Butterflies

I should... change everything of me

forever.

I should be... completely different

starting today.

I should... let my past die.

I should let my personality die.

I was holding on to a fantasy.

I hate myself, so... why don't i just change?

The truth is... i don't really hate me.., i liked who i am, but im always causing trouble this way haha

why do i keep lying to myself?

why would a person leave that way so easy

if they really wanted to stay?

why would they be so cruel?

is like i can understand everyone, at every moment... but when is their turn

they don't do the same for you.

I know i made mistakes, but...

they aren't a big thing in the end.

I'm feeling really down this day...

i know everyone has their insecurities but

i didn't even do something so terrible so

The way a person enters your life

is the same way a person will leave

Those things you ignore at the begining

are the things that will break you in the end

I'm so hopefull of everything

but deeply inside of me i know

a truth that i don't want to face...

Something so fragile can't last...

If you really exist

can you offer me a miracle?

can you make this all right?

can you help me this time again?

can you make my wish come true?

Am i worthy of your love and gifts?

I want to live

besides my own blood

to love me.

Everyone says they do

but they really don't

I feel so alone

My will to live

keeps getting deeper

I can't take it anymore

Why does it always has

to end like this?

Is this really all my fault

or perhaps the truth is

nobody ever loved me