insomnia

this is quite the dedication

Every knee that aches

Every story you fake

Every chair you break

I have relocated, just so you know! And thank you for the kind words c:

you know, i may have my shortcomings, but i own up to them. i am a shitty person some times. BUT, i am also a good friend to those who are good to me. i’m there for the people in my life that need it, and i ask for little in return. hell, i don’t even ask for you to be there for me.

i was in the hospital a bit over a month ago for threatening suicide. shit sucks, my life sucks, but instead of complaining about it, i’m doing shit to make it better.

i’m sure as fuck not where i want to be, but i’m no longer at rock bottom. my medication is starting to work, i feel more human than ever, and i can actually think straight. my mind isn’t muddled by depressive thoughts. 

hell, i’ve started exercising. this is incredibly uncharacteristic of me. and you know what? i feel great.

and what’s next? i’ll keep getting better.

after that, i’ll do two miles, and so on.