Real Down To Mars Girl

Other people have always rushed to console me when I say this -- "you can learn to get good at it! I was the same way before I had kids!" But like. I don't want to change. I like my life and I like doing things the way I want to do them. In many ways I'm a lot like the woman who raised me, who I can best describe through the anecdote that she didn't let us have balloons on our birthdays because there was a chance they could pop and make a loud noise that would hurt her ears. I love her and I always will, but there was a lot of warmth and comfort I needed that she just wasn't able to give me and I know I would probably be the same way. It wasn't her choice to have to raise me. I get to make a choice that she didn't.