|| thirty-something and too old for this shite. call me mud. he/they. just another non-melanated/"white" queer-ical dog thing || ao3 in my pinned post || radfem free zone & if your feminism isn't intersectional and focused on liberating EVERYONE from patriarchy then you're not a real feminist || from the river to the sea π΅πΈ keep your antisemitism as far away from me as possible [still just trying to figure out what I can do with half a bedsheet]
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Additionally, if you're interested in one of my longer fics that is marked Explicit but are not interested in the smut/skipping past the smut portions, let me know! I can provide a non-smut copy of most of them, save for ones that are purely smut-focused.
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also known a farcical excuse for a person, half-creature, half-whatever else. thirties, he/they or they/he, it doesn't matter. queer-ical boydyke thing. vaguely man-shaped, more dog than man; but that's whatever. I'm queer in all ways, but more specific labels include nonbinary, demi/greysexual, demi/greyromantic, bisexual, et cetera. my belovedβ¨οΈis one of the most wonderful people to ever walk this earth and I consider myself the luckiest guy alive to have her in my life. π
this blog is MOSTLY sft/sfw, but I still prefer if you're a minor that you do not interact as a personal preference of mine. you're still welcome to interact with my og sfw content, make sfw fic/gif requests, et cetera, I just will not follow back and am not interested in friendship.
if you have any interest in either tipping me or commissioning something, I would prefer that you do so in the form of a donation to a person or community in need. preferably only someone non-white as despite the fact that there are plenty of white people who are in need, historically it's a lot easier for white folks to garner support and donations. just send me a screencap of your donation receipt with any personal identifying details blocked out, but that includes date and recipient information, as proof if you wish to utilise that for a "commission" from me. I reserve the right to refuse if I disagree morally with the request itself, am uncomfortable with the topic (such as requests that include race play, violence against a marginalised group, et cetera) or find issue with the recipient of the donation (such as donations to white supremacists, hate groups, fascists, or similar). if I will not write the request, you can replace that request with something else.
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I can be really bad at responding to messages/comments/IMs, but know that I love every person who talks to me in whatever format and I'm definitely not intentionally ignoring you unless I found something you said to be rude or offensive in some way. I do delete comments and block pretty liberally - while I have no issue interacting with people with different beliefs and opinions than me, I will not engage with you if I believe it would be bad for my mental health and I will stop engaging with you if you do something to indicate you cannot respect my needs, boundaries, and personal autonomy. I grew up homeschooled and in a cult so I'm kind of a mixed bag of trauma and miscellaneous issues but I'm in therapy and working on dealing with my ptsd.
I don't really believe in DNIs since your business is yours and mine is mine, just know that if you're hateful, cruel, racist, misogynistic, transphobic (transmisogynistic or transandrophobic!), fatphobic, intersexist, ableist, think that whatever marginalised identity you have exempts you from being prejudiced, an asshole, or a bully to other marginalised folks, believe in gender essentialism in any way that doesn't just serve as a facet of a kink, are antisemitic, don't believe in a free Palestine, are any flavour of genocide denier, believe in punishment instead of rehabilitation, believe in censorship or identify as an "anti/antishipper," believe it's ever okay to police queer spaces, or just generally show yourself to have a flawed and shitty perspective of the world around you, and you interact with me or I see you in the wild, I will block you and never think about you again!
If you're a reasonable person with reasonable opinions, then you need not worry about that ever happening. If I've gotten to know you and you express something that causes me concern, I will push back on it and make an effort to open a dialogue on the subject before ever making the choice to cut contact with you over it - and I hope you'll extend me the same grace should I ever express something that deserves to be pushed back on or confronted in some way. as a result of my upbringing (and growing up in a country founded on the principles of white supremacy), my adulthood has included a lot of working through the things I was taught and learning to be better, which is a constant battle that will not be over until I am dead and in the ground.
