|| thirty-something and too old for this shite. call me mud. he/they. just another non-melanated/"white" queer-ical dog thing || ao3 in my pinned post || radfem free zone & if your feminism isn't intersectional and focused on liberating EVERYONE from patriarchy then you're not a real feminist || from the river to the sea đľđ¸ keep your antisemitism as far away from me as possible [still just trying to figure out what I can do with half a bedsheet]
I have archive locked my fics as of 04/30/2025 as a result of AI scraping. If you want access to one and don't have an ao3 account, feel free to message/IM me and I'll be happy to provide. If this is frustrating or inconvenient, I'm sorry đ please know it frustrates me greatly as well.
Additionally, if you're interested in one of my longer fics that is marked Explicit but are not interested in the smut/skipping past the smut portions, let me know! I can provide a non-smut copy of most of them, save for ones that are purely smut-focused.
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also known a farcical excuse for a person, half-creature, half-whatever else. thirties, he/they or they/he, it doesn't matter. queer-ical boydyke thing. vaguely man-shaped, more dog than man; but that's whatever. I'm queer in all ways, but more specific labels include nonbinary, demi/greysexual, demi/greyromantic, bisexual, et cetera. my belovedâ¨ď¸is one of the most wonderful people to ever walk this earth and I consider myself the luckiest guy alive to have her in my life. đ
this blog is MOSTLY sft/sfw, but I still prefer if you're a minor that you do not interact as a personal preference of mine. you're still welcome to interact with my og sfw content, make sfw fic/gif requests, et cetera, I just will not follow back and am not interested in friendship.
if you have any interest in either tipping me or commissioning something, I would prefer that you do so in the form of a donation to a person or community in need. preferably only someone non-white as despite the fact that there are plenty of white people who are in need, historically it's a lot easier for white folks to garner support and donations. just send me a screencap of your donation receipt with any personal identifying details blocked out, but that includes date and recipient information, as proof if you wish to utilise that for a "commission" from me. I reserve the right to refuse if I disagree morally with the request itself, am uncomfortable with the topic (such as requests that include race play, violence against a marginalised group, et cetera) or find issue with the recipient of the donation (such as donations to white supremacists, hate groups, fascists, or similar). if I will not write the request, you can replace that request with something else.
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I can be really bad at responding to messages/comments/IMs, but know that I love every person who talks to me in whatever format and I'm definitely not intentionally ignoring you unless I found something you said to be rude or offensive in some way. I do delete comments and block pretty liberally - while I have no issue interacting with people with different beliefs and opinions than me, I will not engage with you if I believe it would be bad for my mental health and I will stop engaging with you if you do something to indicate you cannot respect my needs, boundaries, and personal autonomy. I grew up homeschooled and in a cult so I'm kind of a mixed bag of trauma and miscellaneous issues but I'm in therapy and working on dealing with my ptsd.
I don't really believe in DNIs since your business is yours and mine is mine, just know that if you're hateful, cruel, racist, misogynistic, transphobic (transmisogynistic or transandrophobic!), fatphobic, intersexist, ableist, think that whatever marginalised identity you have exempts you from being prejudiced, an asshole, or a bully to other marginalised folks, believe in gender essentialism in any way that doesn't just serve as a facet of a kink, are antisemitic, don't believe in a free Palestine, are any flavour of genocide denier, believe in punishment instead of rehabilitation, believe in censorship or identify as an "anti/antishipper," believe it's ever okay to police queer spaces, or just generally show yourself to have a flawed and shitty perspective of the world around you, and you interact with me or I see you in the wild, I will block you and never think about you again!
If you're a reasonable person with reasonable opinions, then you need not worry about that ever happening. If I've gotten to know you and you express something that causes me concern, I will push back on it and make an effort to open a dialogue on the subject before ever making the choice to cut contact with you over it - and I hope you'll extend me the same grace should I ever express something that deserves to be pushed back on or confronted in some way. as a result of my upbringing (and growing up in a country founded on the principles of white supremacy), my adulthood has included a lot of working through the things I was taught and learning to be better, which is a constant battle that will not be over until I am dead and in the ground.
