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I think I’ve eaten my weight in sweets this holiday.

...call me crazy but I don't think that's physically possible.

I’ll be twenty-two in February. That’s not too long is it? Or is it? I have no clue actually. I’m sure it will be. You have to have faith. Or at least be willing to settle down before it is. Though I hate that term. It is like saying you can’t do cool things when you are married and a mom. Which I don’t believe. You can adopt. Adoption is beautiful.

Oh, huh so we've got about...four or five years between us? I'm terrible at math but I think it's one of the two. I'll try to, honestly I'm a big romantic I think it kinda comes with the whole writer territory but I'm not a likeable person. And I get off on the wrong foot with guys for the most part, but I don't regret it because it's usually just because all the ones I meet are dicks or boring as hell. I agree, settling down it's like? I know it's supposed to be a happy ending but it's really just a way for people to tell you what you can or can't do. I  guess, but I don't feel like I want to adopt without a partner, single parents are brilliant but I'm not cool or mature enough to ever handle kids by myself.

That’s so true. Either people idealize it to no end or they demonize everything. And there’s definitely things about both sides that are true, but they’re both huge extremes. Obviously it’s a good thing to be ready for for the worst, but that also applies to any field someone may go into. There’s benefits and there’s disadvantages with everything in the world, and that’s what people have to be aware of and ready for. But I think that if you’re enjoying yourself then that’s a huge importance to any kind of career here. A lot of people aren’t going to be “successful” in the sense that they become a household name, but as long as you’re doing something you love, it doesn’t matter if you become a huge celebrity. That doesn’t necessarily equate success— there’s how many one-hit wonders out there that are trying to coast off of a single success that didn’t last? That’s a really good point, I mean if you can make someone laugh you’ve got at least a small in with them, which is a plus. You would give the Avengers a run for their money, “The Human Disaster” would sell so many comics, shows, and movies. It’ll be simultaneously the biggest success as well as the biggest catastrophe the world has ever seen.

Yeah I definitely agree, I think there's so many different definitions for success even within capitalism that everyone who thinks otherwise is doing themselves a disservice. It's not just about titles, cars, and networths. That said the film industry kind of is about what you've got in your pocket and if you knowing how to drive a car is all that relevant because chauffeurs and all that. It's such a tragedy that people aren't allowed to pursue what we care about but I think some of that could be fixed simply by a change of attitude. And while I'm one to talk I think it makes sense. Nobody's going to enjoy busing tables if they're being paid too little and given no respect, that's ridiculous. People crave jobs that don't feel like work, either because we like what we're doing or we're CEOs who don't have to work because our work does itself for us. People are a lot more humble everywhere else, and by humble I mean they see where they are in life and they learn to make something of it. And I know I'm not one of those people who can do that, not by a long shot. Thanks, the Human Disaster isn't a threat that can be neutralized it's all go big or go home and it ain't going home. Especially not without picking up my pay check.

I’m giving myself within ten years to have a child. I think that’s fairly reasonable. It gives me time to get my career on track, settle down and get married. Because I agree with you that I want to be married before having a child.

Oh ten years? If you don't mind me asking how old are you? I've sort of come to the conclusion that my career will never be on track and I'll probably never get married, so eh children might be out of the question. Or I can like adopt one last minute, I guess?

Oh, you're out of work? That's horrible. I've got er, connections, so if you ever want to like...I dunno use them I'd be okay with that.

I’ve never heard of either of those things, if I’m being completely and totally honest… But, I’ll definitely look into them! Thanks for the help.

Yeah definitely do that. I was-- am a big follower of astrology, like I know it's not real but it's spot on. The universe is full of little mysteries. You're welcome, I'm glad I'm useful half the time.

Oh definitely. The first as in your first suggestion.

Yeah good point you're way younger than me and I haven't considered kids at all. That isn't to say that I'm not impressed by people younger than me with kids, there's certainly a fertility gap that people seem to be forgetting about but. Eh, I think I'd want to be married when having a kid just for the sake of the financial and maybe emotional side of it.

I don’t think I could survive without coffee, even though I’m not a huge fan of the taste. Refreshing; I find it refreshing.

Oh refreshing, huh, I can't say I've heard coffee described that way before. Not that that's a bad thing. But yeah, your job certainly sounds high stress.

Yeah she’s a month old. Give or take a day. I’m hoping it’s the first though…you never know. Plus it’s a natural form of birth control…not that I need it. I mean, I do. I mean…wow shutting up now.

Oh whoa, she must be tiny still. The first as in?

When it comes to coffee I’m a stress drinker. Haven’t had any for a couple hours, though, so I think I’ll be good. I’ll crash whenever I do - I’ve got tomorrow off, anyway.

Oh, huh. I don't actually drink any coffee, I guess mostly because of the taste. I figured I'd grow into it but nope, never did. My teeth probably thank me. Ah, okay that makes sense.

I honestly don’t even know. I think all the coffee still has me on hyper drive.

Coffee is the exact opposite of what you need right now yeesh. Maybe you should just try and sleep it off, eventually the caffeine's gonna get less potent and you can either crash in bed or crash on the ground.

..what?

I mean like... hear me out here but. Fences they like keep things out right, but they also protect people on the outside from seeing things. Also I find the whole shirtless dude thing annoying. It's like who gave you the right?

Well, I hope it all works out in your favor. There’s actually plenty jobs out there for us engineers, I guess I’m just rather picky about what it is I want to do.

Thanks. I never realized you could afford to be picky in the first place, I mean being an engineering major seems to lend itself to, well, engineering. That said being able to be picky isn't a bad thing, it usually means you're in a good place.

And astrology should lead me to what I’m destined to do with my life, then? 

Yeah, definitely. Just do your natal chart first and make sure to include your specifics, then do your draconic.

Bought my plane tickets. Leaving for Michigan on the third and will be back on the seventh. I’m very excited to go see my brother, his wife and their new baby.

Oh, huh new baby huh? That'll either be really fun and insightful or a nightmare. Cause y'know, babies.

That’s the last time I’m doing a 24 hour shift for a long time.

That sounds like hell, how are you even still awake?