As the good feedee puppy you are, thinking through the considerations you have to make for your current size and the ways in which you've started to feel your weight work against you and limit you in everyday life, which is your favorite? Bonus question: Which are you most looking forward to?
hi 💓💓 i wanted to think about this one more before responding, i've mentioned a few aspects of both answers here already haha, though i'll try add additional thoughts too 🌷 in my current body, some of the things i notice (and enjoy 😳) are...
🌸 when i find myself struggling with smaller spaces in general, or taking up more space! i’m realising I find it harder to navigate spaces or a gap i should be able to walk through easily but i’m big enough now that i rather can’t or need to squeeze through 😵💫😵💫 recently I’ve found myself sometimes getting a little stuck between the space between chairs in my dining room and the wall, and it always makes me a little lightheaded 😵💫 i also like when i need to walk a different direction because i’m definitely too fat to get through a certain space
🌸 definitelyyy the heaviness, i’m actually at a stage now where i can really feel it when i move around! when i climb stairs i can feel the heaviness of my body making each lifting myself onto each step more difficult, and i always get a little excited when i’m noticing the effort i’m putting into it 😵💫 this also applies to standing up from a sitting position, and i can feel the gravity on all my extra weight and i’m fighting with it just to move around
🌺 in the future i’m excited for building on both of these! for taking up space, even though it will be super embarrassing, it’s really appealing to think about reaching a size where i don’t really fit into most standard furniture without my body fat spilling over it, or where i need more than one seat on buses and planes because i’m so big 😵💫😵💫 i also like this combined with my girlfriend, and the idea of them squished against my body in a two seat (or bed, or other furniture) that i’m taking up most of the space of 😵💫😵💫 its also really hot to think about being too big for any rides and the embarrassment of trying to squish into them even when you can just look at me and know it obviously won’t work because i’m drastically too big, anything with size limits is similar actually, especially if it’s that it can’t fit around my body as opposed to just simply weighing too much (though this is appealing too) — another note on this, which isn’t really a limitation but still something i really really want is being so big that my girlfriend can’t wrap their arms around me, and that getting more and more apparent as i get bigger
🌺 additionally, for mobility stuff, honestly most of losing it is super appealing 😵💫😵💫 i was talking today actually about how i’m super weak because i’ve never been active and don’t really want “activity to maintain strength” to be an aspect of my weight gain! I want to feel my body being so weak that it struggles under all the excess weight, and to find movement more difficult even at smaller sizes that could easily have better mobility ☺️☺️ overall though, I love the idea of that “heavy” feeling increasing, and everything requiring a lot of extra effort, I loveelove the idea of noticing how difficult it is to walk around with so much fat on my body, and watching that increase from struggling with long walks, to struggling with short walks, to struggling with every step because the weight of my body is so so heavy that even just lifting my leg with so much fat weighing me down is too difficult 😵💫😵💫and i love the idea of realising that it’s harder and harder to climb stairs, struggling to pull myself up steps and relying on handrails, reaching a point where i need to stopping after a few steps… soso exciting 😵💫😵💫 similarly i love thinking about the day where i’m finally so big that i realize i can’t get off the bed, or my couch, without support, and the shock horror (and desire) of trying and noticing i can’t anymore, even when i try desperately, and notice how completely helpless under my weight i am 😵💫😵💫 and all the dependency that comes after that, i think a lot about the idea of trying to waddle a few steps and having my feeder stood beside me encouraging me and resting a hand against me while i shake and wobble and pant from it all (related, the idea of reaching a point where i’m always panting a little because i just can’t handle all the fat 😵💫😵💫)
🌺 not necessarily a “limitation” but kinda a cause of them developing haha (maybe a mental limitation??)… i also like knowing that with every milestone my ability to reverse my decision is like… slowly diminishing 😵💫😵💫 like… right now i still feel im control but as i get bigger i’ll find it harder to resist the desire to eat more, and get fatter, and eat even more, and get even fatter, and i think the idea of getting completely stuck in this cycle and feeling myself get further and further into an irreversible feedee mindset where i’m almost destined to become a big beautiful blob of a girl 😵💫😵💫 and it will get more and more intense and even now i’m wondering if i could even escape this fate if i tried to, haha
this was really long but it was supperrr enjoyable to think about and answer 💗💗