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I posted it yesterday and honestly, I never thought I would upload it somewhere sometime. It's been toughs months and lots of nights thinking about the same subject.

I put my heart in this. Aaban put it too. But to be honest, I felt I needed to risk something else from me, something bigger, an open chest on the table, to just get the monetary support I wanted and needed in this story.

Now I'm typing, with a lot of mixed feelings in between that, maybe, I wanted support but this “rejection” means that I can keep trying, of course, with the precaution that ironically, before making this story I didn't have and I learned through it: I won't create something destroying myself while doing it.

Maybe I just wanted to feel I take a responsibility for once. Of course it was way more bigger than just having monetary support to get this last-self-destructive-show done. It's always more than money when it comes to me making art and creating in general -- that's why I love what I do.

More Aaban, more rambling, more ocs in: