to stay will stay and those that don’t were only meant to be there just for a little while. I’m sick and tired of chasing people that don’t want to be part of my life. I get so lonely sometimes I can’t help but to chase. I need to remind myself to be blessed for the ones that have stayed and have been there for me because without them I wouldn’t be where I am today.