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i’m at 155 now and i’m so so upset. i can’t believe this bruh i was literally at 149 yesterday before i drank theres. no way the scale is right i choose not to believe it LALALALALALA

and lowkey one of my comfort people is my boyfriend but he’s in a different time zone right now where when i’m awake he’s asleep and vice versa and. it sucks bc im realizing im not close enough with my friends so im trying to text them more but my anxiety is making that difficult too ahasjshhhhaaaa

i’m so anxious bc i haven’t been taking my meds in weeks and it’s been rly bad haha but i have this weird cycle of thinking i don’t deserve them/to feel ok so idk but i think i need to snap out of it and just refill my rx because im starting to get that bad feeling of being too scared to go outside again and i lowkey cannot afford this

it’s getting easier to say no

guess who just hit their goal weight 😼

i feel like i ate too much today ghehshfhsuaj also i forgot to weigh myself today too bc my mom hides the scale in her b room uhgghhh

okay TBF my sister and her bf are like 24/26 and live together and my bf and i are 20/21 and we don’t live together but. still. i want one :(

tweaking bc my older sisters bf of like 8 months bought them a promise ring set but when i asked my bf of thREE YEARS to get me one he thought it was too soon ok

also i’m stressed rn bc my professor hasn’t emailed me about the class schedules that start TOMORROW and i still need to tell my work what my schedule is gonna be 😭im cooked

I DROPPED FOUR POUNDS :D

kinda dreading tomorrow.. lots of eats