And I’m Not Scared Anymore

poisonthoughtss sideblog. tw for sensitive subjects. I will use tags a lot.

I’m kinda scared to go into high school because sadly i am drawn towards unhealthy coping mechanisms such as alcohol and drugs and self harm. And high school will make it easier to get to those things. I haven’t done drugs or alcohol but i know i will end up doing so because i am self destructive and i am attracted to things that are advertised to give me relief.

my brother is genuinely the person i like the least out of all of my family and i feel bad bc he’s autistic but at the same time that doesn’t excuse him for being an asshole. I can barely be around my family if he’s there because all he does is pick fights and make my parents and me mad. It makes me so sad. I love him but i can’t stand him.