Princess Limia

I don’t need food to make life better.

Having an eating disorder and failing at having said disorder. Having the same cycle every few weeks. Not losing weight, but still obsessing over eating less and constantly counting calories. Losing a little bit of weight, then realising you can’t do this for the rest of your life because you feel like absolute shit, mentally and physically, and you realise you have a healthy weight. Then deciding to pig out and hate yourself for it. Then eating normal again. Aaaand a few weeks later you start over..

…all boys with an eating disorder.

…all black people with an eating disorder.

…all adults with an eating disorder.

…all overweight/normal weight people with an eating disorder.

all

ALL

all

-you are 16-19 years old

-you struggle with binging

-your sw was at least 130+ lbs

If you’ve already seen this recipe on MPA, it’s because I posted it there a while back. Anyway, here it is:

Ingredients

20g all-purpose flour (72.8)

10g cocoa powder (22.8)

2 egg whites (34)

40g allulose (14)*

Total Calories: 143.6kcal

*You can, of course, use zero-calorie sweetener if you’d like. The resulting cake will be 129.6kcal.

Instructions

Beat the egg whites to soft peaks and add in the allulose in 2-3 stages, mixing well between each addition. Continue to beat to form stiff peaks.

Fold in the flour and cocoa powder, being careful not to knock out too much air from the meringue.

Put the batter into a cake tin, flatten out the surface (or don’t and get an ugly cake), and bake in a preheated, 170˚C oven for 20 minutes.

Turn off the oven but leave the cake in there for 10 more minutes.

No. It’s being taught from a young age good eating habits and having a keen awareness of your body signals. Very rarely are people truly naturally skinny and can eat all they want and never gain weight.

Skinny people listen to their bodies.

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I had a really tiny friend, 5’0 and 95 pounds. She never dieted, just naturally skinny. That’s what I thought.

But one day I slept over at her house and in the morning we had oatmeal. We each made a single serving pack. She commented on how much it was. She couldn’t even finish a single serving. She stopped eating when she felt full which was half of it. Then she composted the other half.

That’s when I realized that ‘naturally skinny’, doesn’t really exist. To be tiny, you eat tiny. Skinny people just eat small without realizing it. You could say it’s skinny habits.

And if they eat a lot and stuff themselves, they almost naturally make up for it. Like if they eat way too much hanging out with friends, when they go home, they will barely eat for a day cuz they just aren’t hungry.

——— more examples from observing skinny friends at sleepovers or hangouts———

- friend only ate half her bowl of noodles and composted other half, didn’t even think twice. Then only ate a handful of popcorn while we watched movies.

- friend had a large meal and felt totally stuffed. Did not eat a single other thing for the rest of the night, or the next morning.

- a friend ate dinner before coming to a party and was full, he only ate a single sliver of cake at the party. Even though there was chips, fruit, candy.. etc. He didn’t even think about more food cuz he was already full.

- got boba with friend and took her so long to finish. She wasn’t trying to savor it or anything, she just eats slow.