— ask meme : THE AMAZING DEVIL, THE HORROR AND THE WILD (2020).
i know the kindest thing is to leave you alone.
i could try to calm you down, but i know you won’t.
i’ll darn you back together when you think that you’re bereft.
i’ll never stop ‘cause it’s all that i have left.
i pray to god it’s the kindest thing.
it all comes down to you.
you watch the stars hurl all their fundaments at you and yours, forever asking more.
you are that space that’s in between every page, every cord, every screen.
they thought us blind. we were just blinking.
all the stones and kings of old will hear us screaming at the cold.
remember me, remember me, remember me, remember me.
give me back my heart, you wingless thing.
think of all the horrors that i promised you i’d bring.
witness me, old man. i am the wind.
i am time itself, i slow to let you play. i steal the hours and turn the night into day.
without you, i’m stronger.
this time, we’re done for.
let’s hide under the covers. we don’t know what’s out there.
the candle we lit, we’ll use to burn this whole place to the ground.
what’s it like? it’s just like falling snow.
i’ll be with you all along, as long as you are kind.
just because i left doesn’t mean that i’m not still there.
how could you leave me here?
i’m the hardest goodbye that you’ll ever have to say.
i promise you i’ll be better. i promise you i’ll try.
like rubbing wine stains into rugs it’s my curse, to try and make it right, but by trying make it worse.
our gods have abandoned us, left us.
goodbye to all my darkness. there’s nothing here but light.
i try so hard to make you laugh at me.
it’s not fair. it’s not fair how much i love you.
how unreasonably in love i am with everything you do.
i’ve seen enough, i know exactly what i want and it’s this life that we’ve created.
dear heart, it’s me, it’s me. you don’t need to pretend to be someone you’re not.
for some godforsaken reason, i’m still here, like i’ve always been before.
you try so loud to love me, but i cannot seem to hear.
can’t you hear that scratching? there’s something at the door.
that unwanted animal wants nothing more than to get out.
if we join our hands in prayer enough, to god i imagine it all starts to sound like applause.
you couldn’t lie then, and you sure as hell can’t lie to me now.
i’m at the brink, don’t laugh.
who died and made you king of it all?
you’ve a knack for applause from the back of the stalls but you lack the conviction to look at me straight and say yes.
look at me as you say this, don’t look at your phone.
we’d laugh at the ghosts of our fears.
god knows how you dragged us both into the darkness that grows.
leave without a fight. i won’t let you turn our last night into this.
this isn’t a break up, it’s a season finale.
now, at the end of all things, i’m not going to scream, beat my chest at the wind. i’m doing fine.