I only tag spoilers for things I'm actively watching and reblog a lot of things I don't watch that I think are pretty or neat, so I'm not always in the know. elsewise, it's all based on my own made-up categories. hmu if there's anything you'd like to see tagged for filtering. I'm pretty agreeable, I just can't know to tag something if I'm not asked.
not a fully inclusive list but a few things I believe in quite passionately in no particular order:
free and liberated palestine
free and liberated taiwan
open borders/unrestricted immigration
end to all ethnic cleansings
independence for hawai'i
universal healthcare
free education for all
trans rights are human rights
reparations
affordable railway systems across the USA
an end to the for-profit prison industry and an abolishment of the prison industry entirely
full rights and healthcare access without restriction for women, trans, and nonbinary people
legalisation and protections for sex work
legalisation and support systems for drugs and drug users, full and comprehensive care for addiction that focuses on helping instead of punishing those affected
I gif sometimes and I sometimes I write. you can find the latter half of that here: new ao3 and here: old ao3
I take requests. gifs require links and timestamps, fics require a willingness to hash out your desired plot over IM so I can sink my teeth into it.
my "original" content:
if you like eroticism, kink, enjoy filthy writing, and/or just generally want to know what my ass looks like, you can find my nsft blog over at et cetera; and I store the bulk of my D20/Dropout brainrot here at the old lady from the store. if you're over 21 and think you'd like to be friends, feel free to ask for my discord!
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The accusation that trans men transition into "male privilege" fundamentally misunderstands how privilege functions. Privilege isn't a permanent thing it's a social perception granted very conditionally.
A trans man who passes may access some surface-level male privileges (e.g., being taken more seriously in a work meeting, walking down a street with less harassment). However, that privilege is entirely contingent on stealth and passing. The moment his trans status is known via an ID, a medical situation, or a slip, that privilege evaporates and is replaced by a visceral transphobia. Unlike cis men, trans men do not hold systemic, institutional power over trans women. They cannot write anti-trans legislation, control medical boards, or enforce gendered bathroom panics.
Trans women bear the brunt of a violent intersection of transphobia and misogyny that makes them hypervisible, fetishized, and disproportionately targeted for fatal violence.
Trans men, conversely, often face erasure, infantilization, and dismissal.
The conflict arises when trauma gets misattributed. For some trans women, the invisibility trans men experience looks like safety and social acceptance. Resentment builds when they see a trans man moving through the world without the constant, aggressive scrutiny they face. But this conflates passing privilege with cis power, which are entirely different social currencies.
Cis society does not protect trans man as men (because it doesn't truly see them as men more often than not), and the patriarchy does not grant them the immunity that cis men enjoy.
This makes them a socially acceptable target within certain queer circles. For a traumatized trans woman, it is psychologically safer to project their anger onto a marginalized peer who cannot fight back with systemic force, rather than confronting the terrifying, structurally protected cisgender patriarchy.
Tumblr thrives on binary morality and trauma-sharing. Nuance, like saying trans men can hold misogyny but are not structurally oppressive to trans women, is lost in favor of viral, black-and-white accusations. These spaces often flatten intersectionality, forgetting that a trans man also experiences misogyny pre-transition and continues to face gynecological/medical discrimination post-transition.
This infighting is horizontal hostility. When an oppressed group cannot effectively fight the vertical power structure (the cis-hetero-patriarchy), they turn inward and fight each other over crumbs of perceived safety or privilege. The real winners of this infighting are the cis politicians and institutions writing the legislation that harms both trans men and trans women.
The answer isn't to deny the very real, terrifying transmisogyny that trans women face, nor is it to ignore the unique struggles of trans men. The answer is to reject the zero-sum game. Trans men do not gain power by trans women being denied it. Solidarity is not about ranking oppressions. It is about recognizing that a trans woman's hypervisibility and a trans man's erasure are two sides of the same patriarchal coin.
Also while we're all talking about anti-racism, here's a helpful tip:
Performative self-flagellation over being white is not a substitute for doing serious introspection about the ways you have been complicit in or rewarded by a white-supremacist society, nor doing the work to dismantle white supremacy.
A white person chiming in to a conversation about racism to say "I'm sorry for being white" or "white people suck, I say this as a white person" is just a masturbatory way to try to assuage your own feelings of shame without actually doing anything. It doesn't make you look like "one of the good ones." It makes you look like someone who centers your own feelings about it.
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The Republican senatorβs condition still remains unclear weeks after he was hospitalized.
Senator Mitch McConnell was found unconscious before he was rushed to the hospital last month.
Punchbowl News reports that the former Senate majority leader, who is retiring after his current term ends in January, lost consciousness at his Washington, D.C., home at 8:36 a.m. on June 14, before a dispatcher sent over an Advanced Life Support ambulance. Journalist Desiree Townsend posted a recording of the call from the emergency dispatcher Tuesday afternoon to X.
