They are particularly beautiful this time around and I feel like there are just so many reasons for it. It’s definitely growth, prioritization, maybe for those who believe in it it’s their Saturn return, but it feels like they’ve been through a journey we’ve seen so little of for now.
They have always been close, they have always shown affection on stage, behind the scenes too. We could argue they were even CLOSER on other occasions and eras in terms of ear sucking and crotch situations. But still, it’s not a matter of comparisons, or physical proximity, or mere touching. It’s just…I hate to say it but it’s THE VIBE.
Specifically last night. I don’t know what it is and was. I can’t fully grasp on it yet. It’s just love on love on love and honestly thank GOD we’re a community cuz I struggle so bad with verbalizing it all and you still get me. When they sit close, when they sing lyrics to each other… it’s different.
It’s the perseverance, the fact that what they’ve been through did not put them down. That with the ease, lightness of a kid, Jungkook chooses to change his pre-established position next to RM to sit next to Jimin, knowing how wrong it is that they have, at times, to be separated, but fighting that injustice with such maturity, with such ingenuity. It’s just the way they constantly navigate their circumstance which is not always favorable and very often hostile and homophobic.
Jimin glows in a way that says EVERYTHING about how comfortable he’s getting in his skin, how far he’s trying to reach his goal of happiness and peace of mind. I think we all see it. He’s finally trying to break free from so many schemes and I think the deal breaker for his old patterns was definitely the military. Just like it was for him and Jungkook. Something happened in those trenches and between the end of it and the beginning of their life outside, that ignited all this in their souls. And this is the beginning of all the beautiful things that come with it.
And maybe I’ll be misunderstood for this, but I think part of that “beautiful” is also the struggle, the crashing on the rocks and coming back over and over like a wave - to mention your gif LOL - like Jungkook showed in his live before the comeback. We could argue on what he was holding back and what he was trying to say, but honestly he didn’t say it so I don’t know. And don’t wanna know until he says it.
But I was focused on the “I’m dumb”, “I can’t speak as good as Namjoon”, “I shouldn’t have done any of this”. He was being so judgmental and harsh towards himself during that live, which is something that people ignored for the sake of knowing whether he was trying to come out, announce a relationship, or go solo. He was being vulnerable and offensive towards his emotional state because PEOPLE made him feel like he shouldn’t be human online.
And then, when he went live again after the comeback, he apologized to the ARMYS that might have been hit by his behaviour, NOT for the behaviour itself. HE HIMSELF SAID he had nothing to apologize about. You see the wave I’m talking about? The struggle, the back and forth? The “I’m stupid for saying this”, followed by “I don’t think I did anything wrong”. “I’m gonna live my life the way I want”. That’s all part of the healing process. And it might look and feel chaotic but in the end it’s what we all go through.
And I wish both Jimin and Jungkook to get there fully, to really achieve that new state they’re looking for, because they have all - and everyone - they need to get there. And I’m sure that once they’ll reach it, everything around will be forced to adjust consequently. Their industry won’t be able to bend this love for long.
Sorry Slaav for literally ATTACKING your post with this long ass reblog WHAT THE HELL DID I SAY?. I guess you inspired my thoughts lol.