simp for jj maybank

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Outer Banks, paradise on earth. That’s what the sign said when Blake and her older brother Monty sped down the North Carolina coastline. It was her first time visiting her brother in North Carolina since he moved a year ago. Just as the beat up ‘63 Chevy whizzed down the bumpy roads, waking up the grumpy teenage whose head was leant up uncomfortably against the glass pane. The golden yellow light of the rising sun washing over her, imprinting an angelic cast throughout the truck.

have a great day and stay safe please,and lastly

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Outer Banks, paradise on earth. That’s what the sign said when Blake and her older brother Monty sped down the North Carolina coastline. It was her first time visiting her brother in North Carolina since he moved a year ago. Just as the beat up ‘63 Chevy whizzed down the bumpy roads, waking up the grumpy teenage whose head was leant up uncomfortably against the glass pane. The golden yellow light of the rising sun washing over her, imprinting an angelic cast throughout the truck.

have a great day and stay safe please,and lastly

 a/n: part two! if you haven’t read part one, here it is part one warning! my writing is trash. john b kept your secret just like he promised, but it was getting harder dealing with jj’s emotions. it’s been almost three months since he found out about your pregnancy, ever since then he would check up on you every three days, making sure you’re healthy and alive. you couldn’t ask for a better friend, but he had thoughts about breaking the promise, as much as he loved you, he also loved jj and hate to see him stress over you. the boy never gave up on finding you, he couldn’t imagine you dead in a ditch. “he’s slowly losing it” sarah muttered as the crew watched jj walk to the water, john b sighed as he watched his best friend. “when was the last time he talked to her?” sarah questioned, kiara shrugged her shoulders. “it’s been long, that all i can say” pope spoke. which was true, you started to respond to jj less, it’s not like you wanted to cut him off completely, you just didn’t know what to do. “what if she’s actually dead-” “don’t talk like that, it’s y/n. she can get through whatever” kiara cut sarah off, kiara couldn’t lose you, you was like a sister to her, you two did everything together. the sadness was getting to the whole friend group expect for john b but he felt guilty that he knew the truth and they didn’t. “i’m sorry, i didn’t mean to talk like that but it’s just scary to think that she might be dead, like what if she is?” sarah spoke, john b closed his eyes for a second before taking a sip of his beer. a few minutes passed by, the crew was silent while jj was still in the water. they were just enjoying each other’s company, john b couldn’t get the small talk they had out of his head. they thought you were dead, but he knew you wasn’t, he felt bad that they were feeling grief.  “she’s not” john b admitted, sorry y/n he said in his head. “she’s alive” he said, everyone looked at him as if he was crazy. “and you didn’t bother to tell us?!” sarah exclaimed as she removed john b’s arm from her shoulder. “i promised her! there’s a reason why she left okay?” john b said defensively, he regretted saying something about it but now he had to pay the consequences. “i wanted to tell you about it so bad but she told me not to, y/n wanted to stay low as possible” john b tried to explain, “guys, she’s going through something serious, it’s not my business to tell” he said. “this is unbelievable, you could’ve at least told us she was alive!” sarah stated, kiara nodded her head in agreement to sarah’s statement. jj made his way back to the group who was still silent, “jj, y/n-” sarah got off by john b. “oh for fuck sakes sarah” john b groaned, sarah glared at john b. jj had confusion written all over his face as he grabbed a towel to dry himself off, “no, john b he deserves to know!” sarah exclaimed. john b looked over at kiara and pope who nodded their head in agreement. “what’s going on?” jj asked, making eye contact with john b. the boy sighed, “john b, do you know something that i don’t?” everyone glanced at john b. once again, sorry y/n. “y/n is alive jj” john b paused for a second, “and i know where she’s at” he finished. jj shook his head, he didn’t know how to react. his girlfriend has been missing for five months and john b knew where she was this whole entire time?? “how long have you known?” jj questioned, john b bit his lip, the boy went silent, not answering his friend.  “how long john b?” kiara asked, john b stared at his foot that was covered in sand. “three months” john b answered, sarah scoffed as she stared at john b in disbelief. “she told me-” “who cares what she fucking told you, you could’ve told me that my girlfriend was alive and well this whole entire time!” jj started to snap, his blood was starting to boil, “where is she” jj questioned, clenching his hand in a fist and then opening it. “where is she” jj raised his voice, “her grandma’s house, she’s been there the entire time” john b responded, he tried his best to avoid eye contact. jj clenched his jaw before walking to the chateau, kiara got up from sitting on the sand and followed jj. “jj, calm down before you do something you’ll regret” kiara said as she followed jj inside, the boy was too angry to listen, he was in his little mad world. “jj” kiara grabbed jj’s wrist. “you need to calm down, please” she said, it didn’t take jj that long to be emotional. his eyes were glossy due to tears, pulling kiara into a hug as he rested his head on her shoulder. “it’s fucking crazy” he sniffed, “am i the reason she left” his voice cracked.  “wake up early tomorrow and see for yourself” jj put his head up and his eyes met john b’s. “you need to know but it’s too late.” ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ jj did exactly what he was supposed to do the next day, the boy got up and got dressed. walking to the living room is where he saw the rest of the group, everyone’s eyes was on him. “i’m ready” jj spoke, john b nodded his head and got up from the sofa, giving sarah a quick peck on the lips. the two exited out of the chateau and got in the van, john b knew you wasn’t home at this time due to a checkup appointment but by the time he’ll get to your grandma’s house, you’ll just arrive there.  