You know the thing about love is that you can’t help who you love, as much as I feel improved the last couple of weeks, a return of these feelings where heart ACHES, I feel like the only way through is by replacement, I know that they say this must come from within and through you…. I hope to feel that way someday, and that I may be a source of love to everyone I know and everyone I meet but I can’t help but feel this hurt, no matter how much I aspire to, I am brought down to feeling lowly and longing and resentment and desperate, I think that my life will just be significantly here on out, it is a source of embarrassment and pride that I long so much to be loved and to love