vaeh:3

okay industrial piercing has gotten got and??????????? guys?????? that was??? the?? easiest????? piercing???? ever???? it didnt hurt tbh(and still doesnt) the lower piercing hurt worse than the higher bit. maybe im just more used to getting piercings though now and i know its low risk high reward🙏 now i gotta wait a whole year for this thing to heal?!😑

me when someone says i look like an angel: :333 awe shucks ☺️☺️😇😇:333😆😆 me??☺️☺️:P🙂‍↕️🙂‍↔️

i finally got a tv:,)

ive been having really bad anxiety about talking to men and ive realized its because im not where i want to be in life yet i want to focus on myself still i dont want men involved in any part of it right now ugh i must deactivate my insta again so i can ghost this random dude unless he ghosts me rn🤔☝️ which i cant be mad at im boring i must work on myself before i can work with anyone else frfr

got thirst trapped today. im healed. the sun shines a bit brighter. the birds chirp a bit louder. god is good.

“stay out of my conversations” ok bet😂

i reactivated my instagram and realized why i deactivated it (insta is lame) now i cant deactivate for another 7 days💔 nobody told me this before😒

had a dream i text him n he straight up said “i dont like you” wtf brain😐 i knew that too in the dream he said it for no reason. i was teying to get back w him he was being mean about it so i shut down realizing he didnt want me at all and he was like “what? what? are you okay whats wrong” and then boom dropped the bomb “i dont like you” MF why did you say that (it was a dream there is no logic but it made me sad but hopefully itll help me maybe i needed to hear that even if its just in a dream)

i have so many hobbies and random things i want to do and then i just never do them bc im tired and lazy and bored and i just sit on my phone. readings been helping me be a little more productive and have a little less screentime but ughhh i want to learn to embroider and sew more and crochet more and i dont even know where to start ugh

i must go to whirr concert i am going to go and i will go and be there and go whirr i will see you and be there going to your concert and being there

guys why did my video get 1000 views and why are all my subscribers pedos

also going on that phone was so hard the last time i touched it was when i went on his insta on it and caught him cheating n then we broke up🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗 but i immediately deleted insta and yeah and then i went on spotify and looked at a few of his recent liked songs but felt weird n gross and i went off and logged out. i deleted the videos he took on here and i saw a video he took of me and omg i hate seeing me back then bc i see why he cheated😭🙏 but i feel so weird now and kinda way way disconnected to him like idek who he is anymore and i think im like over him for real this time its kind of setting in that i dont even have his insta anymore like i never touched it ever pinky promise but i just dk it felt weird getting rid of it without even looking and i dont want to look i dont one bit bc id just feel gross weird paranoid and weird and i dont care anymore i dont think. i miss like having someone sometimes but i really dont miss HIM he was lame and the only thing we really connected over was sex which is sad but yeah ill move on. anyways yeah i was and still am ugly i see why he wanted other bitches and yeah i dont trust not a single man never will ever again im not interested in men anymore he ruined it. i genuinely dont see myself being able to open up to someone again everyone kind of sucks and i tried a little but we werent compatible and idk if anyones compatible with me tbh i feel weird and kinda not unlovable but not understandable. weird long rant sorry bout that but idk how to organize my thoughts so spewing it out crazily is all i know.