jj strapped his seatbelt in, taking a deep breath on what’s about to happen. “john b” he said, john b hummed in response, “i’m scared, what if she doesn’t want to see me” he continued. john b shook his head, ignoring the question and started to drive.  john b made it to your grandma’s house before you so he parked somewhere far so when you pull up, you won’t see your car. he observed that jj was too focus on trying to spot the car, but he gave up. “i’m scared” jj stated and he wasn’t lying, his stomach felt like it was turning, his hands were getting sweaty, he wasn’t ready to find out the reason why you left. few minutes later is when they saw your car getting parked in the driveway, jj’s heart was beating fast, he didn’t know what to think, they saw your door open. “they said it’s the size of a soda can” you said in awe as you admired the ultrasound photo, “now that we have the gender in the envelope, i say we throw a little gender reveal party” you giggled, your grandma playfully rolled her eyes as she got out of the driver’s seat. seconds later, you got out of the car, slamming the door behind you. it was a hot day so you just wore a pink tank top that fit perfect on you and was also cropped along with black leggings with black nike shoes. sure it was a bad idea to wear black in heat but you couldn’t help it. jj’s eyes soften when he sees you, your skin was glistening and clear, hair in a messy ponytail with two hair strands out, the pregnancy bump was the one thing he was stuck on. “she’s pregnant” he muttered, john b nodded his head as he observed you as well even though you see him every three days, today marked the 18th week of the pregnancy. “why didn’t she tell me?” he questioned as he watched you go inside the house, john b took his seatbelt off. “get out and ask” jj was scared, let’s just flat out say it, he was scared on how the encounter was going to go. he took off his seatbelt and got out of the van, the two started walking towards the front door. his girlfriend was pregnant and he haven’t seen you in five months. stepping on the porch, ringing the doorbell. jj stood behind john b, it didn’t take long for you to answer the door. opening the door with the biggest smile on your face when you saw john b but it turned into a frown when you saw jj behind him. damn it, john b. you promised. you glared at john b, he knew what you was thinking. “he needed to know, he’s the father” jj’s eyes were on your pregnancy belly for the longest, he swore this wasn’t real life and it was just some kind of illusion. you sighed, “come in” you muttered before making your way to the couch. the two stood in living room, “you can sit” you told them. jj nodded his head before sitting on the couch across from you, his eyes never left your pregnant stomach. “how long?” jj asked, you switched glances between john b and jj. “five months” you answered, jj nodded his head not knowing what to think, tears started to well up in his eyes. “five months” his voice cracked, john b looked over, he could tell his bestfriend was ready to breakdown. “why didn’t i know from the beginning?” jj questioned, your eyes focused on your fingers fidgeting with each other, “hid for five months but hey you could’ve at least told me” you knew the conversation was going to be hard but you didn’t think it was going to be this hard, shaking your head “it’s not like that jj, believe me. i did this for you” you said, jj scoffed, he started to get mad every second, he didn’t know what to believe. jj shook his head, he couldn’t believe what you were saying. hiding a pregnancy to protect him? it didn’t make any sense to the boy. “how is that protecting me y/n” he questioned, “you think you running away here for five months and then hiding the pregnancy was all to protect me?” “well in the beginning yes” you answered, “the last thing i wanted you to do is think that you’ll become your father” boom, that triggered him. “that’s fucking bullshit!” he exclaimed, “y/n, you don’t know what you’ll talking about” he pointed at you. you stood up from the couch, “i know you jj, john b knows you, the whole crew knows you. you was gonna have those thoughts sooner or late” jj had to admit you got him there, he knew it himself that he was gonna have those kind of thoughts, putting your hands in his. “i just wish you told me” he whispered, “but how did john b find out?” he asked. “i stopped by here cause i knew whenever she was in deep shit” he said, “that’s when she told me to promise her that i wouldn’t tell where she was” he finished. “yet, you still told him” you muttered under your breath earning a glare from john b, the room went silent, nobody knew what to say next. “y/n, i’m getting lunch ready!” your grandma shouted from the kitchen, her footsteps approached the living room.  she saw john b and jj sitting on the couch, “oh.. hello boys” she greeted the two with a small smile. she could feel the tension in the room, “um, john b how about you help cut some veggies in the kitchen” she said, john b understood right away causing him to leave the living room and follow your grandma. it was now just the two of you, you decided to sit next to him. jj had his head in his hands as his leg was bouncing due to the nerves. “i’m really sorry” you apologized, putting your hand on his thigh. “i just didn’t want you to start having these thoughts about ending up like your father, even if you swear to me that you won’t, the thoughts would still be there no matter what” “it’s okay if you’re mad at me, i understand but i care about you and i know your home situation and i didn’t want to add more weight on your shoulders when i found out i was a pregnant” jj held his head up, you picked up his hand and placed it on your belly, you could feel his hand become less tense. “come back with us” your eyes met jj’s, “we barley have a home, and i don’t want to live in john b’s house-” “we can figure it out, we just need a stable place” jj mentioned, he was trying his best to convince you to go back with him. “please come back” he whispered. ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ john b and jj made it back to the chateau, opening the door to see the group sitting on the couch. “so?” kiara trailed off, jj had a smile on his face as he tossed the enevlope on the coffee table. pope picked it and opened it up, his eyes widened when he saw the one word. “is she?” he questioned, jj nodded his head.  “i’m having a son and she’s outside” sarah quickly rushed out of the house to see you wearing a jacket that was unzipped. pulling you into a hug. “oh my god you’re safe” “and huge, oh my god” you laughed. “i’m ready to start this parenting life with jj”