The audio has not been independently verified, and McConnell's office has not commented on it. On that day last month, a spokesperson for the 82-year-old said that McConnell was "receiving excellent care," but didn't elaborate further. On June 22, his office issued a statement saying he was "working closely with staff on Senate business and Kentucky matters as he continues his recovery." And this Tuesday, one of his staff members said that he was recovering and working with staff.
But his office has not said anything about his condition or prognosis, nor if he is still in the hospital. Senate Majority Leader John Thune said June 15 that McConnell "is clearly dialed in to what's going on. He's following along with stuff we are doing this week up here. Very much so."
Is that still the case? This is the second time McConnell has been hospitalized this year, having spent eight days in the hospital for flu-like symptoms in February. And in the past three years, McConnell's health has severely deteriorated.
In March 2023, McConnell fell at a dinner event at Washington's Waldorf Astoria hotel and fractured his rib while suffering a concussion. He suffered another fall in July, and in public appearances that year, froze mid-sentence twice, dissociating for 20 to 30 seconds each time. The attending physician at the Capitol later declared that McConnell hadn't suffered from a seizure, stroke, or movement disorder, and was likely dehydrated or experiencing the aftereffects of his concussion.
In December 2024, McConnell would fall again at a Senate Republican lunch, spraining his wrist and cutting his face. He also tripped and fell in a Senate building October 2025 while walking with an aide's help as a reporter asked him questions.
McConnell seems determined to stay in his Senate seat until the very end, refusing to step aside early because of his health. Six more months might be too much for the former Senate leader, and his refusal to step down has drawn the ire of his Republican colleagues and critics of gerontocracy.
I have answered a few asks about TADC because I know how important transfem Jax has been to a lot of people, and I donβt want to take that away from anyone, but I am very critical of the use of the song βIsnβt She Lovely?β being reclaimed as a coming out scene, when the original song was written by a Black man about the birth of his Black daughter. Keeping in mind the racism from some of the voice actors, and the lukewarm apology from the creator, it is very insidious to me to take a Black-specific song and reclaim it as something else. It very much feels like βtaking Black art without caring about the bodies that made it.β
Obviously, this has already been pointed out by Black people in the fandom, but I wanted to bring it up because Iβve had a few asks about that song specifically that Iβm not comfortable with answering. I am extremely happy that Jax is canonically transfem because even though Iβve never watched the show, Iβve witnessed peopleβs excitement about it, and Iβm not trying to rain on anyoneβs parade, but Iβm also not going to pretend like the racism doesnβt exist because thatβs not the kind of blog Iβm running here. Any other song couldβve been used, and perhaps there wasnβt much thought put into its choice; Iβm sure it wasnβt a deliberate act of malice, because from an outsider perspective that song seems to fit perfectly, but that ultimately doesnβt make it any less harmful, especially given the context surrounding the production.
I feel similarly about how United In Grief by Kendrick Lamar became a popular TikTok sound for people to make funny jokes about something going wrong when the original lyrics are specifically about Black grief. Or about the new trend of βthe saxaphones are getting louderβ taken from Boyz N The Hood, which is a movie about Black-American experiences that a lot of (white) people using this sound likely havenβt even seen.
Iβm not saying itβs inherently bad to use these songs in different contexts, but itβs a pattern that keeps repeating of Black-specific art being taken by white people without the original context in mind and being used for their own experiences instead. Itβs important to at least notice this pattern.
#and franklyβ¦ #the fact that it wasnβt an intentionally malice decision IS racism in itself #because even though the song is by a Black singer his thoughts and emotions he put into the lyrics were not taken into consideration #people donβt *usually* just write music just to write it. music is emotionally charged. hence using music in such a big scene #β¦ but they DID NOT CONSIDER him or his daughter because they are Black
Prev tags, youβre right and this is also extremely important to bring up
people hating on maya, because she doesn't immediately trust the millionaire vampires who've killed/been responsible for the death of several people within the town??? what are we even doing here guys? did we forget that the coterie were initially sent to purpee as a punishment, and were tasked with taking over the town? how 2 of the members were exploring options outside of purpee, while claiming that they wanted to make purpee the new rome?
of-fucking-course she's going to be suspicious of them! this is the town she loves, and she doesn't want to take down the old guard, just to replace them with a new batch of rich vampires. she cares so much for the people of purpee, and building community, and she's absolutely in the right for questioning the motives of these new people, who are buying up equity in a lot of the towns amenities. and asking hj to invest his money into the credit union-you guys understand that she doesn't get that money right? she's asking them to actually put down roots in purpee, and to show her they're here to stay, in exchange for her help and cooperation.
