It's been 7 years and yet here we are-

Ah shit maybe I can’t escape

I guess the other thing that really keeps me wanting to continue with stuff over here is that. I have 300 followers who like to interact with my content and I don’t have that for anything else. I love having people want to discuss stuff and who like my characters and boy do I not have that for like anything else i’m doing, let alone like this-

I’m caught up in both the struggle of getting myself motivated to do anything at all, and the struggle of if I wanna continue with stuff here or not. I love Casil and Miraak and the HCs and stuff I make, but I also like. God. I love Skyrim but I also hate Skyrim u know. I don’t really wanna continue with TES stuff but I also don’t wanna drop the stuff I’ve started cuz I like that.

There are now 300 of you following this blog. Wheezes. I’m sorry i’m so dead. Graduation is next week and man oh man. Yeah baby that inability to function and finish things is hitting hard but maybe, just maybe, after next week / after I get my finals done I can. Breathe. For a whole 2 seconds. Maybe even a month if I get this job and don’t have to worry more-

I constantly go back and forth between wanting to continue Skyrim fic stuff, and not wanting to play in the Skyrim / Bethesda sandbox

Opens my various piles of writing projects. Stares at them longingly for energy/inspiration/motivation/etc. Stares for hours. Vacantly. In vain.