summary: The pogues basically live off pizza, and JJ Maybank has a crush on one of the girls who works there.

wc: 2.5k

warning: cursing, toxic masculinity from co-workers, i think that’s it. oh yeah, my shitty writing. 

a/n: honestly i just got this idea and rolled with it. hope ya’ll like it. 

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It was hot. 

Actually, that was an understatement. It was sweltering. The summer heat and humidity had a ‘feels like’ temperature of 100, and the 600 degree pizza ovens didn’t help that. 

The air conditioner never shut off in the small pizza shop. It was constantly trying to get the air to a decent temperature- but your only real escape from the heat was when you were able to go into the walk-in. 

“I’ll make the salad!” You yelled from the back of the small dining room where you were folding boxes in front of the air vent. You quickly shoved passed the boys working the counter, taking the order slip and nearly counting the seconds until your sweet escape from the heat. 

Opening the heavy door, a sigh of relief exited your lips as the cool air took over your body. It gave you a chill as the refrigerators air cooled the sweat that was causing your skin to glisen. None of it was glamorous, you came home smelling like garlic, pizza sauce stained your sneakers, and the flour that hung in the humid air stuck to your clothes. But it paid well- or, you made it pay well. You were the best, and longest worker there. You had been working in the small shop since you were fourteen. It was off the books, meaning you got paid in cash and pocketed all the money. No taxes. No nothing. 

summary: jj and y/n were enemies. always at each other’s throats, never agreeing on anything, wanting nothing to do with each other. however, y/n finds herself fake dating jj just so her family would leave her alone. for two people who hate each other, how easy would it be for them to pretend to get along?

warnings: mentions of sex and abuse, nothing too horrible though

a/n: i’m unaware about how many chapters there are going to be. i am just writing as i go, but if you have any requests or ideas for the next chapter(s), let me know!

