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um how do i get skinny by tomorrow

do you ever sabotage your own free time? like wtf is that about? i want to play this game or read or do something specific but instead i will just stare out the window or scroll mindlessly???

The truth is yeah I will “recover”, I will gain weight and not be at risk of dying anymore. But I will never look at food the same way. Bc the truth is I don’t know who I’m without my ed. i don’t know how to eat food without counting the calories, I don’t know how to live without counting calories. And the sad thing is I don’t need to anymore I have them all memorised and I can’t look at a peace of food without adding the calories in my head. I will never truly recover

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