Bulletproof

They say the window seat is for the people who still haven't lost their sense of wander.

Far too often, we get lost in our world of productivity - hustling wherever we can: in office desks, cabs, and planes.

We ask - "How can I be more efficient? How can I optimize? How can I buy myself more time for the personal things that matter?" Absolutely nothing wrong with this.

However, that night was different. I sat there, sleepily looking outside my window. I realized that I have never really stopped to marvel as darkness consumed the night sky and stars began to manifest their beauty.

Finally at the point of my life where I can admit the things that I like or hate without wondering whether or not they would make me look uncool. I guess that's what aging does to you. The past twenty years has taught me so much and I now have a huge appetite for everything that the real world has to offer--pain, joy, success, failure, adventure, fun, and maybe even love. To be quite honest, I'm scared more than ever. But the mission of changing the world in my own way is just too good to pass up.

I decided to leave this blog. Not because of some dramatic turn or odd coming-of-age twist. This blog is not safe anymore. Four years ago, I intended this blog to be some kind of stress reliever as well as a private journal where I could spill my thoughts and sentiments. Feelings that I wouldn't normally share to other people. Words meant for reading but unspeakable in day-to-day conversations. All I wanted was a space to store precious memories, a website not too mainstream and exposed like Facebook. Tumblr was perfect. These days, this blog isn't so private anymore. It was never my intention for it to be "out there" in the public despite blogs being considered public domain. I understand that I should have anticipated this and I take all the responsibility for this foolishness.

I'm trying to start a new life this year. You know what? Despite the fact that I am a horrible writer, my imagination never really died. Neither did my dreams.

A new space, a new private blog. I'm excited where my passion will take me this year.