Chapters

“uh oh”

warnings: you know the drill, it’s smut baby.

word count: 1.6k

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READ PART 2 HERE

READ PART 3 HERE

author’s note: this is the final part of the red wine lips series! thank you so much to everyone who has read, supported and loved this series with me. look out for plenty more rafe content to come.

For two months now, you and Rafe have been enjoying each other’s company in more ways than one. Never one to waste any time, but certainly one to avoid discussing anything remotely serious, you were quick to fall into a rhythm with your best friend/fuck buddy/whatever else he may be. After the incidents at the winery and the tennis club, there was an unspoken agreement between you and the self-professed Kook King that you’ll continue to hang out as friends and sneak off whenever possible to let out that pent up sexual frustration you knew too well.

And, since Rafe seemed to constantly want to get his dick wet, there was rarely an outing or event that went without a sneaky quickie in a hidden corner or locked bathroom.

You recall sneaking up to Topper’s roof during one of his parties, Rafe bending you over the railing that looked over the backyard, answering Rafe’s “wanna fuck u now” texts with a coy smile and raised eyebrow and, more recently, the memory of Rafe pressing you up against the wall in a changing room as you decided on your dress for Midsummers.

What you can’t seem to remember, however, is when your feelings for Rafe extended beyond how much you liked the feeling of his body flush against yours, lips attached to your neck.

Maybe it was when you started talking with one another for longer after having sex instead of just leaving, or maybe that one time when he lifted up your chin with his index finger to kiss you (the cool metal of his ring a stark contrast against your flushed skin), or when seeing him flirting with a Touron made your blood boil.

You’ve found yourself completely and hopelessly falling for Rafe Cameron.

Before your parents split, you lived in the outerbanks,with your mum and dad, close to your cousin ,john b. Not long after Big John, your dad’s brother, died your mum and dad split, your dad stayed in outer banks to watch over his brothers son and keep his steady job, your mum however took you back to her home country Italy, and you lived in a small but cosy house near your grandparents. Not having a choice as a 7 year old you had to leave outer banks behind. When you got older your mum let you have your dad’s number and then eventually you got your cousins, and began to get extremely close.

John and your dad simultaneously kept you up to date on the news and gossip of the outer banks, you’d call each other and it became your Sunday night ritual. Being a call or facetime you’d talk about school, you talked him through a grieving process and eventually settled for his reason to not believe until there is physical evidence. You barely know his friends other than jj whose number you also had, but they knew the name ‘Luna D’Angelo.

Chapter 8 - Intoxicating

word count: 2k

warnings: mentions of sex, foul language, alcohol & the usual dash of angst

author’s note: it’s been a while but i’m getting my inspo back finally lmao hope you enjoy this chapter gif is by @heapass also veins oml

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You and JJ hadn’t spoken a word to each other after what had happened. You’d just laid silently in his bed, listening to each other’s heavy breaths as you got your heartbeat to slow down from your previous endeavours.

“So what does this mean?” JJ was the first to break the silence as he rolled over to look up at you.

“Uh- i’m not sure, do you want this to mean something?” you hesitantly asked moving down a little so you were at eye level with each other.

“Yeah I do, but I think I may need some time to get over you and Rafe- I just can’t get the image of you two together out of my head”

That sentence made your blood boil, even if you wanted to get back together you weren’t about to let him blame you for everything that went wrong in your relationship.

“JJ are you being serious right now? It’s not like I cheated on you, we were broken up when I kissed Rafe!” you chided getting out of the bed, covering your naked body with his bed sheets.

“I don’t care and I wouldn’t have minded it as much if it had been anyone but Rafe! He’s made all of our lives living hells for the last year- I mean he nearly cost Pope his job! So it’s not because you made out with someone it’s who it was with!” JJ snapped back getting out of bed after you, quickly pulling on his boxers.

“You’re such an asshole! I don’t even know how I thought of getting back together with you!” you retorted hastily walking around the room in an attempt to find your clothes.

Once you finally managed to get fully dressed you went to unlock the door but JJ pulled you back before you could leave.

