A little bit of everything.

All the flaws I hold like fish in fishbowls

And how my fears dictate my behavior by tricking logic into the equation

And how I have only found love in sacrifice and pain and begging

And how without being useful to someone

I fear no one will ever stay

And the most interesting part of it all is

I have only found this deep truth about myself

Because I wanted to be better for you

Maybe that’s what a healthy relationship requires

Growth, to show up in the way that someone deserves

And growth to show up for yourself

In that very same way

and the weather of this world-

take the sharp wind in my chest

before it ever finds your skin.

I would be the quiet shore

your storms run out of strength against,

the place where waves come undone and forget their fury.

If the dark came looking,

I’d scatter light like embers in its path,

teach the night to hesitate,

to soften before it reached you.

You would not have to armor yourself here.

You would not have to brace.

I would learn the language of every hurt

i want to feel lost unable to find a way through

She swears she’s fine, but she’s losing the fight, ’cause he’s out of her reach and wrecking her nights. She touches her pulse like he left it designed, and every breath drags him back into her mind.

She walks through the city hoping he’ll appear, every footstep a prayer he might draw near. A streetlight hums softly, almost like a plea, “You still want me, don’t you?” he says in memory.

She keeps seeing him; in windows, in air, in the way her heart races when she’s caught unaware. He’s in strangers’ faces, in echoes, in signs, a ghost she worships with trembling lines.

There’s no way to subtly hide my lust for you, my love.

It grips my thoughts and rages in me.

I would give up everything to be inside of you,

to give in to this primal need for your body, your love.

I’ve lost myself in you.

I dare kiss your feet in worship of your divine beauty.

I feel so heavy with your love.

I want to drown in it—like letters lost at sea,

filled with whispers of passion unfinished.

I need you, more than the need I have for myself.

Take me, for I’m yours in ways that cause me pain,

that choke my breath.

I can’t stop this longing.

This forever need.

I need you to help me find a way

to wake up next to your smile,

because that was the first thing I saw of your face,