Banes Corner

# |[I looked out the window the tears had soon run out of my body. My loft looked like it had been through a tornado and a hurricane at the same time. My curtains laid in shambles the windows of my living room all but fallen to the ground. The glass was cracked beyond repair. I could have used magic to fix them. Except I couldn't. I couldn't feel the spark in my body anymore. I couldn't feel anything anymore the vodka, whiskey, and brandy in my system all but made up my blood stream. It had been three days, four hours, and 15 minutes since I told him to leave and never come back. Three days since he broke my heart. I knew loving a shadowhunter was a mistake, a grave one. I couldn't regret my decision. I could only move on. I would never love again. His greatest fear was my immortality and his mortality. It should have been how far he was willing to go. I knew one day I would lose him, I just didn't know I would lose him to himself. I shut my eyes and made a rash decision. I sent a fire message to my closet friend and asked her to take over as high Warlock. I packed away my things. Picked up chairman and opened a portal. I would go to London. ]|

|[It had been two hours and fourteen minutes since Alexander broke my heart. Broke was too nice of a word. Pulverized into a million small pieces was better. You'd be surprised how many calls one can get in two hours. I had missed calls from Isabelle, Jace, Clary and even /him/. I didn't want to care. I wasn't going to pick up not tonight. Tonight I was drinking with my cat. My lips trembling over the lip of my glass as a single tear falls soon followed by countless more. I don't know what finds me first the emotional exhaustion or the pain but something finds me first before I know it he's there behind my eye lids. Except he's not /my/ Alexander no he's the shadow hunter and he's walking away from me. That's when I hear the pounding at the door. I don't care I don't get up to get it. I don't yell out for who ever it is to leave. I just don't have anything in me. Nothing Isabelle came barging in screaming like a banshee "What did you do to him? I've never-oh. Um Mangus are you okay? You don't look so good. " I just blinked my golden eyes at her. ]| I think you should go Isabelle. Don't tell anyone what you saw. |[She starts reaching for me and stops "you love him. " looking up I shrug getting up. ]| Good bye Isabelle. |[ I say before retreating to my bedroom. Magically cleaning my make up off my face I crawl into bed and let the night take me. ]|

|[ Centuries passing through feeling nothing having locked my heart away. Love had never been something I wanted to experience again. Who ever said it was better to have loved and lost to have never loved at all. Clearly had never watched their lover age and during while they stayed young forever. My life had become a string of lovers and one night stands some meaning more than others none breaking through the walls I had built around my heart. Then one day while I threw the chairman a birthday party it happened there he was a man after my own heart as soon as I laid eyes on him I couldn't breathe. Everything seized to exist I couldn't take my eyes off him. He awoke things long before having been dormant. Tonight he was marrying /her/ I had tried to win him over convince him to not do this. Tonight he would be hers and I would have lost him forever. Filling another drink with the amber liquid I would not cry. He had awoken me, he had given me life , and now he had given me a fate worse than death. I would live my days as I had but now I would always wonder what my life with Alexander LightWood would have been like. I drank to forget /him/ a fruitless task but a task nonetheless. I made my plans I would throw myself into throwing my glamorous parties I would make friends. I would pretend to live while loving him. ]|