You quickly snatched your hand out of his grasp not giving him a chance to talk “give me a call once you’ve decided to stop being a self absorbed asshole” you grumbled slamming his bedroom door shut in his face.

You stormed out of the chateau still adjusting your clothes, when Kiara pulled into the driveway with Pope and John B, perfect timing.

“Hey-“ Pope started but was cut off by you crashing into his shoulder as you stormed past your three clueless friends.

“What was that about” Pope questioned turning to Kiara and John B who stood there, bewildered at your sudden outburst.

“Fuck” Kiara mumbled once she remembered the reason you’d been here in the first place, practically running into the chateau to find JJ.

“What the hell happened!?” Kiara shrieked as she pushed open the door into JJ’s room who just shook his head and let himself fall down onto his mattress.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about” he shrugged her off not bothering to look up at her.

“Don’t give me that bullshit JJ, I drove Y/N here earlier so you two could make up and then I see her practically crying running out of here so what happened!”

“It didn’t work out alright! We’re not getting back together and we’re not gonna be friends again, okay!?”

“was that your decision or hers?” Kiara countered.

“Hers! or- I mean I just told her that it would take time to get over the thing with Rafe and she just lost it!”

“JJ are you kidding me? You dated her for a bet and she was able to forgive you for that and you’ve got the audacity to be mad at her for something she did when you were broken up! Come on JJ you’re better than that”

“But its Rafe-“ Kiara quickly cut him off.

“I know! Do you think I like the fact she chose him of all guys to be with? But she was hurting because she thought that the guy she really wanted was only with her for money, you both need to sort your shit out because this is getting really tiring for all of us” she spoke gesturing towards her, Pope and John B who stood in silence behind her clearly taken aback by her words.

JJ scoffed not bothering to respond simply pulling a shirt over his head and walking past the three pogues towards the front door.

“You’re just gonna leave?” Kiara chided following after him “yeah I am” he replied coldly before slamming the door shut in her face.

Tears were furiously running down your cheeks as you walked the road down the cut that lead to figure 8.

Deciding to walk home maybe hadn’t been the brightest idea you had, it was so hot you thought you were going to pass out but you refused to spend another minute with JJ.

A sudden honk from behind you made you jerk around, only picking up your pace when you saw Wards all to familiar jet black Range Rover, not needing to guess twice as to who was sat in the drivers seat.

“Y/N?” Rafe leaned out the window as he pressed on the break just enough so he was able to drive alongside you.

“Go away” you replied curtly beginning to walk even faster although you knew your chances of outrunning a car were not in your favor.

“Come on Y/N let me drive you home you’re gonna melt out here in this heat” he sounded sincere his eyebrows contorting, silently begging for you to get into the car.

You came to an abrupt halt as you turned to face him arm crossed over your chest. You had two options one walk home in the burning heat which would probably take you around two hours or get into the car with Rafe and have to endure his company for 10 minutes.

You went with the latter huffing before pulling the door handle and getting into the car without a word, although you couldn’t contain the moan that slipped past your lips once the cool air from the AC met your flaming skin.

“Y/N I just wanted to-“ he began but you cut him off raising your index finger towards his face “stop I don’t wanna hear it just drive me home” he nodded obviously disappointed but kept on driving either way.

Once you pulled into your driveway he gave you one last pleading look but you didn’t give him a chance to talk muttering a small thanks before slipping out of the passenger seat and slamming the car door shut in his face.

You were in desparate need of a shower your sweaty skin beginning to stick to the shirt that loosely hung over your body.

You decided to push all thoughts of JJ into the back of your mind as you turned the shower on wanting nothing more than to take back the fact that you’d gone and slept with him.

“Idiot” you mumbled shaking your head the warm water travelling down your body the only comfort you felt you needed right now.

Just as you began to feel the corner of your eyes brim with tears you were startled to hear the bathroom door open.

“What the hell!” you shrieked once you saw Kiara walk in with a large purple backpack slung over her shoulder.

“That door was locked!” you yelled hurriedly grabbing a towel and wrapping it around yourself.

“I know that’s why I have a knife” she deadpanned before placing the silver object she’d obviously stolen from your kitchen on the bathroom counter.

“What do you want Kie?” you huffed finally stepping fully out of the shower and onto the white tiled floor.