and to the people calling her certain names, please check your language when talking about this brown lesbian, because some of y'all are falling ass backwards into some pretty gross bigotry.
one hour into the newest ccod ep and i really hate maya so much. she's so self-righteous and pretentious, with this fucking stupid savior complex that just because she HAPPENS to have magical powers as a witch she can strong arm everyone around her. like yeah i understand where she's coming from but that understanding isn't an excuse for her to be a fucking asshole. she straight up DEMANDED money from HJ and then acted like HE was wrong for hesitating. are you fucking kidding me
1 - You seem to not know much about Credit Unions (a lot of people don't!) because this was a highly, deeply, respectful, reasonable ask to make. So here's a little information to educate you on the basics of how these things work:
When youβre managing your money, do you feel comfortable being just another number at a big bank? Or...
When you decide to manage your money at a credit union, you arenβt just a customer; you join the credit union and become a member. A board of directors made up of volunteers manages the credit union.
Credit unions offer many of the same benefits and products as banks, but because theyβre owned by members, a credit union may provide greater access to personal services and community interaction. Also, many credit unions offer lower interest rates on consumer loans and sometimes higher deposit yields (although some online-only banks might offer higher savings yields).
Learn about the key differences between credit unions and banks; including how they handle membership and reinvestment of profits.
The primary difference between banks and credit unions lies in ownership, governance, and financial incentives. Banks are forβprofit institutions owned by shareholders, while credit unions are memberβowned, notβforβprofit financial cooperatives.
Banks are typically owned by private investors or public shareholders. Strategic decisionsβeverything from pricing to product developmentβare evaluated through the lens of profitability and shareholder value. Credit unions, by contrast, are owned collectively by their members. Each member has a vote in electing the board of directors, regardless of how much money they have on deposit.
News and information about, and offered by Bay Federal Credit Union.
The board of directors at a credit union is responsible for overseeing the credit unionβs operations, making strategic decisions, and ensuring financial stability.
A Credit Union is owned and operated by its members which means that it is run by people who have financial stake in its success for everyone with money in the CU. If a millionaire takes a role of responsibility for running a Credit Union, their money needs to be invested in it else all they're doing is making decisions for other people's money and not ones that impact their one. Kind of a big no, in addition to being contrary to how the whole concept works.
2 - It is extremely interesting of you to call a very Brown, very Indian American woman:
"so self-righteous and pretentious, with this fucking stupid savior complex that just because she HAPPENS to have magical powers as a witch she can strong arm everyone around her. like yeah i understand where she's coming from but that understanding isn't an excuse for her to be a fucking asshole."
While saying about her white partner in your tags:
"amelia on the other hand love her to bits"
Obviously I do not know you as a person and your blog only has your pronouns so I don't know your skin colour or your background and how much of this is internalised about people like you or how much of it is externalised about people not like you, but your post bleeds with misogyny and racism.
I am begging you to do some thinking about why you would have that kind of response to a person of colour who is magically in the know enough to know how dangerous vampires are, works at the gosh darn food co-op in her town, and is dedicated to protecting her community as much as she can from both supernatural and mundane forces, would insist on the rich vampires who have shown up and are sinking their fingers into her town prove that they're actually invested in the community and aren't just going to screw everyone she cares about over.
HJ wasn't in the wrong for hesitating, he has a lot he's going through and he's deciding what he wants - it was reasonable for him to hesitate. And it was just as reasonable for Maya to be spooked by his hesitation and take his flippancy as a sign of him not being trustworthy about the matter.
Calling Maya a "fucking asshole... with a fucking stupid savior complex because she HAPPENS to have magical powers as a witch" for...not trusting the rich, magically dangerous interlopers from a big city - who she has consistently done her best to compromise with and meet with an assumption of positive intent - says a whole lot about how you view not just women/women with darker skin, but ones who have the audacity to not just smile and cave to a white man main character in a story.
Even if you end up blocking me for calling you out like this, I am begging you to do some internal work thinking about why you would consider your post a reasonable thing to say about a Brown female character and what that says about your internalised, unconscious biases and how you see women and Brown people who dare to have agency in situations with white men. You don't have to acknowledge it to me, I don't need that - I just really hope that you do it anyway because there are people in this fandom who deserve better.
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