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I've always LOVED hand lettering and doodling. I wanna get back at it. And writing, too (via blogging perhaps?). I'm not the best at either, but I think I've got some talent. Haha!

Little by little, I'm beginning to revisit hobbies that I used to enjoy and passions that had burnt out. I'm looking forward to rediscovering and discovering myself. No doubt I'll still have shitty days ahead, but having felt this way has made me more hopeful than before. I finally feel like I'm taking those steps forward - even if they are baby steps.

Wanted to remember this feeling by writing about it. I'd usually jot all of this down in my personal journal, but I kind of just wanted to let it out into the universe. #milestone

Anyway! Here's something I lettered at work because I had time. Hehe.

#personal #moving on #moving forward #healing #hand lettering

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200 miles away from home

200 miles beneath this lake is where my heart belongs, but you don't care at all

You wouldn't even smile if I were screaming as the water filled my lungs

You demand to be chased for your love

My desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long

But you don't care at all

There's nothing I can do to draw you close to me

Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again?

I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you

I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow

Please be home tonight

I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right

I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel every time you're here

What would it take for me to be with you?

I swear I'd rip my heart out if you said you'd be impressed

Please be impressed

I'd go so far to please you but I bet you wouldn't care at all

Hopeless love, please leave me

This broken heart is far to weak to run for you this long

Why don't you care at all?

I'm dying for a place in your heart

Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again?

I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you

I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow

Please be home tonight

I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right

I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel every time you're here

Hopeless love, why did you carve your home in me?

This broken heart is too weak to hold your weight

And now I regret the day we met

And help me forget your name

I first listened to this song years ago (when I was in HS) and thought nothing of the lyrics then... 'Til I listened to it again a couple of nights ago and damn did the lyrics hit home. Going through this break-up has been wave after wave of overwhelming emotions, both positive and negative. One minute I'm drowning in depressing thoughts and the next I feel uplifted by good vibes. Sigh. I know, I just know that it is possible to get to the place where I will feel less to no hurt. I believe that I can reach that ending. Say I'm impatient, but I want that day to be some day sooner than later. Yeah, I know it's unlikely to happen. I need to feel these feelings and take my time to fully heal. I can't rush this - no matter how much I want to. Man, this process is forking hard...

#jpac #personal #love #loss #letting go #moving on

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Stranger Things

HOW CAN I RECOVER FROM THIS?

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😢

I JUST WANT TO BE OKAY.

So I've had this all-black notebook for around 3 years and I just could not find a purpose for that impulsive purchase. Teehee! I'd write stuff in it with my metallic pens but nothing really stuck. BUT! I finally found something creative and purposeful that I could use it for. I'm planning on writing down the notes I take when we attend The Feast. I get to be creative plus re-read and reflect on the inspiring words from the talks. I'm going to make attending The Feast and jotting those notes a weekly habit. 😊

These were the notes I took for the first Feast we attended for this year. We went to the Overflow PM session at PICC and it was our first time. Was blessed by the worship and the talk. Plus it was their first anniversary! Happy 1st birthday to The Feast OPM Session! Always a great way to start the week! 😊

#the feast #typography #calligraphy #weekly habit #lettering #OPMhitsOne

A new decade! A new year to make things better! A new year to make new mistakes and try new things.. Can't wait to see what 2020 has in store for me and my heart. 😊

#personal #new year

This year has been a rollercoaster for my emotions. I focused so much of my energy on trying to save our relationship - but to no avail. I poured my heart out and tried so damn hard to keep us together. We fought a good fight. I know we did all we could.. until it broke us. Any further and we could have lost ourselves. All these months, deep down, we knew the inevitable was bound to happen. And it did.. yesterday. It breaks my heart but we know it's what's best for the both us. I'd be lying if I didn't say I hope we find each other again in the end, but I wish you the happiness you deserve. I have said all I wanted to say and have done all I wanted to do. There are no easy goodbyes but I'm happy with how we did ours. I have no regrets. I will always love you as I have loved you for the past 13 years and 9 months. You will always have a piece of my heart.

#jpac #personal #love #loss #moving forward #letting go

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“You think ‘Okay, I get it, I’m prepared for the worst’, but you hold out that small hope, see, and that’s what f*cks you up. That’s what kills you.”

— Stephen King (via quotemadness)

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That tiny bit of hope sure does fuck you up. 😔 NOTHING can ever prepare you for the worst...

#jpac #sad thoughts #hurt

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nothing really goes away (via weheartit)

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And it never will... Despite all the hurt, it's always here... 😔

#jpac #sad thoughts #hurt

Someday...

And I really did... 😔 Where and when did everything go wrong..?

#jpac #sad thoughts #hurt

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#sad thoughts #OPM #Ben&Ben #personal #music

one step forward

but two steps back

and the cycle continues.

we're so far behind

that we can't catch up

and go to where we're supposed to be.

#personal #random #sad thoughts

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