“You, me” she lifted up the backpack she’d been holding “and our dear friend vodka”

“I love you” you gushed grabbing the bag out of her hands and walking into your bedroom gently placing it on your bed.

“What’s the occasion?” you turned to face her “the occasion is a party down at the cut” she smiled sitting down on your bed unzipping the bag revealing the numerous amount of white claws and the huge bottle of vodka.

“God are you trying to kill me? you know i’m a lightweight” you gaped at the numerous beverages but still grabbed a white claw quickly opening it and taking a large sip.

“Who said any of this was for you” she raised an eyebrow an amused smile playing at her lips “shut up” you laughed.

“You owe me this whole thing is your fault” you took another sip out of the can before it was harshly ripped away from you the liquid spilling all over your arm.

“Oh so it’s my fault you hooked up with Rafe” Kiara placed a hand on her hip as she held the white claw up with her other hand.

“No” you snatched the drink back before continuing “it’s your fault that I went to JJ’s which ultimately led to the decision of me sleeping with him and making a complete fool of myself in the progress”

“Fair enough” she surrendered “get ready we need to be down at the beach in half an hour”

Once you’d made it down to the beach you’d already downed four white claws and three shots the alcohol running through your veins making you feel dizzy as you walked alongside Kie towards the crowd of teenagers all packed together around the keg watching as a girl you didn’t recognised stood in a handstand downing the beer without a struggle.

“I could do that” you slurred Kiara’s head turning in the direction you were looking “no you couldn’t” she chuckled dragging you towards John B and Pope who looked beyond shocked to see you.

“Y/N?” John B looked almost panicked as he abruptly stood up his eyes frantically beginning to dart all over the beach before stopping and widening as he looked at something behind you.

You turned to where his eyes were directed and you were horrified at the sight before you. There he was none other than JJ Maybank himself with his tongue shoved down some girls throat.

“That asshole!” you practically growled throwing the white claw you held down onto the sand as you made a bee line towards him, Kiara frantically picking up the can before following after you.

“Real classy J” you sneered a scowl resting on your face as you gave him the most disgusted look you could muster.

“Y/N” was all he said as he turned to face you, he didn’t even look sorry.

“So this is your way of trying to repair our relationship” you shot at him and the girl quickly stood up practically running away from the scene unfolding before her.

“Hey i’m just doing what you’ve been doing all along” he replied curtly standing up to face you.

“What the hell is that supposed to mean JJ” you were surprised at your ability to form a whole sentence since you didn’t exactly see straight, but this whole exchange seemed to be sobering you up.

“I saw you earlier getting into that car with Rafe!”

“What? you were following me?”

“Yes! Because I wanted to come and apologise for how I acted but clearly I was right all along!”

“JJ I didn’t ask him for a ride or call him he offered and I accepted because because I didn’t really feel like walking all the way from the cut back home in the burning heat!” a hint of regret washed over his face at your words but you continued “It doesn’t even matter I don’t have to explain myself to you”

He was about to open his mouth and say something but you didn’t give him the chance. “We’re over and this time I mean it”

You suddenly became more aware of the crowd that had begun to gather around you and you quickly turned around pushing your way past the teenagers that were huddled behind you.

“Are you okay?” a frantic voice belonging to Kiara sounded from beside you.

You swallowed the lump that was beginning to form in your throat and turned to face her pasting on a fake smile as you did.

“I’m fine” you knew she didn’t buy it but she could tell from the look in your eyes that you were silently begging her not to press on it any further, you wanted to have fun tonight and you were not going to let JJ get in the way of that.

AN INTERACTIVE FIC

choose your ending. read this intro part first then jump to the ending you choose!

note: GUYS! IT’S HERE! this is my gift for 3k followers. i am so excited about this and i haven’t seen it in this fandom yet so hopefully i can bring something new & fun. i hope you enjoy ♡

word count: 1.9k + whatever ending you pick

summary: jj confesses he has feelings for you that he thought were unrequited. he gives you a choice, but before you can do anything, he shows up at your door.

“You sure you don’t want to come?” John B asked.

“The hurricane’s coming and you want to go surf?” You replied with a chuckle. “Good luck with that”

“Come on, we’ll have fun” Pope said. “We’ll keep you safe”

“No, really” You insisted, shifting from side to side.

