academia & yearning

last class w/ him ever and he wore my color on his hoodie and shoes ^w^ i’ve never seen him wear it & i wear it a lot so >:)

when my parents were his age, i was 11 😭

hiiiii it’s been a minute. i still have feelings for grant, but that has mostly been overshadowed by my feelings for D aka eddie, one of my best friends. i’m just going to gush about him for a minute. he has compared us to bert & ernie, he bought a poster for his room ‘in my honor’, we hang out for 12-16 hours a week, and we sang two romantic duets together at karaoke. i’m planning to confess to him tonight. we first met in grant’s class a year and a half ago, became close friends last semester in another one of grant’s classes, and he keeps showing up to screenings in my/grant’s class this semester despite not being in the class. the two of us are defo grant’s favorite students (although i will say that eddie has said that i’m the favorite, which is maybe the most romantic thing he could have told me /hj) and honestly i’m like 75% sure grant ships us lmao. eddie knows i have a crush on grant, and he’s very nice about it lmao. anyways i have office hours w/ grant today, grant’s class, and then eddie hangout. wish me luck

was listening to tarot readings to find stuff out about me and D. and this reader started pulling out “teacher with [our age gap] year age gap” and i am floored.

i need this man to either wear the wedding ring all of the time so i can deal or stop wearing it altogether so i can fantasize. stop wearing it on and off. what would your wife think????

thinking about how my email made him laugh.

he blocked off extra time for me, we talked about current events (😭) and television. it was my first time physically in his office, which he was surprised at. i scheduled the office hours right before class, so we walked there together ^w^