I only tag spoilers for things I'm actively watching and reblog a lot of things I don't watch that I think are pretty or neat, so I'm not always in the know. elsewise, it's all based on my own made-up categories. hmu if there's anything you'd like to see tagged for filtering. I'm pretty agreeable, I just can't know to tag something if I'm not asked.
not a fully inclusive list but a few things I believe in quite passionately in no particular order:
free and liberated palestine
free and liberated taiwan
open borders/unrestricted immigration
end to all ethnic cleansings
independence for hawai'i
universal healthcare
free education for all
trans rights are human rights
reparations
affordable railway systems across the USA
an end to the for-profit prison industry and an abolishment of the prison industry entirely
full rights and healthcare access without restriction for women, trans, and nonbinary people
legalisation and protections for sex work
legalisation and support systems for drugs and drug users, full and comprehensive care for addiction that focuses on helping instead of punishing those affected
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I take requests. gifs require links and timestamps, fics require a willingness to hash out your desired plot over IM so I can sink my teeth into it.
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if you like eroticism, kink, enjoy filthy writing, and/or just generally want to know what my ass looks like, you can find my nsft blog over at et cetera; and I store the bulk of my D20/Dropout brainrot here at the old lady from the store. if you're over 21 and think you'd like to be friends, feel free to ask for my discord!
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My woke take, as someone who has worked in both a public library and a school library, is that we desperately need both more books that are at a higher reading level but a less mature subject matter, and more books that are at a lower reading level but a more mature subject matter, because 8 year olds who are advanced readers are still 8 year olds and don't want to read about graphic violence and torture, and teens and adults who have learning difficulties or who are just later readers for whatever reason are still teens and adults and don't want to read about Billy the Bunny going to school or whatever the hell.
On the topic of fetish gear in public I think it is very telling when parents who are against it say "well how am I supposed to explain it to my kids??" Because it shows they aren't actually concerned about any psychological effects it will have on their kids (probably because they know seeing a guy in a pup mask will not lead to any negative psychological effects on any child because that's dumb), what they are concerned about is THEMSELVES. How am *I* going to explain that to my child (if they even ask). THEY don't want to have to have uncomfortable conversations with their kids, and they think it should be other people's responsibility to make sure they won't have to. But that's stupid! Uncomfortable conversations are part of parenting. And if you really don't want to explain it to your kid just lie. Say "oh they're just dressing up for fun honey". That isn't actually really a lie anyways. "But what if they keep asking???" I don't know man you're the parent! Figuring out what to say is your job! What do you do any other time your kid keeps asking questions you don't know the answer to/don't want to answer? Do what you do then. Either way not anyone else's responsibility
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I post a lot about how fat people deserve to feel sexy and are hot, which is true, but I do also want to remind everyone that fat people should also be able to exist and be respected without being sexualised or you being attracted to them. You should respect people and treat them normally regardless of how attracted to them you are. If your activism centres purely around how much you can sexualise a marginalised group, your activism is shit, sorry
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OceanGate, the deep-sea exploration company that created the Titan submersible, has removed its Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, and LinkedIn a
poor things, well we should definitely make this easier on them by never repeatedly mentioning their name and deeds on the "reblog things forever" website
#Sorry but I have no sympathy for that fight#let the dead languages be dead#grumping#controversial opinions#because people always get annoyed with me when I say this#but Gaelic (for example) shouldnât still exist
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Gaelic hasnt been lost. Itâs never died or been brought back. Thereâs an unbroken line of native speakers going back to the beginning of the language. That doesnât seem like a âlostâ language to me. Furthermore Iâm not sure what âartificial life-supportâ means in this context. Gaelic is given funding for schools because thereâs still native speakers of the language. Itâs no more artificial than money being given to schools for English language lessons.
If anything is âartificialâ its the imposition of a foreign language (English) into a Gaelic majority zone and native speakers having to fight for decades to be able to be taught in their own language. Native speakers being forced to learn English to exist within their own regions because a central government would not allow services to be given in a peopleâs own language.
But then the clock only goes back so far with people who wish that minority languages would just die. Thereâs nothing artificial about shooting someone but suddenly it becomes an âartificialâ act to maybe phone an ambulance?