JJ intervened with feigned confidence. “I told her I was gonna take her home”

Pope and John B exchanged wary looks. “Rafe’s gonna snap your head off” John B said with an amused look on his face. You tensed up at the mention of your boyfriend. More like ex boyfriend, but your relationship was extremely complicated considering the boy involved was the embodiment of that word.

“He’d be mad if we let her walk home alone. Besides, I wouldn’t be surfing anyways” JJ shrugged. “You guys go off and enjoy yourselves. We’ll text you later for tonight”

For a moment, you and JJ stared at each other in silence, but you both quickly dissolved into laughter.

“Thank you for saving me from that nightmare” You said gratefully. He relaxed, tendion washing away from him.

“I figured,” JJ said, offering a smile. “Bad news is you actually have to walk home with me”

You furrowed your brows. “It’s not bad news, J. I like spending time with you”

JJ didn’t say anything but his smile was worth a thousand words. There were times when you said things to him, completely innocuos things, which he couldn’t help but take with a double meaning. It was embarrassing for JJ, this crush on you that he had developed over time and he couldn’t even recall when it had surfaced. He was sure it had come about slowly, because it’s hard for him to fall for a girl. He was used to seeing girls come and go, but he had never felt something as intense as what he felt for you.

JJ shook his head suddenly. Those thoughts had plagued him for some time now and he hated every second of it. He thought he’d be able to get over them like any other crush, but this had been going on for months, and it didn’t look like it was going to stop any time soon.

Nothing felt uncomfortable during your walk together, not even the silence. You felt so at ease with JJ that you lost track of time. You didn’t remember feeling like that, ever.

You shook off your thoughts, knowing you’d have to go see Rafe sooner or later. Things with Rafe were so simple when you started dating that you genuinely felt like you’d found your perfect match. The thing is that the more he started getting vulnerable with you, the more you felt like you needed to get away. That was your toxic trait. You didn’t want to have someone depend on you, and he fully depended on you when you were the only thing bringing him some kind of relief. When you felt suffocated, you left. He called you, you came back, and then he left. It was a never ending circle that was hard to end because deep down you cared about him. That still didn’t mean he had the right to treat you nicely only when you were sleeping together.

JJ’s voice startled you.

“S-Sorry, what did you say?” You stuttered, putting your focus on him.

“I said, I’ll teach you how to surf someday” JJ said, his lip between his teeth.

You pursed your lips. “Mh, I’ll pass”

“What are you so scared of?” He inched closer to you.

You ignored his question as you stepped on your porch. “Here we are”

“Shit” JJ cursed under his breath, looking at the rain pouring down behind him.

“You wanna come in?” You asked, remembering you have the house all to yourself.

“R-Really? You sure?” He mumbled with a raised eyebrow.

“Yeah, are you kidding? I am not letting you go home. You can sleep here” You said as you unlocked the door.

JJ kicked off his shoes, hopped on the bed and then curled up against the headboard. You put on a random movie from the selection of classics to keep you company as you waited to fall asleep. It didn’t feel weird, sleeping next to him. It wasn’t your first time sleeping with one of the pogues.

Sure, JJ was very affectionate, always touching and poking everyone in some way, and it made you feel special. You liked that he never kept his hands to himself but he would never do anything to make you feel uneasy.

You weren’t sure at which point in the movie he started to feel tired. He lied down beside you, your eyes drooping slowly, too. And within minutes, lulled by the comfort of being next to each other, you fell asleep.

JJ awoke before you, surprisingly. He began to move around, only to feel a body moving back against him. Your arm was draped over his waist, and you looked so peaceful that he wished he could look at you just a little bit longer. But JJ was confused about how they ended up actually sleeping next to each other, and woke up with butterflies from the proximity.

You stirred, rolling around the bed. You rubbed your eyes before slowly opening them.

“J?” You groaned.

“Morning” JJ said, trying not to look as vulnerable as he felt. “I, uhm, I was planning on leaving but I fell asleep”

“I told you could stay. I don’t mind it” You smiled at him as you moved to sit up.

And there you were again, with sentences that JJ could’ve misinterpreted. JJ was hit with the idea that he couldn’t take it anymore.

“You good?” You called after him after he popped out of the bed, his back facing you.

“Fine” JJ snapped, immediately regretting it. Nothing good ever happens if JJ snaps, all of his friends have learned it the hard way.

