She says that people who from a young age were made to feel like they kept doing things wrong - people who’s parents had impossibly high standards for them, people who were bullied, people who have special needs, people who didn’t develop crushes on the “right” people, people who didn’t act like the “right” gender - basically ended up being made to feel guilty so much that guilt became their default response to everything. Guilt became the emotional response to anything which the person didn’t already have a set emotion for.

If the answer to the last question is no, then it means I’m being irrationally guilty and so I ask myself “if someone else had been in my place and acted how I acted, what would be a reasonable, healthy reaction to have?”

And then basically I try and have that reaction. Even if that just means me repeatedly telling my brain what to feel. Just kinda fake it till you make it.

I’ve only been trying for like two weeks so I still don’t really know how well it’s working. Me and my therapist are still figuring it out.

My phone is never on ring. You’ll be lucky if my bitch ass feels generous enough to put it on vibrate. The shit is in my hand at least 5 hours a day, if I don’t notice the notification or I’m busy then I wouldn’t have responded anyways, I would have just been irked that it went off at all. 

yeah. i have maybe 200 and counting oliviabots reported and blocked so far. my entire block list is olivia.