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most beautiful ptv song ever created

People around me say that I seem better. That I'm more social, happier, and open. I have been trying, I don't want to keep being sad forever so I have been trying to improve. I don't know how I'm doing it but I am. It just feels weird, it seems like I'm getting better but if i were to be getting better then why do I still feel certain ways or think of bad things? Why do I still think about hurting myself, or starving myself, or being impulsive and reckless? If I were to truly be better I feel like I wouldnt think such bad things or miss my bad habits. I do sometimes miss those bad things, maybe because ive done it for so long it comforts me.. I don't know anymore. I hope to be better, I want to be better someday I really do