“What are we doing? We’ve been spending too much time together, Y/N” He stated quickly, like he had it on the tip of his tongue. “ We can’t keep doing this. I can’t—“

Your expression pained JJ beyond words. He sit up to approach the bathroom, and you quickly tried grabbing his arm. “What’s going on—“

“No!” JJ exclaimed, louder than he wanted it to sound. “I am serious. You’re with Rafe. I—Whatever this is, it’s not good for me”

“If you want space, that’s what you’ll get” You were angry. You had the right to be angry, right? He acted like nothing in the world mattered more than you and he was now pushing you away, confusing you even more. It made your heart ache way more than what you had expected.

JJ looked at you one last time, and when he saw the look in your eyes he was quick to grab up his personal belongings. He slipped on his shoes and you looked at him in silence. He didn’t say a word as he was out the door in less than a minute.

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“What’s up with them?” Kiara murmured.

“They haven’t talked to each other for days” Pope stated.

“Maybe they had a fight. It’s not–Oh, they’re coming” John B said. You had heard their entire conversation but chose to pretend you didn’t. You didn’t want to have to think about JJ, mainly because the thought of him was already consuming you.

You loved how easy things were with him, why did he have to go and make everything so complicated?

JJ’s heart ached at the mere thought of you, but he turned off his emotions. He couldn’t really do anything about his decision to ask you for space. It was such an abrupt decision that he didn’t even realize what he was saying.

He saw you, but you didn’t acknowledge his presence. That’s what he wanted, right? Space. That’s what JJ needed, room to breathe and figure out if he could live knowing you probably didn’t think of him in a romantic way, or if he had to take even more space from you because he wouldn’t be able to handle it.

The thing is, JJ felt the urge to talk to you, so even if you tried to ignore him, he pulled you into a corner, away from the crowd at the Wreck.

“Y/N” He began, “I need you to know something. But, most importantly, I need you to listen to what I’m about to tell you, okay?”

You nodded.

“You can be so dense sometimes, you know that? I...um, this is hard for me. You wanna know why I asked you for space? Because the feelings I have for you have become more than platonic and it’s scaring the shit out of me. And it kills me to know that I can’t be with you because you are in a relationship with a guy that doesn’t treat you the way I could. I know I am not imagining things, I know you feel it too. I can’t keep doing what we do if we can’t be together.” He paused to take a deep breath, and you let him continue, ignoring your fluttering heart.

“Here’s what I propose. Think about what I said. I’ll text you before I go to bed asking you if I can come over. If you say yes, I’ll know you feel the same way and you’d be willing to work something out. If you say no, I swear I’ll drop it”

“If I say no, where does that leave us?” You asked. “I mean, do-do we stay like this?”

“It’ll be like we never had this conversation” He confirmed. “Trust me”

You felt your insides knot. You were faced with an important decision and you had to think quickly.

“This is unfair” You muttered. Why did he put you in that position?

“Life’s unfair” He replied. His mind went to Rafe, who was probably waiting for you. He knew he was never good to you, so talk about unfair.

You stared at JJ absent-mindedly, and he stepped back. “Text you later”

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That night, your mind was racing. Your thumbs hovered over the text. You wrote yes, and then deleted it. Then you typed no, and you proceeded to delete that text, too. You decided that waiting would be better, and it would avoid any rushed decision that you could potentially regret.

You put your phone on the nightstand, and you laid down, your eyes fixed on the ceiling. Seconds later, you saw your screen light up.

JJ: can i come over?

JJ: hey, i am sorry

JJ: please answer me

JJ: y/n

JJ: i am here

JJ: i am sorry, please open up

You jerked up into a proper sitting position, your eyes wide. You heard hurried raps hitting the door, and your heart dropped.

You hopped off your bed, smoothing your tangled hair behind your shoulders, and you walked to the front door. A mixture of anger and anxiety swirled inside of you as you pulled open the door, bracing youself to see him again. You weren’t ready to sort things out, or even see him yet.

When you pull the door back you see...

1.) JJ anxiously biting his lip, his eyes glassy. (FLUFF)

2.) JJ running his hands through his hair, leaning against the door frame. (ANGST)

3.) JJ standing in front of you, his fists and jaw clenched. (SMUT)