âThereâs nothing artificial about shooting someone but suddenly it becomes an âartificialâ act to maybe phone an ambulance?â â THIS RIGHT HERE
In the UK, the languages Gaelige, Gaelic, Cymraeg and Kernewek (thatâs Irish, Scottish, Welsh and Cornish respectively) didnât just âdie out.â There was a concerted effort by the English to kill them off.Â
For example, in Wales, if a child was heard speaking Welsh in a classroom, theyâd be given a âWelsh Notâ, a wooden plaque engraved with âWNâ to hang around their neck. Theyâd pass it onto the next child heard speaking Welsh, and whoever had the Welsh Not at the end of the day was punished - usually with a beating.Â
Kernewek was revived after a long hard struggle by the Cornish folk, and is now being taught again, but a lot about it has been lost because everyone who grew up speaking it has died.
And languages are never revived âjust because.â The language of a place can offer so much insight into its history, so if youâre content to let a language die then youâre content to let history die.
People talk about âdeadâ languages as if they dwindle away gradually, naturally coming to an end and evolving into something else, but thatâs rarely the case. Languages like Cymraeg and Gaelige and especially Kernewek didnât have the chance to die with dignity, they were literally beaten out of my parents and grandparents.Â
Is it any wonder every other country hate the English? We invade their country, steal their history, claim pieces of their history as ours or flat out re-write it, and kill every part of their culture that we can.Â
Itâs a miracle that any of the Celtic languages survived, so even if you donât see the point in keeping them alive, the actual natives of each country weâve fucked over are clinging onto what heritage they have left through the only thing they can: their language.Â
Thatâs really funny to me because in my high school breton class (the celtic language of Britanny, France), I remember going to a local retirement home to translate a classmateâs deceased grandmaâs recipe because breton has been so destroyed by the french government in the last century that some of the words she wrote werenât in any published dictionaries. So the only way for this kid to get the recipe his grandma used to bake for him growing up was to go to the last generation of people who spoke breton.
I also remember a guy whose tiktok was dedicated to showing indian recipes that were slowly being lost because of english and other dominant languages drowning out the language of the culture that made them.
And I remember in my breton class learning about AAVE through US rap, and about how shaming the use of a language or dialect as wrong and/or stupider is also about shaming a culture out of existence; and then I learned about how killing breton was as much about closing schools and forcing administration to be done in french as it was about shaming people who spoke it. There is a well known 1900s school poster with a rule on it that goes âno spitting on the floor and no speaking bretonâ, and the punishment for either was a whack on the tips of the fingers with a wooden ruler. Breton was called the language of pigs and geese. Thereâs still insulting words existing in french language that were about bretons, like plouc (a rural and stupid person) or baragouiner (to speak unintelligibly). And then I remember learning about the colonisation of Africa by France and the methods that were used to smother the languages there too.
A language dying is a normal part of life: it usually evolves into something else, like latin giving us a bunch of languages, and historians can reverse engineer it through those languages. A language being killed means nothing of the sort gets left behind. It means meeting an 80yo grandma with alzheimer who cries to a 14yo me because sheâs ashamed of remembering a word in her âdirtyâ mother tongue but not in french. It means learning about the almost century where a language that still has alive native speakers has stagnated so badly that in the early 2010s it still didnât have a word for computer. Itâs learning about how historians were touring retirements homes in hopes that someone there could help them translate documents dating WWI, because the main form of language conservation for breton in the 20th century was oral transmission.
Language is about more than just words. Itâs stories, tales, songs, music, dances, food, traditions, history, community and identity. It frames the way you relate to the world and the way you think. It shapes a culture and remembers it the way it was, not just the way onlookers saw it. Its decline is as important as its evolution, and it cannot be boiled down to âbut english is more useful anywayâ.
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being black in any art community is such a strange feeling cause youâll see just blatant racism being expressed in others art and you have to just casually ignore it, for your sake if anything, colorism being something thatâs just fundamentally there in every artist and you deal with it cause itâs not worth it in the end to even think of it too hard let alone even mentioning it, itâs definitely something
Hello nonblack reader of this post, I think you ought to share this one so that you and your peers can actively remind yourselves 1) of how your Black peers feel when you tolerate antiblack racism in your art spaces for entertainment and 2) that we notice it, but don't believe it is secure around enough of you to bring it up đđž
