Progress&Venting

100 updates

60 - 4/11/12

It's been 2 months since last update #whoops but my weight has yoyo'd 3 kilos ...or so as we got to, and through getting married ♡♡♡ super happy with where i got in the 2 year effort and despite not losing in the last 2 months my body composition does still seem to shift (tummy skin changes such sitting better) (...and today another non scale victory - i fit in my older smaller corset again!!!) Now that the high stress events are over focusing on finding a routine again ♡

Sw: 127.6kg

Cw: 89.4kg

61 - 16/2/2021 (16months since last update)

2020 = bushfires / stroke in the family / pup passed / pandemic / overwork / doom & depression / psych & moving... After all that I again used food and unhealthy habits to soothe, cope & distract myself. At worst I got back to 107.6kg

Currently:

Sw: 127.6kg

Cw: 103.8kg

(regained 18.2kg - lost 3.8)

So back to Loss: 23.8kg

Fuck that's frustrating

And every morning i wake up and I’ll do the complete opposite

change the color used to highlight text on your laptop

move the pictures on your wall

stack whatever clutter is in your room into piles even if you don’t have time to clean it all

slightly vary your commute, even just by one street

change where you sit and scroll aimlessly on your phone even if it’s only to the chair in your room instead of your bed

drink water or juice out of a wine glass in the morning because nothing is real

shower with the lights off, without music

buy $3 flowers at trader joe’s—they look bad next to the more expensive ones but they look so good in your room

start typing things you don’t post into your notes. your thoughts can be worth documenting even if you don’t deem them worth sharing

wake up super early just once. you don’t have to make it a habit it’s just extra satisfying to go to bed that night

The other day I was feeling miserable, so I hopped on a bus and rode it all the way back to where I’d started, and my brain, which had finally had some proper stimulation via new environments, was suddenly ready to go again!