princess hard femme

Half the time I feel like I’m going crazy or just regressing to who knows what. I feel like I can’t even talk to people anymore, everyone irritates the fuck out of me and idk if it’s because I’m spoiled by my hubs or I’m just changing as a whole. Fucking hell, I wish I was “normal” or whatever the fuck that means. The other time I’m just trying to not get triggered or have flashbacks from my goddamn trauma. I hate it so much. I wish I could fkn erase that shit from my head. I hate that it affects almost every aspect of my life. I hope and I think I’m doing better than what I went through and I refuse to be a victim ever again. Maybe that’s why I think I go crazy. It’s like half loving half protecting myself. It’s like I’m constantly fighting myself. I need goodamn peace in my head please.