Trinity

And, even in the later scenes with him (which are way too little btw) he seems extremely apathetic - you can mostly see it in the eyebrows, imo. Yes, he "saves" that man, but does he truly care about him and so does he do it, or does he do it to make everyone more perfect according to the hexcore's ideals? I truly believe Viktor has been partially taken over by the core (mentally i mean; bodily its pretty obvious) and i so hope he can get back from it.

My theory is that the Hexcore is using Viktor in a way a virus/parasite uses its host: it uses his body to spread itself to others as it itself can not just jump over. This is why it induces hallucinations (auditory and visual) in Viktor, and forces him to move a certain way - just like some real parasites and virusses are able to do. It wants to jump to as many people as possible, because the one life-goal of a virus is to spread, to infect.

This is NOT longing, not afffection --- this is resignation. This is a realization and immediate acceptance of "oh, this isnt important to me anymore. He cares so much and I did, too, in some far away past, but I dont reciprocate this anymore."

His return of the hug is indulgence, because its the appropriate thing to do, but it is not with any warmth. His priorities are forever altered. He cant even feel Jayce's warmth when he hugs him.

Reptile 🐊

hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.

hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy

hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it

hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently

hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love

For every shadow, no matter how deep, is threatened by morning light.

My little 3d diorama, based on a painting by Józef Męcina-Krzesz, "Chopin's Last Chords", which I think is one of the gentlest, most beautiful paintings. Done in Maya, ZBrush and Substance Painter and rendered in Blender

Józef Męcina-Krzesz's original painting:

Gian Lorenzo Bernini (1598-1680); Italian sculptor and architect.