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I was meandering through a journal entry yesterday. (Meandering is like a mash-up of free writing about a specific subject and stream-of-consciousness writing.) I wrote something that was both new and not new to me but I recognize it as my new norm. I was discussing the efficacy and practice of a mantra for love and worthiness. I have come to the decision it doesn’t matter what I thing/feel/see…

I asked the AI generator to do a picture of me based on my Chinese zodiac and my favorite hobby….this is what I got. It definitely got the amount of yarn right…..

A city made of granny squares…..what a cozy place to live. My phone updated and I found an AI Image generator. I wanted to see what a world made of granny squares would look like. Just thinking about all that yarn just makes me soooooo happy.

Dreams show us how to find meaning in our lives, how to fulfill our own destiny, how to realize the greater potential of life within us.” Marie-Louise Von Franz in The Way of the Dream Early this morning I dreamed a dream where I was trying to explain to someone what it is like when you are drowning in a depressive episode. Even when you know what it is, that it will pass, and you will be okay…

This is my mission statement for 2026: One of my action items to prove to myself I’m thriving was to have quarterly get-your-ass-out-of-the-house things to do. My first one was Between the Lines. A play in Castro Valley, CA which was directed by a coworker at One Medical. It was a sweet story of a girl trying to fit in and the characters in a book who were refusing to let that happen. It was a…

So, I got new insurance after the old insurance took out a pound of flesh from my credit card (thank you congress for not supporting the ACA) and once I finally got things settled I found a doctor and made and appointment for the first available. They ask questions like: Do you have thoughts of harming yourself? Do you think of suicide? Do you feel hopeless? Now because of my honesty, I’ve had…

Foxglove I love foxglove, and not just because its poisonous, it’s beautiful.  I don’t like how the flowers trumpet down and I wanted to see from the other end.  I found it exhilarating.  Sometimes being upside-down is more blessing than trial.

…thy name is anxiety.  I don’t know if I’m in a full-blown crisis yet, but naming your demons is the first step in taming them.

Saturday (April 25) was the celebration for Earth Day (April 22). It was attached to the city’s farmers market. I will admit, it took me a minute to get my courage up to start talking to people. My anxiety has been higher the past few weeks. By higher, I mean thinking about supplementing it with vitamin X with my daily social meds. I didn’t. I just focus my mind on other things and try to…

Today was No Kings III. For a small town (like under 100,000…I think) we had a mighty force of courageous and outraged citizens demonstrating. I worked mostly at the membership table. I know I can talk to people if there is something between me and them….a table, a bar on the chair, even glasses. That’s not saying I like doing it, but I know I can do it if it’s needed. I held a sign for about 30…

The loss of my job in January was bad enough, but it was insult to injury after I got the message from my states ACA program that my insurance premiums were going up by 160%+. It worked out to be what I managed to scrape together and save from refinancing my only tangible asset, changing my insurance and phone coverage. I wasn’t worried. I began to believe the fear mongering by the press about…

We all do it. Someone sends you a cute video of (insert favorite subject here) and then you swipe up to see what’s next and then it’s three in the morning . By then you’re all tangled up in knots because the terrifying truths from your favorite influencers have enraged you and then your gears get stripped by a cockatoo tap dancing along with a Fred Astaire movie. (@jackson_huhniverses) And you…

The universe gave me a response to the last post: Life is not easy for any of us. But what of that? We must have perseverance and above all confidence in ourselves. We must believe we are gifted for something and that this thing must be obtained. Marie Curie

I am struggling and instead of doing something to alleviate it, (writing in my journal, looking for work, exercising, praying) I’m reading excerpts from my writing and crawling into a word outside of what is going on in the world right now. I love fiction because it allows me to write the world the way I want it to be. A world where we protect our children from predators and themselves. For…

Last Saturday, January 31, I actually left my room, stood on a corner, held a sign, and protested. I didn’t get shot, I didn’t get arrested and nothing more than people flipping me off happened. My response to those disapproving souls was to blow them a kiss. My sign read – Stop the devils servants. Justice for Good and Pretti! A little more religious than I would like, but if men can murder…

Learning is the best way to alleviate a lot of fear and dissipate procrastination, It’s just that simple. I attended a meeting and call to action meeting last night. I was worried about filming at protests and obvious human rights violations. It addressed what my first amendment rights are and what they’re not. I can film any police action I want as long as I’m following all directions from the…

These postcards represent my very first action in resisting. All four were sent to my senator, basically asking him if he would like his due process, freedom of speech and so on denied him. My point here is that I did it. It’s not holing a sign singing, chanting and marching, but I did it. I’m a good talker about what’s wrong with the government (no matter who is in the oval office) but I’ve…